WARNING:
The following journal starts off sounding like a sob stories but there's good stuff that comes of it. So please read the whole journal.

Ever had one of those moments where you realize that there's a chance that you might not have a lot of time left?
Well, I recently did!

Before y'all start freaking out, nothing bad happened yet but my damn stomach problems seem to be getting worse...
For those who don't know, about a year and a half ago, I started having strong pains in my tum and they've been hanging around since.
(I'd also like to say that gastrointestinal issues run in my family and I've been having various issues since I was 13 years old.)

The pain is always there and it used to be occasionally unbearable but, as of late, the unbearable bits seem to be occurring much more frequently.
In fact, they're been getting so bad that, despite being a heavy sleeper, they've been waking me up at night (an impressive feat in itself) and sleep in general is getting to be rather difficult.
On top of that, for the last couple of months, I've been unable to feel hunger and it's not uncommon that I go days without food (at which point someone either reminds me to eat or I feel weak & pass out).

Which brings us to now!
I'm going to a Gastroenterologist's office this Tuesday for an [expensive and uncomfortable] esophagogastroduodenoscopy.
On the plus side, it'll hopefully determine WHY this is happening & determine HOW to treat it!

And now for the really good part!
The sleepless nights have been giving me a lot of time to think about stuff.
About life, death, work, love, et cetera and, in short, I've decided that I've been going nowhere-ish and this has to change.
I've been socializing more, working on love stuff, working towards getting my dream job, drawing more and working on various other projects!
In fact, once I fully get my drawing mojo back and finish my current commissions, I'm might open up a sale!
(So keep your eyes open!)

And, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to draw a bit before bed!
Ciao~