Late TFF report and inner thoughts of a green wolf
12 years ago
So meant to post a long time ago but just have been busy. TFF was a amazing con full of cuddles and hugs for me, after the loss of Lemonade Coyote only 8 weeks ago. I've not been able to stop thinking of him since that day, I broke down at TFF during the dance competition 3 times, mind blanked when I was dancing because emotions took over me. But had the other dancers and kwik be there for me. Furry Night Live had some glitches but was a awesome show. was Great to see old friends again. But now back home and the pain eats at me. Memories flood back of my trip to see him and bring me to tears. I was blessed and Honored to know such a awesome yote and be so close to him. I've been trying to stay strong for Lemonade and his friends who Knew him, But with loss of my father, my own home issues and and stress its becoming harder by the day. So I have trudged on keeping quiet about some dark thoughts and emotions I've been having that have slowly been eating at me. So my special Gshep Dekks has invited me to Fur Eh to help me Destress next month. Which I hope will help clear these dark thoughts from my mind and heart.
You are truly one of the most amazing wuffs I've ever met. There simply isnt another person like you, nor will there ever be one like you. Dancing with you and sharing our moments at TFF was truly amazing, and indeed it was an honor to meet you after all the talk I'd heard about you (good things of course).
As hard as it is dealing with Lemonade's loss, as I do think of him constantly too, I can't even imagine how much harder it is for you after reading this. But I hope you know that whenever you feel like breaking down and you feel that tug on your heart, you can always give me a call. You have my phone number, and I am no more than one call/ text away. As a fellow Dancer Fur, I love ya like crazy! You got some truly wicked moves...and above all, even though you bit the dirt at TFF during the competition, the fact that you saved it and stayed with it in the end was amazing.
I do hope you keep your head high, and remember, Lemonade is looking down over the both of us, and smiling like he always did. His words still echo around in my head daily, and apart from the few teary moments I've had lately, he has been my motivation, which has since spurred me on to not mourn for him, but instead to remember the good times and in a way, follow in his footsteps. Be the example, and be that one whom others look up to. For now, all I can tell you, is like the others have said, just keep your head held as high as you can, and remember, we all love you no matter what, and we all are here for you.
Love you Silver,
Your fellow Dancer Fur,
Cherry the Soda Fox
those dark thoughts in. Let them out; talk to friends. It's very clear
from all the responses to your journal that you are well loved and have
many people that care deeply about you. This IS the time to lean on your friends.
I had a hard time when my mom passed, they say time heals all wounds, it doesn't really but it does help deaden the pain.
Friends and family will always be the rock to stand on to help you move forward.
*Hugs*