I'm getting it waaaay worse than I previously thought. For the past few days it's been getting increasingly harder to sleep. 2 nights ago, I only had 3 hours or less of sleep, I forced myself to wake up in order to be able to go to sleep at a proper time last night. I went to my bed at around 8:30-9:00pm.
I tossed and turned, had tea, got up to take a bath, tried to wear myself out physically, went for a night walk, lamented on the past with my roomate, tried to sleep again....

It's now 10:34 am
I still havn't been able to sleep.
Now the neighbors are being so fucking loud upstairs that it's making the windows rattle and some things keep falling off the walls. I don't know what the hell they keep doing but ever since they moved in they've been horrendously loud, and conveniently during the time where it's not considered a night disturbance. So even when I try to sleep, by the time I do finally get tired, the neighbors wake up (around 6-7) and start yelling.
EVERY god damn morning, there's a mom yelling with a kid. Always around the same time. and it's sunday, so the kid's not trying to argue staying out of school. I have no idea what the kid's bitch-whining about, or what she's sooo pissed about, plus they're always screaming in spanish.
We had to pound the ceiling just to get them to shut the fuck up. Gonna complain

The rabbit also always gets conveniently VERY restless and NOISY whenever I'm about to attempt to get to sleep (banging her bowl around, shoving at her water bottle, darting around loudly)


A while back I thought it was my bed. I got a new pillow and a mattress cover, and I slept great for a bit after that. But that started depleting and I suffered less and less sleep.

I'm not sure what's keeping me up anymore. Jittery body, over active mind, lights, neighbors, people staying up late, shitty bed... I can't put my finger on it.

I'm a bit worried. I once had a time in highschool where I was unable to sleep for about 3-4 days in a row, no matter how hard I tried, it made me a nervous wreck in a half and I had to take days off to recover. The doctor had to put me on meds to help me sleep.
I hope I don't have to do that again, I really don't, I can't afford it like back then when I was on healthcare.
I will be trying to sleep now, so I'm just letting ANYONE who tries to contact me know that I might be asleep for most of the day.
I need sleep. Desperately. My head hurts, I can't distinguish sounds properly, my eyes feel dry, and my mind is going into a really weird hyper active process where it's thinking too much shit at once.

I just hope lack of sleep doesn't collapse into a manic episode, my mom's had them 3 times and she warned me lack of sleep was a sign one might be approaching. Urghh, doctor said it would be unlikely for me to have bi-polar but it's still a chance since my mom has it.


Ok enough rambling, wish me luck. *headesk*