So, one of our kittens developed a rather bad eye problem. To the point it swelled up so much he couldn't even close it. We took him to the vet yesterday and they said they'd try some eye drops and medication. If it didn't go down, the eye would need to be removed. My mom got very upset, but the vets told us that it is actually very common in kittens like the one we took in - who looks like a siamese with blue eyes, but he's not purebred or anything. He's just special.

The problem though is that they need $300.00 as a deposit up front. Everything total will be about $800.00+..but they plan on giving him all his shots and then when he recovers he'll be neutered once he's also old enough (still fairly young). They tested him for feline leukemia and aids and all that and he's negative to everything, thankfully. His recovery looks GREAT. Just one problem.

My parents can't quite afford this right now. He's going to have the surgery, but its going to make things super super tough here at the house and it's going to affect everyone. I won't have to sell my snakes and quit breeding, thankfully, because that's MY thing. I've been doing all that myself, thankfully..However, it does affect me with asking for help.

They have to have this thing paid off by September 30th. Mom doesn't make that much at her job right now..and she's going to be financially strapped with this bill and the other bills she has. I can't ask her for help any longer. And I can't ask Dad for much more help because he's having to pay for all my college stuff.

I CAN'T find a job locally. It's near impossible..I've applied so many times..had very few interviews that did nothing...and all I have is doing work on the side (its very rare), or doing commission work which is just as rare usually.

I have to figure out a way how to properly support myself and my snakes. In order to start my own breeding thing with rats and mice - I need to get the extra money to do so and get a proper set up. Unfortunately, all my spare money is going into paying off for some new breeder snakes I'm getting, and towards ordering the next shipment of food (which I need about $50.00 more and I should be good for another month or two). I do have $60.00 in my paypal, but that's already set aside for both paying off someone, AND for snake food. I don't go out much anymore unless its to my boyfriend's house, so I'm not spending money on things I don't need usually.

But, the problem is..I'm screwed to say the least. I don't know if dad can afford to give me $40.00 a week like he can right now - at least until School starts.

I'm already stressed out. I'm shaking right now because I know things are getting super freaking tough and we can never catch a break. I may be forced into selling things I don't want to sell. I may have to cut back on some of my snakes..though Id on't want to because they all have a position for breeding in the future.

I know most of my watchers are always broke or have money for other commissioners..but I'm really hoping my luck changes. This is my only source of income. My adoptables are failing..and I've only maybe three or four commissions in the past two months. I've earned a total of $68.00. $60 is from this commission I'm still working on whereas the other $8.00 came from small ones for icons and a headshot...

If you guys could find it in your hearts to please help me out, I don't care how..it'd be appreciated. I don't want to accept donations - as I would much rather earn the money. I'm going to be setting up work hours soon after this weekend...and then I'm going to do whatever I can. I may have to cancel my Harry Potter party coming up..and not even go to the premiere - which is going to devestate me because I want to be there for the finally.

I'm screwed. I'm stressed, and I'm ready to scream at the world and start breaking things.

I've been going on and on how I need money..how its hard to find a job. How I'm trying to limit thes tress from my parents but..seriously, its all true. You can't tell me to go find a job. HOW CAN I FIND A JOB WHEN I HAVE FILLED OUT SO MANY DAMN APPLICATIONS AND GOT NOTHING!?!?! There are probably hundreds of people in my city looking for a job, and more than likely most of them have degrees already! So they're top priority! I can't find a job if nobody wants to hire me. This is my only source and I'm doing my best to improve on my art work, because I know it sometimes sucks compared to some greatly known artists..but I do my best.

So please, I need help. I need to earn money. I need to make sure I can feed my snakes..I can't even afford a licence to sell them, so if I get caught selling when the babies hatch...eh..I'm screwed.

So I have alot of things to pay for and no money...other than the measly $20.00 a weak I get from dad. And that's already split up as it is. $10.00 for spending, $5.00 for personal items, $5.00 for debts. Not really that much...


So. It comes down to prices on my commissions...I need help deciding on good prices..at least for a sale..that might get better attention. I need help getting more people in. What do I do?

And please, PLEASE, don't start commenting sayin g"I'm sorry, I wish I could but I'm broke.." i've heard that at least a hundred times and its very taxing and frustrating...I need positive feedback. I need HELP. Apologies do nothing, I hate to say it. They do everything but help..~_~

So much for a good week. T_T

Nothing ever stays good for long, does it? I noticed in my case one good thing will happen and then I'll get horrid luck afterwards. What sucks is this kitten doesn't deserve it..yet I think it was my luck that caused it to get sick.