whith where my life is right now im dooing better besides the side conversation me and richard have. but ive been journaling a lot more lately (hmmp) the fact that i cant kill my self because its pointless (4 failed atemps) sell its like this. suck it up and keep moving foward and hope to some god there will be somethign good for you if your fate and karma take you in the right direction. so far it is ^.^ . ive been hurdling moutins sence i for got but i will soon come to a good side of things and get my life straightened and get better and hapyer as far as i know im a depressing fun person (i know what your thinking depressing and fun do not mix) but its true im enjoyable and fun when around oathers on second life but when in public im depressing and an utter nervous wreck i can say hello and look good but onely for so long then im quiet and cant talk then just shuts my own trap. yah i know depressing right but when the my cards are played right ill get my depressing self out of this rut/hole and get a real life. no one can do that alone.. thats why i have the best people and group supporting me.. the furry fandom and all of its members and friends who are in it. ^.^ like a large tailed family. yeay!! man my stomich kills me but this is all true what im saying and my body is trying its best to not let it out all at once. like i sed i have onely the emotions of anger and sadness. when im happy im not really happy its a nervous smile that i can make good of.