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In a bad way.....[Emergency Situation/Commissions]
14 years ago
Ugh, I hate asking people for help.
Ellie can attest to dis. ; ^;
But I see no way around it really.
I haven't been super proactive with my commissions thus far,
but now I simply cannot ignore the need to do a lot of them fairly quickly.
I have about three pieces in my que already, but my turnaround time is quick!
*FOR EVERYONE WATCHING ME, the KINK and POKEMON SERIES are being put on hold for a little bit. I'll still sketch/plan them in my free time but I HAVE to focus on this situation below. ; ^; Same goes for freebies, but Pai, I will certainly try and get your wallpaper done this week.
[THE SITUATION]
I went on a trip this weekend to Savannah, to surprise/hang out with VellaCRaptor,
whom is quite literally one of my best friends in the whole universe and we are planning on moving
in together in April.
My stepfather has a 4-year long history of emotionally abusing me ever since I came to live with him and my mother in an effort to get to know her when her health started jumping up and down (as any worried child would when they'd been raised mostly AWAY from their parents of course). Granted, I've had my fair share of being a brat over the years, but some of the venomous things he says on a day to day basis are literally uncalled for and horrific things you wouldn't even say to the scum of the universe.
I've had my character defaced, my self worth highly devalued, called a horrible person, a liar, a cheat, a manipulative user, and have been told he hopes I get arrested/die. He's literally told me before "Its too bad your last two suicide attempts didn't work out, the world would be better off without people like you".
Its'......honestly, that's not even the worst of it. He's used my mother's bad health as leverage for me to sit there and take his abuse day in and day out, but usually when I'm gone for a few days he lets up on me slightly.
This time, the MOMENT I came home, he was back at me, harangued me when I told them about a speeding ticket I had gotten without insurance on my car (which I had only not purchased because they kept telling me they'd take care of it) and I told them upfront I was just LETTING THEM KNOW so they wouldn't worry why I wasn't fixing my car's problems first. I told them I would pay for the fines with my job, as it is due 2/14/12. Over a month and a half to save up the funds.
After an argument and spending time with my mom alone (he always gets worse after I do that) he came to me and I couldn't hear him over my headphones, so he burst my door open, then threatened to ruin property I had personally paid for and break down my door leaving me no privacy (not that he gave me any anyways, he's been known to come in when I told him I was in bed/not clothed or changing when he really feels the need to yell). I cannot take this anymore without hurting myself or worse. I NEED to get out of this situation faster than April, my intended move out date. This has gone beyond the level of simply 'unhealthy' behavior and has just become a never-ending cycle of emotional turmoil created by a psychopath who honestly thinks he's doing 'right' by me.
So its been very hard for me to come to terms that I am abandoning my mother with this man (though he seems infinitely better with her than me, and she's also getting fed up and attempting to help me as much as she can so I can move on somewhere I can be healthy/happy, so PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't think she's being a bad mama, she's not. She's just disabled and can only do so much), but what little self worth I still have is screaming at me to remove myself from the situation.
To DO that I need cash. Lots of it. Granted, I work a job, but it won't be able to get me out as quickly as possible.
0$/400$ moving money
234$/680$ paying final bills updated +34$ ; A; thank you guys!
0$/900$ fix my cars breaks/belt/rotors so I CAN be mobile and move safely
0$/1000$ to find a temp. place to live in Savannah, GA
It's........a lot. And PLEASE don't think I'm not going to pour my own working cash into here.
I fully intend to. /is also planning on selling some personal items/
I simply cannot wait another almost six months worth of this abuse.
So I'm opening emergency commission slots (I am certainly not going to ask for free handouts = 3= /is too prideful for this and it even kills my pride just to ADMIT I need help in the first place). Tbh, it's very nearly pay what you want/can.
I'll also be offering sketchbook pages/40inx40in posters that can be mailed to you to help bring in larger
commissions to help expedite these expenses. Please ask if you're interested in either of those!
All commission prices can be lowered up to 35% if you cannot afford full price. /really just needs to get out of here NOW/ ; ^;
When I reach certain goals/pay something off completely I'll make wallpapers for everyone to enjoy. <3 Thank you all ahead of time, and if you could even just advertise my situation via journals because I am at a loss for what to do/the cheapest way to do it. Any help is appreciated!
My paypal is :: ii.nkwell[at]ymail.com
IF YOU COULD NOTE VIA PAYPAL IF YOU SEND A PAYMENT BEFORE I SEND YOU AN INVOICE WHO YOU ARE I WOULD APPRECIATE IT. ; A; Thank you all.
Ellie can attest to dis. ; ^;
But I see no way around it really.
I haven't been super proactive with my commissions thus far,
but now I simply cannot ignore the need to do a lot of them fairly quickly.
I have about three pieces in my que already, but my turnaround time is quick!
*FOR EVERYONE WATCHING ME, the KINK and POKEMON SERIES are being put on hold for a little bit. I'll still sketch/plan them in my free time but I HAVE to focus on this situation below. ; ^; Same goes for freebies, but Pai, I will certainly try and get your wallpaper done this week.
[THE SITUATION]
I went on a trip this weekend to Savannah, to surprise/hang out with VellaCRaptor,
whom is quite literally one of my best friends in the whole universe and we are planning on moving
in together in April.
My stepfather has a 4-year long history of emotionally abusing me ever since I came to live with him and my mother in an effort to get to know her when her health started jumping up and down (as any worried child would when they'd been raised mostly AWAY from their parents of course). Granted, I've had my fair share of being a brat over the years, but some of the venomous things he says on a day to day basis are literally uncalled for and horrific things you wouldn't even say to the scum of the universe.
I've had my character defaced, my self worth highly devalued, called a horrible person, a liar, a cheat, a manipulative user, and have been told he hopes I get arrested/die. He's literally told me before "Its too bad your last two suicide attempts didn't work out, the world would be better off without people like you".
Its'......honestly, that's not even the worst of it. He's used my mother's bad health as leverage for me to sit there and take his abuse day in and day out, but usually when I'm gone for a few days he lets up on me slightly.
This time, the MOMENT I came home, he was back at me, harangued me when I told them about a speeding ticket I had gotten without insurance on my car (which I had only not purchased because they kept telling me they'd take care of it) and I told them upfront I was just LETTING THEM KNOW so they wouldn't worry why I wasn't fixing my car's problems first. I told them I would pay for the fines with my job, as it is due 2/14/12. Over a month and a half to save up the funds.
After an argument and spending time with my mom alone (he always gets worse after I do that) he came to me and I couldn't hear him over my headphones, so he burst my door open, then threatened to ruin property I had personally paid for and break down my door leaving me no privacy (not that he gave me any anyways, he's been known to come in when I told him I was in bed/not clothed or changing when he really feels the need to yell). I cannot take this anymore without hurting myself or worse. I NEED to get out of this situation faster than April, my intended move out date. This has gone beyond the level of simply 'unhealthy' behavior and has just become a never-ending cycle of emotional turmoil created by a psychopath who honestly thinks he's doing 'right' by me.
So its been very hard for me to come to terms that I am abandoning my mother with this man (though he seems infinitely better with her than me, and she's also getting fed up and attempting to help me as much as she can so I can move on somewhere I can be healthy/happy, so PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't think she's being a bad mama, she's not. She's just disabled and can only do so much), but what little self worth I still have is screaming at me to remove myself from the situation.
To DO that I need cash. Lots of it. Granted, I work a job, but it won't be able to get me out as quickly as possible.
0$/400$ moving money
234$/680$ paying final bills updated +34$ ; A; thank you guys!
0$/900$ fix my cars breaks/belt/rotors so I CAN be mobile and move safely
0$/1000$ to find a temp. place to live in Savannah, GA
It's........a lot. And PLEASE don't think I'm not going to pour my own working cash into here.
I fully intend to. /is also planning on selling some personal items/
I simply cannot wait another almost six months worth of this abuse.
So I'm opening emergency commission slots (I am certainly not going to ask for free handouts = 3= /is too prideful for this and it even kills my pride just to ADMIT I need help in the first place). Tbh, it's very nearly pay what you want/can.
I'll also be offering sketchbook pages/40inx40in posters that can be mailed to you to help bring in larger
commissions to help expedite these expenses. Please ask if you're interested in either of those!
All commission prices can be lowered up to 35% if you cannot afford full price. /really just needs to get out of here NOW/ ; ^;
When I reach certain goals/pay something off completely I'll make wallpapers for everyone to enjoy. <3 Thank you all ahead of time, and if you could even just advertise my situation via journals because I am at a loss for what to do/the cheapest way to do it. Any help is appreciated!
My paypal is :: ii.nkwell[at]ymail.com
IF YOU COULD NOTE VIA PAYPAL IF YOU SEND A PAYMENT BEFORE I SEND YOU AN INVOICE WHO YOU ARE I WOULD APPRECIATE IT. ; A; Thank you all.
Instead, I can commission you and I'll be posting a journal for you to try and get the word out for people to help you out of this situation you're in. What would a full-body colored sketch run? No shading, just flats/quicky. :3
It's hard to talk about. I had no idea just how many other wonderful people went through this.
I'll note you with that information, but thank you so so much! ; ^;
Again, no need to thank me, whatever I can do is thanks enough in itself, trust me.
i would definitely like to help uwu
i'd like to get a chibi, i'll note :3
Thank you so so much!
I don't have much right now, but I'd love to commission you. Your art's lovely anyhow C: I'll note you momentarily.
I don't have any money to donate/comission you with, but I can post journals up about this.
Yes, I cannot wait until that day finally comes and I can finally breathe easy without having to flinch every time I hear the door downstairs slam closed signaling his arrival home after work.
in the meantime this one will pimp your journal out.
I wish you the best because no one.. and I mean NO ONE. Ever deserves that kind of treatment. *offers a big hug* My heart goes out to you it does. I'll be sure to spread the word.
You all have no idea what this outpouring of help/support has done for me already.
Just knowing I'm not crazy and don't have to feel like I HAVE to take this does wonders.
I can't stand to hear this kind of thing happening. I've had too many close friends I've had to help with this kind of problem to let another person suffer such horrid abuse. A lot of good people I know have issues or had issues because of stuff like this. =< *hugs and pats*
Do you have your prices listed anywhere?
Do you mind if I post a link to this in my dA? I have a fair chunk of watchers and it doesn't hurt to spread the word!
ALSO YES Any help is wonderful. <3
I'd love a chibi, but I can't give you information at the moment.
I buy through my boyfriends paypal and I won't be over to his house for another hour or two.
I'll be sure to pop on and give you all the information you need later though!
No problem I'll try to order a couple of commissions. And make a journal <3
would you prefer me to note or email you details? <3 I do hope everything will get better for you,
and the move goes well in april too. I'll try to help out as much as I can throughout the next few months or however long you need help. :3
Hope this helps!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3061130/
If you can wait two weeks, I will commission you for as much as I can afford. I'm an unemployed highschool student, so my only income is my allowance... in the meantime, I'll try to link to this in my journal in hopes of helping you out. C:
No need to thank me, dude.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3061775/
I hope it helps ♥
It's not much, but I advertised for you
Journals mean a lot and so does the support!
No one should ever go through life feeling this way.
I'm moving in with my boyfriend in the UK when I turn 18.
I've lived with it since I was a baby so I'm used to it, but you aren't, and even long term in the sense of 6 months could do serious damage to you. 3= If I had money I'd gladly donate to you. You sound like a very,very nice person, and I'm sure you don't deserve what he's giving you. To be honest I think it's projection. That's what I'm dealing with. My olderbrother hated his life, and constantly took it out on me, telling me I was everything he was, and I believed the world would be better without me from all of his convincing,until I met my boyfriend 6 years ago. But I survived because I grew up with it and adapted to it. You haven't though, so it could do some bad damage. I hope you get out of it soon. Sometimes a temporary fix is better than shooting for a long term fix early though. Move into a hotel or motel if you can't stand it - it'll delay the permanent move but it'll get you out of there.
I can't help with funds, but I can certainly try to spread the word. Hope all works out.
And I thought Richmond Hill was expensive...
I'll pray for them to come home soon.
As soon as I get my money...
But I can make commissions to help you out too! ;A;!
and make a journal! :C
Paaaaai thank youuuuu. <333
You make me feel so bad now that your wallpaper's unfinished. /cries and banishes myself to SAI Painter dungeon/
just to avoid confusion, what would be the price for a flat colour full body of 3 people (one pretty much a half body), one sitting on a chair, and possibly a background?
(and of course until we can get the commission rolling I´m putting up a journal)
would you take snailmail! sorry i didnt read much of the bottom part of the journal.
*gives a ferret huggle* Stay strong, I know it hurts, I've had a rough childhood myself (raped several times by who I thought was my best friend).