I've never been on the top of anyone's list.

I know this will sound selfish and I'm glad to even be the top 50 of a friends list.

It'll be like....

I'll be number.... say... 8 of a persons unconscious who-to-like-more-than-who

and person number 3 starts problems with me, and i'll stand up for myself. and then i'll have both that person and the person with the unconscious list thing, tagging up against me.

too many people play favorites with friends.

It's probably what caused most of my social and relation problems this past year.

person number, whatever higher than where i am in their point of veiw could easily talk the main person into hating me, just easily.

Even when i suspected it, trying to tell my_friend_im_basing it off of, the only response i get was pretty much "bitchdogman was my friend of so-and-so years, fuck your opinion, go to hell"

Harumph.

And yes, this is another rant, no I'm not emo, things just have to be said.