well, valantines day is over. presidents day is not far behind if i remember correctly. im glad, no more mushy bull crap. if you wonder why im like this, its the same every valantines day. ever sence elementary school, no one other than my family ever said "i love you". last time i even thought i was in love, it was gone in a flash. she was taken, and i had no one. not one person has ever uttered the phrase "i love you" fo those who had valantine, good. i hope you live with your partner forever. when i find love, the world will change. and no, i dont belive in online dating, ive seen that firsthand with a group of people i know (no names, that is rude). if i had any heart that i can see, it would either be shrivled, looking for someone, or it would be broken into dust. if you feel the emptiness, you may be older, but ive felt it for 2 lifetimes before this one. ive stared at my past, and ive been alone for a long time. when i find the special person, ill ask her this question, "why have you been hiding from me for so long? were you scared?"


thanks for reading, and happy valentines day