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14 years ago
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for a comprehensive list of all of my significant writings, WIPs, and conceptual works posted as submissions and in journals.
(journal link) The flair of my writing, displayed for thoughtful browsing
for a comprehensive list of all of my significant writings, WIPs, and conceptual works posted as submissions and in journals.(journal link) The flair of my writing, displayed for thoughtful browsing
She enjoys portraying herself as a half-aware and dimwitted beast, drunken in the stupor of her own bodily composure.http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2021291/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:16549270
No.Okay. Let's play a game I like to call "Get to the goddamned point."
tl;dr Answer these two questions and I'll go rot in a corner, making the world a better place for assholes everywhere.
1) Why...
...the fuck...
...are you people watching my page? (OUTSIDE of the fact that you get off on "looking down on people you deem 'lesser' than yourself?" :V)
2) Why do you people constantly visit my page? (Again, outside of "schadenfreude?" :V)
tl;dr Tell me why I fail and you win.
Make sure to behave in the wholly asshat-ish way you would on the forums. =D
Fuck it.
But the smallest exertion of hers could send a man flying; him, and possibly others as well, shattering much of the pride of many an unknowledgeable foe within mere seconds.(link) Something Massive (Unfinished)
(link) The Fetishism of My Works, Displayed For Easy Finding.
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To see my YouTube videos! 
There's no other suitable website on the net where I can both make the fullness of the lucidity of my mind widely known AND gain multiple opportunities to bust down people's pothole-filled logic in a short span of minutes flat.
This journal won't be up for long...
2. You said some interesting things
I try to be a person not so bloated by his own status/ego/baseless pride in every bit of communication I do with others.
Fun Opinion:
People who get off on other people's failures/setbacks/shortcomings are sicker in the head than me.
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Fun fact:
My generation didn't grow up on the piss poor logic that is "I'M BETTER THAN YOU BEFORE YOU EVEN THINK/SAY/DO ANYTHING" known as "win" and "fail" and "owned" and this retarded ass "The Game" nonsense.
To my knowledge, all "The Game" was ever about is the consistent relationship-related ignorance between males and females and all of the cannon fodder that is all the redundant "Baby, you're everything to me" / "Boo, I need you" / "Chick, I don't need you anymore" / "But'chyo lies ain't workin' now. Look who's hurtin' now? I had to shut you down. I-had-to-shut-you-downnn" "Love song" music like there isn't a single goddamned BETTER thing in the world to pour all of ones time, effort, energy, and $$$RESOURCES$$$ into outside of "playing in someone else's ass." :V
'Nother Fun Fact:
The color coding in the text above took actual conscious effort to make appear right.
Thinking ThouroughlyIt seperates humanity from...humanity. :V
But the way you said it is good lol Direct and cut like swiss knife XD Colors is good.
I've provided two links at the beginning of this journal.
Do some research. :V
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tl;dr I'm a nutcase.
Never mind the fact that what most people enjoy was thought up by minds like mine... :V
Or do you need a lesson!!!
You just made me think of a specific someone.........and for masochistic reasons that feel oddly comforting to me given the nature of my unpopularity at that time...
...DAMN! ;_; <333
"Low blows" aren't fair, 12...
And what's wildly erotic is the fact that he was actually demeaning me [b]and everyone else - INCLUDING ME - thought it was sexy as hell...
It drives me wild because it happened back when I didn't really know many people here...and the [sexy masochism in the] fact that it was meant to drive me away yet make me feel very comfortable...
I like you for -who- you are. Your creative light in the midst of the suffering.
The overwhelming creativity in the face of mechanized individuals being taught to think is a sin.
The fact you raise questions where others might not, and summarily are willing to shake the foundations in order to ensure a better style of living.
I like you for being you.
This journal isn't an outlash against my watchers by any means. I just have a few unerving questions I wish I knew the answers to...even though those answers probably aren't much cause for the anger I've displayed here.
In any case, I feel sure that my name is getting around. I want it to be known that even though my profile info is vaguely informing, I already know the most basic reasons why my pageviews rise so quickly over short periods of time...and this, for someone who only writes, as compared to the multitude of people here who excel in the visual arts. I'm self-aware of the simplest of reasons for it, most of which likely hinge on my personality traits...which likely causes peole to veer off in the directions of my journals and, of course, my submissions. "Making things" just draws attention. And the presence of my avatar - the nature of, and personality IN, my commenting - all over the site creates "focus points" for people to want to click on my avatar and/or "drop-down box" info for any given reasons. Simple.
I'm sensitive.I'm not paranoid, because if THAT were the case, I wouldn't be as outspoken and liberally expressive as I am. I don't like being thought to be a "laughingstock," because for reasons that have never and WILL NEVER make sense to me, such was very prominent in my past life (but not at home nor in past workplaces). It's no suprise that with a person's actions comes the speculation of others based around the nature of what is being done by the person of note. I don't "freak out" at the more in-depth implications of "becoming known/popular," because none of it is my business until an issue of quote [i]"defamation of my character" becomes apparent to me. And what can I do yo reduce it? Nothing. But I'll sure as hell have quite a bit of "2 cents" to add to anything concerning me being blown out of CONTEXT.
Disturbing as this may sound, I have a tendacy to want any and every single inaccurate rumors spread about me "existantially EXPUNGED" and utterly erased if not destroyed...
...because misinterpretation of me is one of the biggest "stories of my life."
Next in line comes brtually implying thoughts concerning any given offender...
...thank you Kaiser.
that being said, is there any possibility that I'm watching you because I somehow find whatever problems you may be facing to be amusing?
I'm not sure of the exact reason why I'm watching theres numerous reasons
I find you to be respectable
to an extent I find you to be someone I can get along with
your comments/replies dont unintentionally make me feel like I'm half my age
And this journal is more of an outlash and "defense" of myself. I don't like being thought of in, what I'll call "mediocre thoughts." If the comment
The way I see it, if I am so "horrible" and/or "misguided/mischevious" a person, then why not tell such directly to me? I'm not about to jump into the forums here and post some half-baked thread that all the narcissistic fools who frequent that forum (in clinging to whatever they suppose is "good standing" :V) will only disect and distort to their own sick pleasures. I'd rather communicate with friends and OPEN-MINDED folks here on FA, where I can gather opinions and views based on whatever I bring up to discuss...where people actually GIVE A DAMN about respecting others in keeping in mind each person's "own right" to fair judgement.
but I have reread the journal, and while I realise she meant no ill will, however seeing the ramblings of a possibly schitzophrenic man posted in a journal and a few comments finding the ramblings amusing, still offend me for personal reasons
I guess its like using the term "retard" jokingly such as "haha dude you can be such a retard sometimes" and then not understanding why the kid with the mentally challenged brother gets offended. I hope you can understand where I'm coming from
Personally I'd rather reserve the demeaning word "retard" for people who are actually pretty smart overall...
...just to let them know how much being an asshole never "adds" to anything as much as it will forever "detract" from EVERYTHING. :V
I'm not trying to be a smart ass, its an honest thought
but I agree it would be amusing to see how assholes would react if they were suddenly the ones refered to as "retards" instead of the mentally challenged, if only for a short while (for he who wished misfortune on another will one day have misfortune wished upon himself)
It's like with the term "geek." Some folks think it's still a demeaning and/or derogatory term...
But about three years back, I always saw it associated with more GOOD than BAD!
although if I may say my intentions where nothing more than to defend the man and all who may share a similar mental disease (my grandfather being one of them), again I do apologise for thinking wrong of Snowpaw