*hugs* I am deeply sorry

Oh my! That is a lot to go through. But please, don't hurt yourself. I know what it is like to lose a loved one. I didn't think I could go on either, but I did. Be strong. Time heals all. And remember, you have friends that love you.

You're not thinking what I think you're thinking....I think.....right?

Though the world seems to collapse around you, do not fear, there is always a light waiting for you, no matter the situation. Life can be cruel... I can agree, but no matter the situation, hurting yourself dose not help. I'm here if you need to talk. bluedraogn_012[at]yahoo.com if you want to email or IM.

dude i know what you are going through...last year i lost 3 grandmas one of which i was really close to and did not know she had died till 4 months after the fact when i tried to call her...apparently my dad and his family don't care enough about me to send me an email or even give me a call to let me know she had died.
Lost an aunt and an uncle and found out my grampa has terminal cancer and may not live past feburary.
A good friend of mine had a heart attack and died.
My Chiwawa Cid got liver cancer and died.

and thats just the deaths...there is also a string of misfourtune as well
Lost my job on the drain crew due to budget cutbacks.

My stepdad lost his factory job because they moved over seas and we lost our house because we could no longer afford the payments.

Was forced to move far away from my Beloved  mudpaws because my stepdad found a REALLY good factory job near Oshkosh Wisconsin but we had to give away our Bolivian Macaw and our cat because the apartment allows only two animals.

Was saving up enough money (using my social security checks)to move mudpaws out here and into a place of our own but then the factory job my stepdad moved us out here for suddenly packs up and moves over seas as well without even a weeks warning forcing me to use the money i have saved and all of my monthly security checks to keep this tiny apartment over our heads and food on the table.

Life is like a roller coaster ride...it has its "ups" and it's "downs".
Do not give up...remember...things always seem their most darkest just before the dawning of a new day.

also...i think you could use one of these.
*hugs*

It may not matter much, but I'm sorry that this had to happen to you.

I wish for you to find all the hope and strength to endure. Do not give in to despair.
Maybe you should turn to someone you can trust. A good friend maybe...

Good luck, and take care.

You can never give up, no matter how bad life becomes, you have to pick yourself up, and press forward. Look to the sky, with your head held up high, knowing that you still have strength to fight on....don't ever let hope fade, always find a reason to hope.