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General advice and opinion on transgender.
13 years ago
Sou.....to whom reads this..I need some honest opinions or advice. The short versions is...I am in serious thought of changing my real life gender..or most of it at least, plan to keep the cock and balls.
The longer version and detail is..I am not in the least happy with my body...and no I am not talking about being fat or nothing. I weigh around 145lbs (have not checked in a while), 5'5", with some muscle tone to upper torso (blame lifting up 50 pound of bags and bricks at work), and a small gut due to drinkage.
I am in no way unhappy with my facial looks, I even believe I am a dashing rogue (nothing on narcissistic level). However...I am not happy with it being male looking is the issue.
I am bi, but I do not like the male body in any way or form other than the penis. I view the male form as disgusting, blocky and easily out of proportion with any fat distribution, and I feel that way when I look in the mirror.
When it comes to the female figure, I view it beautiful, curvy and supple. With any added fat more evenly distributed across the form (most of the ladies anyways), exemplifying the beauty of the female body, adding more curves and figure.
I wonder many years what it would feel like to have this form, and wonder sometimes if maybe I was not 100% meant for male form.
I do not believe in cross dressing, as my thoughts is that is just make believe, and the male parts show very easily, (that and its the double standards of a male looking like crap in any female clothing :P) and looking at myself would still tell me that is a silly little man dressing up as a woman with no figure to show (and no offense to any other cross dressers out there)
I understand the risks of doing it, ridicules, threats, more than likely disown of my family..basically almost hell on earth..but at this point, I am almost living that dream anyways with what goes on, with the only thing going right in my life is my very lovely and supporting beauty
. (Who she supports is very much so)
I am desiring any advice, opinions, or hell even a shout out would be chill. I have down some research on the internet, but would like a bit more, if anyone cares to say.
At this point though in life..If I want to live my other dream then, and I am hoping that this dream can support my trans dream, I need to pull my head out of my ass, and start draaaaawing moar!
The goal is minimum a sketch a day, with practice figure's as well mixed in. I apologize for any birthdays or requests not getting drawn in, my only advice is beat me slightly on the head with a bottle of jack :P. Just bug me a little bit about it (nothing excruciating course as it is free art), so any drawing requests is welcomed, like a blind fat black guy at a watermelon eating contest :P .
My goal with drawing is for it to be able to pull in some income in the future, and just be a betterer Artist in general, as my long term goal is to be a concept artist/3d animation. As well give this some more thought, and have a answer within less of a year.
And if anything, this could be a quick chat for any other furs/scales/hoomans/birds/whateva.. to come in, who also have a nearish dilemma of the issue.
The longer version and detail is..I am not in the least happy with my body...and no I am not talking about being fat or nothing. I weigh around 145lbs (have not checked in a while), 5'5", with some muscle tone to upper torso (blame lifting up 50 pound of bags and bricks at work), and a small gut due to drinkage.
I am in no way unhappy with my facial looks, I even believe I am a dashing rogue (nothing on narcissistic level). However...I am not happy with it being male looking is the issue.
I am bi, but I do not like the male body in any way or form other than the penis. I view the male form as disgusting, blocky and easily out of proportion with any fat distribution, and I feel that way when I look in the mirror.
When it comes to the female figure, I view it beautiful, curvy and supple. With any added fat more evenly distributed across the form (most of the ladies anyways), exemplifying the beauty of the female body, adding more curves and figure.
I wonder many years what it would feel like to have this form, and wonder sometimes if maybe I was not 100% meant for male form.
I do not believe in cross dressing, as my thoughts is that is just make believe, and the male parts show very easily, (that and its the double standards of a male looking like crap in any female clothing :P) and looking at myself would still tell me that is a silly little man dressing up as a woman with no figure to show (and no offense to any other cross dressers out there)
I understand the risks of doing it, ridicules, threats, more than likely disown of my family..basically almost hell on earth..but at this point, I am almost living that dream anyways with what goes on, with the only thing going right in my life is my very lovely and supporting beauty
. (Who she supports is very much so)I am desiring any advice, opinions, or hell even a shout out would be chill. I have down some research on the internet, but would like a bit more, if anyone cares to say.
At this point though in life..If I want to live my other dream then, and I am hoping that this dream can support my trans dream, I need to pull my head out of my ass, and start draaaaawing moar!
The goal is minimum a sketch a day, with practice figure's as well mixed in. I apologize for any birthdays or requests not getting drawn in, my only advice is beat me slightly on the head with a bottle of jack :P. Just bug me a little bit about it (nothing excruciating course as it is free art), so any drawing requests is welcomed, like a blind fat black guy at a watermelon eating contest :P .
My goal with drawing is for it to be able to pull in some income in the future, and just be a betterer Artist in general, as my long term goal is to be a concept artist/3d animation. As well give this some more thought, and have a answer within less of a year.
And if anything, this could be a quick chat for any other furs/scales/hoomans/birds/whateva.. to come in, who also have a nearish dilemma of the issue.
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/mtfs
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/transfurs
There maybe those will help.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hormon.....e-to-female%29
http://www.scarleteen.com/article/a.....al_functioning
However if you are certain that this is what you want, then I see no reason why you shouldnt! You seem fully aware of the health risks and possible outcomes. Perhaps you could find people who have been through any operations and/or treatment and seek advice from them?
Drawing wise, I really recommend having even 30mins of sketching a day! And dont stress yourself too much if they dont look too good, just try something new! I demand the blind fat black guy at a watermelon eating contest...
It's not 100% certain If I must...as there is still part of me holding back...but I will admit, if I had won the lottery, I would have the change in a heartbeat :P, so I am wondering if its only financial wise, or a couple other things (which the costs for a thing is a bit..intimidating)...
I will have to find someone then, the only problem is where to start exactly...as I am pretty sure going around asking random people if they are a tran is not the greatest for my teeth :P, as well where to seek financial help for such a thing..as unless you live outside the states, you are SOL, as most health insurance will not cover it. (and I am looking at a minimum of around 7k >.> , and knowing me, I want the full look where you could not tell unless you pulled my pants down lol, as it erks me seeing other..trans showing off their looks..and you can tell something is horribly off)
I have been...key freaking word..trying! to get in 30 minutes of random pose sketch in a day...but I am a procrastinating SOB when it comes to it..that and vidja games and work..as the moment I come home, all I want to do is relax, and plays dat dem der video games.
I am hoping with a less hours of work I requested, that I will not be as exhausted and what not, and should!...be able to have at it with drawing more.
And I will gladly except yer request
And though it will be more expensive...for what you personally want, it sounds like you defiantly need the job to be done really well!
Sounds like a good drawing plan though! :D The best thing to do is start with a really short time period, then you'll more easily fit it in around other stuff! :3 Are you going to upload them here? :D
I will try to think of it that angle..but it still follows under, if I was rich I would not need to worry about money, if I really want to do it in reality, then I should not worry about the money.
and very, as I will more than likely need..plastic surgery >.>, for anything the hormone replacement does not change (which I have no idea how much it changes, but I bet it only does so much)..which means bubble butt surgery :D
Yeah, hopefully I can just keep at it, and it will just become more of a habit, and of course will post it here..as there is not really much elsewhere I know of, or would post it :P
And I would recommend posting! Although there are often times no one comments, its a great way to get feedback! ^^
Sorry I got of on a tangent.
As a friend of mine, you have my support one hundred percent. You know your body better than anyone else and should listen to it.
It can be a pain to get a hold of a hermit like me, but if you need to talk I am willing to listen.
I do, and at this moment it wants to rush through it and have tits and curves right now lol, but I know I should give it a couple more month to decide, plus need to figure out couple things more on my end (insurance, and saving up a little cash).
and wills do then!..just you need to get on little more often as well :P, or at least find a median of something..which can only think of at the moment is steam.
Get ahold of me hun