It been five years since my break up

we been together for over three years, and now apart for two.

I still can't forget about it,
don't know why it ended
or why he ended it, I was letted go like it was nothin
and he was actully ready for it too,
ready to be hated and never talked again,
like he wanted it.

I felt so betrayed...

friends say nothin lost or gain...
but I did felt something was lost...

my turst on people... what I thought would be good
I could give it a chance

but it just hurted me back, so much...
I despise it now...

I also gained a grudge, a hatred and fear to never trust again,
feeling like i'm better off alone... and to die alone.

I wanted nothing anymore
my heart feels so heavy now and then for no reason,
it hurts, why does it hurt so much?.

feeling sleepy so often, like I want to sleep forever...
just want to lay down in to a deep sleep.

as i'm looking forward to nothing anymore, or...

just looking forward for my life to end.

I want it to stop
I just want this pain to just go away.

I wish I never fell in love.