I'm taking a moment to realize something that should've been pretty obvious to me SEVERAL posts ago.



People, thank you for taking an interest in my writing.



On both submissions and journals, I've recieved feedback for the kinds of questions that I ask too often. I've also recieved comments from people saying that they just don't know what to say in a comment in regards to a submission or journal. My writing style is very hard to follow without proper scenic narration or a proper narrative, and I realize this. My weakness in writing is that I always try to simply "tell" a reader something instead of paint a picture that they can visualize, or convey a situation in an understandable way. There's not much to comment on if you really don't know where a story began or ended, and I'm sorry about that. It happens when I write all too often.

When it comes to a setting, my thoughts and ideas are much too simple. I know where one or more characters should be, but I just don't have a good enough vocabulary to describe these places all too well. In the English language, there is a word for everything. But adjectives are the most common words I know how to use properly, along with very few nouns and verbs. And the format doesn't help paint a picture of a scene either.

If you've noticed, I'm trying to write out much more narration than just character responses. Even still, the most you get out of it is imagery. I don't know what goes through the minds of visual artists on FA when they draw such vivid imagery, but it's probably not too complicated. I have a bad habit of overcomplicating things.

I get inspired to write for the weirdest of reasons. At whatever point in time, I'll start to utter a few words - usually a response from one character to another character (that's why I usually make a "dialogue concept" that doesn't have a beginning or end to the story it centers around). I mention things that would most likely be the input and responses between two characters, or from one character to one or more characters, giving way to questions and speculations between all the characters involved. I even imply subtle teasing or insults from one character to another, which may seem a little off-base, but is something that happens regularly in real life conversations (minus any efforts of a "prose kind" of course, which may make the interaction seem a little out of place at times). I don't have multiple personalities lol, just a knack for developing characterization.

Honestly though, when I'm out and about, or otherwise preoccupied outside my home, I hear things or see things that are all like small inspirations for me to write out a story with much more attention paid to scenery and an overall setting. I think I have a problem rooted in short-term memory loss. I can remember things in vivid detail, but usually not until a lengthy duration of time has passed. So in a weird sense, that just means that I honestly DO understand what many words mean (because 9 times out of 10 they're just common sense), but only after I've been reminded through direct experience. XD

The two stories from over a decade back that I wrote about [some of] my characters (one being a writing class assignment and the other just for personal advancement) were VERY heavy in narration. But even though I've lost those writings for good, I can safely say that now, I'm not exactly happy with how they turned out (even though my teacher gave me an A+ on the first one). I was really getting ahead of myself when I wrote out the second one, since it became much more "mature" around what may have been its 7-21-11 EDIT: anti-climatic section 3/4ths into its main focus (it was more organized, but maybe not exactly a "Chapter" per se). I don't mean mature in the sense of eroticism, but rather, graphics. Akira, Katherine, Nigel, Sheryl, and Slade had found out where Katherine's sister Alma was located through Motrax's guidance (that they had gained from visiting his dwelling place. He was a feral dragon in my old story). They arrived at a specific town to find her covered in the blood of many slaughtered people, all of whom were killed by none other than Alma herself.

I lost the will to continue it. There was a sentence... I don't remember how it went. At that point, I was simply unable to find anymore inspiration for that story. I kinda got the idea to include such a bloody, graphical scene from something I had seen from the PS1 game called "Xenogears" (I played a whole lot of Xenogears around the time I was writing that second story). I couldn't continue it back then because my knowledge of my characters and the overall universe they dwell in let alone their general interactions with one another were HARDLY as interlaced as they are now. I wanna believe that I'd feel embarrassed to post up that story if I still had it, since I wrote it when I was only about 16 or 17, but being the eccentric that I am, that's probably bull. XD <3

Even though the "trading of dialogue" style that I normally write in is hard to follow, it's the style that I'm most comfortable with...sometimes. And my style of narration can be a little lacking at times. I know it can use lots of improvement. It's all about timing with me. If I choose to narrate a story from a 3rd-Person perspective, I need to be doing it at a time that's just right for me. To me, it's kinda like listening to music that I really wanna hear, or watching a cutscene on a videogame that I really wanna enjoy, meaning that I need almost complete comfort to write it out, or it'll come out in a pretty bad form overall. >_<

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I also wanna take this time to say sorry to everyone for generally being annoying. Some of you probably aren't faulting me for that, and that's all good and fine. But I still felt it needed to be said.

I'm trying to make things a little more simple in my life so that I don't end up feeling bitchy all the time. And "keepin' it all the way real," there's probably alot of you who can see why that should generally be the NORM with me because of stuff like what I have in my scraps gallery... >_>