A few weeks a go ive been a real pest for someone who was a friend here.. This was birdskull i was a fucking idiot because i asked her whats wrong been wrong? Why have you been kinda off when you talk to me? She replied that she cant keep up and she doesn't have to really, im just shortening it out... But still something was wrong and i fucking made another note.. I said that you have been kinda mean to me lately is there anything wrong? Anything you want to talk about? Be honest and tell me whats wrong? She replied and lashed out on me.. She didn't want to stay friends anymore because im to clingy and obsessive.. Ill admit thats true i never really gave her peace and I hate my self for this because I get clingy to alot of people I've lost a friend before for the exact same reason.. This put me in a huge depression and so is this.. I.. I.. Couldn't be more sorry to her I was really upset and still am.. To be honest I haven't felt happy in a long long time.. She made me happy and I got a bit clingy because she made me happy I gained a crush on her which made shit worse I ended that in a convo with her and I won't say more.. I still wanted to stay friends but like always I was still obsessive.. I gave her alot of art and time I'm a bit upset because those remind me of her.. I even bought her a game on steam... Im very depressed now about this and I don't know what to do anymore.. I'm considering on seeing a psychiatrist tomorrow to help me with this depression..

She has unwatched, unfollowed, Un-whatever and blocked me on many sites were she is watching me and refuses to talk to me...

I can't find anyway other better way to apologies...

I simply treat friends as if they were family I don't care how far they are I just care..

some of that convo I typed may be off I don't know I just don't care anymore.... I plan to move on after when I see this psychiatrist and try and change my clingyness to people thanks for reading....


also on a side note.. I paused a 2 char commission from  misscritter and she's waiting on an update on it. it was originally going to be a gift for birdskull but luckily she hasn't gotten around to doing it.. I would not have been able to look at the picture after that if it had birdskulls char on it... so I'm looking for someone who I preferred who has a bird char that is a girl but I could change it to a guy or a different speceis.. the picture will be clean and simply cute. so just let me know if you want in.. I already have an idea to a few people who were nice enough to talk to me after this.. I just hope to many people wont want in..