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Venting so you probably don't want to read this.
14 years ago
I've been REALLY self conscious about my weight recently..
Like... Everyone around me is all constantly talking about how "big" girls look better and all that
wonderful jazz but then I think about how I'm just so skinny, and no matter how much I eat I just can't
gain any weight and I just look in the mirror and see this in betweeny, not big and beautiful and not
skinny at ALL. Just like always I feel like I just don't fit in anywhere... That also works with my
personality. I'm not nice as balls to everyone and I'm not a total asshole either, I'm TOO nice or TOO mean constantly.
I don't think that's really what I'm trying to describe but whatever. Either way, it's just all together odd...
I just feel like I have to change one way or another because the world doesn't have anything to
support people like ME. I feel like The way I look is gross, my personality is either lacking or too
overpowering, my hair needs cut, and I feel like without makeup or something my face just looks
stupid. Hell I've been told about a day or two ago that the only thing that looks nice is my eyes.
At least I have something right? Well it's a bit hard when that's the only thing you've got.
On another note, stuck on portal 2 (that I got yesterday) and it's pissing me off to the point where I might actually look up a walk-through which is totally against my gaming morals.
That and my inspiration for art is at a whole time low, but I'm still sketching out the promised art pieces.
Like... Everyone around me is all constantly talking about how "big" girls look better and all that
wonderful jazz but then I think about how I'm just so skinny, and no matter how much I eat I just can't
gain any weight and I just look in the mirror and see this in betweeny, not big and beautiful and not
skinny at ALL. Just like always I feel like I just don't fit in anywhere... That also works with my
personality. I'm not nice as balls to everyone and I'm not a total asshole either, I'm TOO nice or TOO mean constantly.
I don't think that's really what I'm trying to describe but whatever. Either way, it's just all together odd...
I just feel like I have to change one way or another because the world doesn't have anything to
support people like ME. I feel like The way I look is gross, my personality is either lacking or too
overpowering, my hair needs cut, and I feel like without makeup or something my face just looks
stupid. Hell I've been told about a day or two ago that the only thing that looks nice is my eyes.
At least I have something right? Well it's a bit hard when that's the only thing you've got.
On another note, stuck on portal 2 (that I got yesterday) and it's pissing me off to the point where I might actually look up a walk-through which is totally against my gaming morals.
That and my inspiration for art is at a whole time low, but I'm still sketching out the promised art pieces.
You're sweet >w<
Also, if you want portal 2 help, I beat the whole game, if that helps :3
Also, thanks
No problem btw- If you need anything ever just lemme know, I love to help peeps :3
I'm uh.. on .. Chapter 4 first test chamber.
Everyone throws noise at me about how I'm "so pretty" and that "being skinny isn't everything", but I can't help but feel uncomfortable sometimes.
I feel your pain. :c
What I think is a good course of action is to try and forget it. As long as you're healthy, you're fine. Beauty is not a rash generalization, despite what one might see in magazines and on TV. People are like different species of flowers, no two have exactly the same features.
And one thing that I found helped me see myself in a better light was taking more bike rides every now and again.. not like going on any intense workout regimen or anything, just getting outside more so I feel healthier. I totally recommend it, it's a lot of fun too. c:
At least I'm not the only one on the boat :P
And don't worry, tons of people have the same issue.. my best friend is the same way about her weight, even though she looks fine and she's in a healthy range x3