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What i'm in it for.
14 years ago
“And it is still true, no matter how old you are -- when you go out into the world, it is best to hold hands and stick together.”
Yep yep. I know I know. I should be doing Uni work, but here I am writing another journal, sucessfully procrastinating.
I just wanted to ask you something.
What are you into this all for? Furry? Ab? DL? Something else entirely. Whatever your 'thing' may be?
See i'm mainly an Adult baby, always have been, probably always will be (although its impossible to predict the future) and I was thinking late last night why I am the way I am. And it comes down to one thing.
Positive attention
I used to know quite a few ageplay females, and whilst they wore nappies, really they played around the 4-8 age range and just tended to be bratty so they could be spanked or disciplined, and I remember on occasion when we would play, they would get frustrated with me because I wouldn't join in with whatever it was they were doing, cause I knew that it would get me into trouble. now I don't actually mind being spanked once in a while if I've done something bad, but usually its because i really HAVE done something bad and not because i've done something to deliberately get me spanked. My husband is also my daddy figure and he is re-parenting me so of course there gonna be discipline at points, but on the whole I really truely am a good girl. Yes i'm grubby, I get muddy a lot and dont stay clean, but thats not the same as naughty. im just like any other baby girl out there, throwing food down herself or falling over, or playing and getting dirty.
But its the positive side to being a young child that i crave. The unconditional love, being told that im a good girl and that im a clever girl, even though i've only scribbled a picture or counted to 5. Making my parent proud of me, getting hugs and love and snuggling. Knowing that my family will always be there for me, knowing that i'm safe.
That's what i'm in it for
So what about yoo?
I just wanted to ask you something.
What are you into this all for? Furry? Ab? DL? Something else entirely. Whatever your 'thing' may be?
See i'm mainly an Adult baby, always have been, probably always will be (although its impossible to predict the future) and I was thinking late last night why I am the way I am. And it comes down to one thing.
Positive attention
I used to know quite a few ageplay females, and whilst they wore nappies, really they played around the 4-8 age range and just tended to be bratty so they could be spanked or disciplined, and I remember on occasion when we would play, they would get frustrated with me because I wouldn't join in with whatever it was they were doing, cause I knew that it would get me into trouble. now I don't actually mind being spanked once in a while if I've done something bad, but usually its because i really HAVE done something bad and not because i've done something to deliberately get me spanked. My husband is also my daddy figure and he is re-parenting me so of course there gonna be discipline at points, but on the whole I really truely am a good girl. Yes i'm grubby, I get muddy a lot and dont stay clean, but thats not the same as naughty. im just like any other baby girl out there, throwing food down herself or falling over, or playing and getting dirty.
But its the positive side to being a young child that i crave. The unconditional love, being told that im a good girl and that im a clever girl, even though i've only scribbled a picture or counted to 5. Making my parent proud of me, getting hugs and love and snuggling. Knowing that my family will always be there for me, knowing that i'm safe.
That's what i'm in it for
So what about yoo?
I think you've quite well summed up at least part of what I'm around for. You've seen me, I tend to stick to my adult age, but that's because even as a child I was nearly grown up anyway. I've never been all that bad mannered and never felt the need to act out to get attention. If I'm going to roleplay as a child, I want to be the one the adults don't have to watch so close and the one who brings back his dishes from the peanut butter sandwich and milk he was given. I'd rather be patted on the head or scratched behind the ears than spanked on the bottom, even in play.
I can't fully understand, however, why I like to be an adult in diapers. It doesn't make sense to me, I really can't fathom it, but I get some subtle satisfaction deep in the back of my head. I know part of it is feeling wrapped up and safe inside the plush fortress about my bottom (which is why I favor hoodies, I feel like I can hide inside them), but theres more to it than that.
I think I'm working my way towards the 'cub' side of things, however. I've really become attached to pacis and I'm starting to want to be padded 24/7, not just at play. Much like you, I don't know what my future holds however, if I'll find an equilibrium where I feel comfortable forever.
The furry thing is just a sort of add-on to my ABDL side, but I feel a similar protection and satisfaction when I'm amongst other furry sympathizers, if you will.
The real bottom line is that I'm not sure. I only have some vague ideas.
Hmmm, I'll give it a try anyway.
At first I was on DA for non ABDL purposes as I was following my sister and did "normal" art, also people I knew IRL knew this account and I wasn't going to make pictures with that ABDL side, as I didn't really understand what it was yet, and thought it was some kind of pedophile stuff ><
But one day, I searched "diaper" on DA and discovered everything. There was so much pictures, I was going back everyday to look, search more etc. After some months, I was feeling sick, and decided to join with another account.
I became a furry only later, when I was asked to do some furry art mostly, but I was already interested before and the babyfur pictures were really cool in my opinion. One day, as many people were leaving DA to FA and I was always hearing about FA, I came here to see the babyfur content, and I realized that there was waaay more content than on DA so I simply moved here ( though I'm still on DA but my main abdl account is now this one )
I'm not only interested in babyfurs though and I'm thinking about doing more general furry art as I left my DA main account that became a troll acount before I left it ><
Yerr, I flip between AB and DL when it comes to the diapers aspect. Anything else AB related, that's not diapers is all for the innocence, I mean, I'll even be completely open about certain parts - the teddy bear part to be honest. The furry aspect has always been there, but I didn't know it till after I had been in the TB/AB/DL scene for a while. Recently, with all the art I've done I've actually starting to come away from the DL part of me - which I quite like to be honest. I feel more balanced.
I believe everything is about balance, you just have to find yourself a balance with everything, and that includes your Uni work :)
I was raised to be independent to a fault relying on people as little as possible. If there is something goes wrong its up to me alone to solve it. If I've done something great it is by my own hand. I've had to find and follow my own path in life. It sucks, it really sucks. its trying and I'm really not good at it.
Being an infant no one expects that of you there is always someone there to help you and take care of you always. You can be completely submissive to someone yet know that you be cared for and loved. You don't need to worry about the big things. You just have to exist
The furry side of things its cuter and softer.
Of course, that was only the beginning and I quickly found my place here as an artist and someone who loved porn (13 year old male, what are you gunna do?). However,
over time i found my AB interest to increase the more i looked into it and eventually my Transgendered self became the a little fusky girl I have as my fursona today. Up
until recently, I didn't have all that much interest in being a mother but i guess time changes things. As I became more and more enthralled and comfortable with myself
as a female, the whole caretaker/mother complex exploded exponentially. So now both caretaking and being cubby are my happy zones, giving me the same kind of pleasure
in different forms.
I would like to add that you're exactly the kind of cub I enjoy looking after, whereas, you fit and play into the role. I have met so many cubs that are either oversexual or
annoyed when i try to care for them. They don't act like cubs and certainly don't really seem to enjoy having someone attempt to look after them. :/
As for FA in general, I enjoy geeky people, and FA is filled to the brim with them. XD
Also my baby side is very very real to me. when im with people who make me feel safe I feel i can let go and be my baby self. its not entirely full on when im online simply because when im being my little self in real life then I wouldnt be able to use a computer. But rping with you is certainly lovely and always leaves me feeling fuzzy and happy
D'aww, Well maybe one day i can visit my lil girl. After all, an entry level job in what I'm studying is supposed to give me a decent pay, and i don't really have too many plans with my life other then traveling. So this could be my excuse to finally leave this country for a bit. Plus I honestly am really curious to see the little girl you are. ^^
aren't being too loud or scarey right?
It wouldn't happen soon but at least I know you'll welcome it. :)
Some people come in out of the S/M community, looking for a less scary-looking power exchange environment. Not surprisingly, those people tend to be very sexual cubs (or adults who want to be very sexual with the cubs they play with) and they also have a strong attraction to things like spanking. For these people, age play is more of a flavor of S/M play, and there's no particular need to be sensibly cubby, since it's just for flavor anyway.
Other people in the community are more into age regression/infantilism and just want to be little and have someone care for them and make them feel happy and safe.
I don't think either one is wrong, but I've noticed a tendency for people to assume that any age player they meet will be in the same group as they are, which can make for some significant mismatches, as people in the former camp quickly get bored with non-sexual age play and people in the latter camp can be a bit disturbed by it.
The solution, of course, is communication, but when ISN'T that the solution?
*hugs*
Its not my thing but equally hanging out with some friends who were heavily into that side of the coin, I learnt to understand and accept them too. These days I think I have a healthy attitude to most aspects of Ageplay as a result. No one side is better than the other, and people who snub one side or the other, saying one type are freaks, really push my anger buttons.