[This is just for my records. Do not pay this much attention.]

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I had visited the page of the "Knight of Wands" for some time, yet I never expected the turns of events that would follow. To start, I simply asked permission to draw a certain character of the "Knight of Wands," to the high eagerness of the "Knight of Wands," since that would be the 1st time I would draw said character, and even offered to put up the art at the site of the "Knight of Wands." Of course, I drew the picture and got a lot of praise there. However, at this point, things had gone too fast: the "Knight of Wands" ended up declaring me a "SUPER DUPER BEST FRIEND DESUUUUU" to the web (since I discussed my faith with the "Knight of Wands," drew the fan-art, and just was a "nice person") and gave me free permission to draw any character from the "Knight of Wands" simply because I asked permission to draw another character from the "Knight of Wands". (The "Knight of Wands" claimed such move was because I kept asking the "Knight of Wands" in such a polite matter, but all I said was: "Uh, may I please draw [your character]? It is because I will be doing something that requires [your character] (and yes, it is, at least partially, [...]) involved[ with another of your characters]..." The original note was rathere rambly!) Adding to this problem was the feelings of passive-aggressiveness I got; more specifically, I felt that some of the responses I got from the "Knight of Wands" were actually passive-aggressive, like this: http://www.dragonosx.com/webpages/i.....ggression.html .

Of course, as you probably guessed, this relationship eventually fell. I once asked the "Knight of Wands" about an "exclusive" comic series the "Knight of Wands" mentioned in a Journal entry, to get the response about going to an "exclusive" site (which I knew that I could not join due to the TOS). However, I got an apparent contradiction: why the "Knight of Wands" told me about the site if I was not qualified? I asked the "Knight of Wands" much later, only to get a response that both the exclusive site and works are no longer up, so I should just remove all my old "useless" notes. I pressed for an answer, yet VERY LATE (out of laziness), hence the "Knight of Wands" calling me immature for talking about such an old matter. (I heard that from "Stength"...) Moreover, the "Knight of Wands" was just telling me about the site, not telling me to join, much less be seen as someone whose adivce I should always follow! (I never got that idea from the "Knight of Wands"...) The worst part was another contradiction: the "Knight of Wands," while calling me immature about bringing up the old matter, told me that I was old enough to make my own decisions (the context making clear that I had the maturity to make such decisions)! My first reply had too much Phoenix Wright stuff, infuriating the "Knight of Wands" and getting a response that the previous response was final. A second, more conise reply had the "Knight of Wands" decide that I had nothing to say (since I made a poor choice of words at the second note, that is, wrote one/two-worded replies to pieces of the last Note), all while denying the previous anger the "Knight of Wands" had and my wanting to explain the 2nd contradiction. (The "Knight of Wands" also told me that the "Knight of Wands" did not want me talking just about the "exclusive" works, all while letting me talk about anything else. This was a response to a question I did in the 2nd reply as to whether the "Knight of Wands" wanted to stop talking about the "exclusive" works in general or just the current matter about the "exclusive" site, thus rather avoiding the question.) I initially kept asking the "Knight of Wands" to explain the 2nd contradiction all while telling that "The Moon" proved that someone would execute me even when the other previously tells me that the other would never execute me. However, I feared that I would just cause the "Knight of Wands" more misery if I kept going, even if I never again spoke of the "exclusive" works, so I begrudingly broke from the "Knight of Wands" (though I wish that I made clearer that I actually wanted to wait off the matter until I reach a true decision). Befittingly (and expectantly), the "Knight of Wands" executed me.

Later, I caught on an indirect comment someone who knows the "Knight of Wands" made about my fascism due to me breaking off with the "Knight of Wands" because I did not agree with the "Knight of Wands." When I uploaded a Journal entry about my issue with the "Knight of Wands," the someone (for whom, alongside the "Knight of Wands," I called to read my entry) had me understand only a little more. (The "Knight of Wands" works with children, thus the anger at my Phoenix Wrong. Moreover, the science of the job itself was the reason behind the contradiction, though I still do not understand the contradiction. Also, not surprisingly, my Journal entry as disrespectful to both people, thus breaking whatever relationship I had with the "Knight of Wands," hence why the someone told me that I should have handled the thing privately, especially due to the private matter of the whole thing.) The someone, after hearing my inquiries to explain things a bit more, decided with the "Knight of Wands" that I could not understand things, so there was no more talk.


(Yes; the "Knight of Wands" is "Fatal Kernel Error"...)

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I had had a fun time being with viewing stuff from the "Seven of Cups." (I even tried to go to the broadcasts the "Seven of Cups" sent!) However, for some reason, the "Seven of Cups" executed me. I ended up discovering that the "Seven of Cups" had a difficult-to-explain reason. (I did not discover more; after all, the reason was hard to explain!) However, I think such was due to the pieces of disconfort I inadvertedly sent to the "Seven of Cups."

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"The Hermit" always expressed loneliness and frequently wished for relief. I had been looking at "The Hermit" from afar, so I decided to try to help "The Hermit." Unfortunately, "The Hermit" had already executed me before I even commented. (WAs that related to "Adam's Stunt?")

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I remember viewing "The Devil"'s work from afar with interest. I eventually commented for real and started watching "The Devil." Though I ended up failing to critique "The Devil"'s work (one task that drove "The Devil" to actually produce those work+ or buy commissions (one of which "The Devil" was always in need), I had quite the time viewing from afar, commenting on Journal entries/polls, and simply participating in other matters. I even shared some philosophy with "The Devil," him actually having a real sense of what happens in the world, "The Devil" helping and interpreting for me yet encouraging me to think for myself.

One issue though is that "The Devil," hearing my fears about an execution, essentially put down my feelings that "The Devil" will execute me. Later, "The Devil" kept joking that I should retalitate against my executors. I know how this will end...

One time, "The Devil" was, once again, in huge trouble in real life, "The Devil" getting broke, especially out of family favouritism, having "The Devil" go without food for days. Having hearing about "The Devil's" struggles for a long time ("The Devil"'s situation was very similar to Cinderella's at the beginning of the epinomous story.), this entry ended up "pushing me over the edge," so to speak. I ended up lashing at the "favourites," despite me knowing that I should get the whole story. The problem was that the "favourites" were also unwilling victims of this issue. I did not apologize; I let the bitterness get through me. One of the "favourites" warned me that "The Devil" would do a public search for me, the search happening little later. "The Devil" threatened the perpetrator of being a coward who would not let "The Devil" do things alone. If the others "turn him in," so to speak, instead of the perpetrator confessing himself, "The Devil" would make the perpetrator "go through Hell," which was a very real and serious threat. I confessed myself, spewed off emo stuff about myself, and even outright dared "The Devil" to put me through Hell. "The Devil" deemed me that I could not handle "going through Hell," executing me plainly, instead. (Even so, "The Devil" knew that I needed to feel being punished to feel fulfilled, so "The Devil" decided that making me "go through Hell" would actually BENEFIT me. "The Devil" decided to "put me through Purgatory," instead.)