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It's my birthday this Saterday and I'm scared
18 years ago
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So last year at my birthday I stated that my 31st year is a little freaky for me. See when I was 6 couldn’t see me living past the age of 31 (or 32). Possibly because I was only 6 and 31 seemed like an eternity but now that my birthday is right around the corner I’m seriously afraid that this is my last year of life. Now it should be known that I’m in good health, I don’t drink, smoke, do drugs, I don’t eat much junk. I have only 11% body fat (so says my doctor) although I don’t exercise much. But that’s not counting the bus that could take me out one day ^_^
When I was in high school I read a book called Panther in the Sky where the Shawnee leader Tecumseh’s father saw that he (the father) was going to die because he saw his star disappear from the sky. My Mother believes that my Grandfather knew he was going to die the night he was hit by that drunk driver because of the things he did that night where out of his usual routine. Unable to change the events that where to happen yet, didn’t know exactly what was going to happen. Just going though the motions as it where. My Grandfather was a full blood Mohawk.
So these two things sit on my mind as does that day when I was 6 years old. Maybe I’m crazy… I hope am… But we will see. So how would you know if died? Well, I’m going to try… try being the key word here… to make a post for every single day of my 31st year. Some will be short, some maybe long, most will be boring. If I can’t make a post and I know in advance I’ll say so so people won’t freak out. So here’s to roughly 365 posts… I hope, and if not. It’s been real. ^_^
When I was in high school I read a book called Panther in the Sky where the Shawnee leader Tecumseh’s father saw that he (the father) was going to die because he saw his star disappear from the sky. My Mother believes that my Grandfather knew he was going to die the night he was hit by that drunk driver because of the things he did that night where out of his usual routine. Unable to change the events that where to happen yet, didn’t know exactly what was going to happen. Just going though the motions as it where. My Grandfather was a full blood Mohawk.
So these two things sit on my mind as does that day when I was 6 years old. Maybe I’m crazy… I hope am… But we will see. So how would you know if died? Well, I’m going to try… try being the key word here… to make a post for every single day of my 31st year. Some will be short, some maybe long, most will be boring. If I can’t make a post and I know in advance I’ll say so so people won’t freak out. So here’s to roughly 365 posts… I hope, and if not. It’s been real. ^_^
Good luck with that.. I'm trying to become less of a clam myself. :P
time flies.. doesnt it?
Don't be silly, yer not gonna die just cuz yer 32.
If you wanna believe in Fate - it will end up ruling your Life.
Just have a Happy Birthday Joe! :)
So look out, listen to your inner warnings, and don't shy away from giving Death a melvin.
Crazy ? I won't say that : an idea you've had since so long, weighted by weird events that happened around you is enough to make you doubt and stress a lot, that's for sure. Even the mst rational human got his own "beliefs" into "irrational" things, I just hope these are indeed irrational fears.
One thing I'd tell you : I know it's not that easy because it's been 25 years you're thinking about it, but try NOT to think about it indeed. Some things happen because you think too much about them, and this is not an irrational fact. Just live, OK ? ;) ;)
And if you should somehow be fated to go down at 31, well - damned if you should let it ruin the time you DO have left. Carlos Castaneda taught that Death is always standing behind our left shoulder, not as an enemy to take our life, but as a friend to remind us to use every remaining hour to the fullest. Be happy! Beat death by living - by refusing to give up the chances for joy and self-growth still ahead of you. Hell, I'll be 58 next April and by all odds you have more years ahead of you than I do.
Besides, it could all have been a miscommunication. Maybe you were supposed to have a revelation that you would die when you are 81
not 31.
---Ray Jones---
i thought the same thing about 20 when i was a kid but here i'm 37 soon to be 38 on the 23rd of this moth and thinking im almot 40.
i thought 40 was ancient when i was a kid.
nowaddays i look at my birthda as just another day nothing special.
seems the older you get the faster time goes by.
i thought the same thing about 20 when i was a kid but here i'm 37 soon to be 38 on the 23rd of this moth and thinking im almot 40.
i thought 40 was ancient when i was a kid.
nowaddays i look at my birthda as just another day nothing special.
seems the older you get the faster time goes by.
I'll be turning 32 in September. It still seems so unreal, too. 8 years way from 40. o_O;