1st thing. grandpa is ok stroke wise, but the real problem is his lungs. He is coughing HARD and can't breathe. They found asbestos damage on the outside of his lungs. They're testing to see what it could be though, they haven't figured that out.. could be bronchitis..could be mesothelioma. Until then he can't leave the hospital for rehab from his stroke..

2nd thing.. I'm paused on art still. Why do I hardly touch things now days? Well because it hurts and because I feel like shit. I feel like I've gotten crappier.. I'm also busy and sick and its just..ugh.. but even then the most painful bit is my carpletunnel/elbow/shoulders are so bad now I can hardly do a few tablet swipes without doubling over in pain.

Typing this hurts.

I'm going to cough up what i have left of money for a wrist brace. I HOPE it helps more than the old crappy one my mom had.. it was so bad to wear that I only wore it for like one night at a time when it would hurt too bad not too..

Lets hope this fixes the pain..then with those practice sheets i've been poking at..maybe i'll be good enough..

I'm sorry for failing you all..