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15 years ago
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Comissions: yeah right, like anyone would comission me.
note: I mainly do busts shoots and I can't draw boobs
Trades: open
requests: open
Comissions: yeah right, like anyone would comission me.
note: I mainly do busts shoots and I can't draw boobs
All who read this journal please comment, it will help me
As of late, I have be the epicenter of pure, unmitigated depression. My life has ceased to experience any large amounts of happiness. Even when I make new art it depresses me because I see how bad I really am at it. I don't own a tablet, have photoshop or anything like it, and I can't make digital art to save my life. Not even a party can lift my spirit. Just the other day I was at a fourth of July/birthday party and I started to get sleepy for no apparent reason. There was good food (and even beer, though I have pledged to never drink any alcoholic beverage ever in my life) and soda at this party and I still started to doze. I’m not usually a party person, but usually don’t start falling asleep. It has gotten to the point where the most exciting part of my week is playing D&D at my local library, using their internet (mine is as slow as hell) and coming onto art sites. Even that has lost in enjoyment factor as I can’t post my traditional stuff on FA and my internet is too slow to submit it to DA. In the real world, I’m bored out my mind. The days go by and I have nothing to do. TV nowadays is just dumb reality shows and repeats. I’m so socially awkward that I can’t bring myself to hang with friend for fear that I’ll screw it up, as usual. I’ve finished all my videogames and don’t have any money to get new ones. I have no girlfriend, job, life. Even though I’m posting this on the web, I know that most people won’t give a second thought and just pass it by. I just wanted to vent my depressions and see if anyone takes the two seconds it probably take on their internet connection to say anything of merit, not just call me a loser and I have no life.
Sincerely,
Alexian Aldswell
As of late, I have be the epicenter of pure, unmitigated depression. My life has ceased to experience any large amounts of happiness. Even when I make new art it depresses me because I see how bad I really am at it. I don't own a tablet, have photoshop or anything like it, and I can't make digital art to save my life. Not even a party can lift my spirit. Just the other day I was at a fourth of July/birthday party and I started to get sleepy for no apparent reason. There was good food (and even beer, though I have pledged to never drink any alcoholic beverage ever in my life) and soda at this party and I still started to doze. I’m not usually a party person, but usually don’t start falling asleep. It has gotten to the point where the most exciting part of my week is playing D&D at my local library, using their internet (mine is as slow as hell) and coming onto art sites. Even that has lost in enjoyment factor as I can’t post my traditional stuff on FA and my internet is too slow to submit it to DA. In the real world, I’m bored out my mind. The days go by and I have nothing to do. TV nowadays is just dumb reality shows and repeats. I’m so socially awkward that I can’t bring myself to hang with friend for fear that I’ll screw it up, as usual. I’ve finished all my videogames and don’t have any money to get new ones. I have no girlfriend, job, life. Even though I’m posting this on the web, I know that most people won’t give a second thought and just pass it by. I just wanted to vent my depressions and see if anyone takes the two seconds it probably take on their internet connection to say anything of merit, not just call me a loser and I have no life.
Sincerely,
Alexian Aldswell
Fuck the people.
The people = anyone who piss you off / make you feel bad.
And hold on tight to the ones that make you feel good.
*shows right arm scar running from wrist to elbow*
Been there ^^
Dont pay attention to shit that depress you