so last night i was plodding away at my keyboard hammering my new pc, so i stop and take a break, i check my fa messages, then i saw a journal that shocked me

 pandaguy has passed away on the 30th of september from kidney failure

this news shocked me, i stopped and sat there for just under a hour letting the reality sink in

even now tears build up in my eyes thinking about him


two years ago darken tiger popped up on skype and asked me if i wanted to talk to some cool american furries, and i said sure, since then i logged into skype frequently to join in on the fun conversations that were had

i now regret not attending panda's disney trip as i was in america near the end of january this year, i could have stayed a few extra weeks and gone with him, but on the up side he did attend further confusion this year so i got to meet him and receive awesome hugs from him

i had seen his skype logged in earlier on that morning but i didnt notice the message till i saw the journal, so after that i called his mom to express my condolences, which turned into a small conversation despite being so far and had never met


im sure some of you are sick of seeing all these journals to which i say fuck off

jonathan was a great guy and will not be forgotten

good bye panda will miss you