...It's like this world had died off and i have nothing to do...but call myself lots of negative things.

"In this world, I'm just a friend...I care and love, but i don't receive my kindness back...idiot." - Kento Mizuki.

Negative things i always say to myself...:
I have No friends to talk to, Everybody is too busy to even talk to me, no one comes and checks on how i'm doing, No one even helps me in my problems, no one has time for me, no one listens to my words, ppl ignore me cuz i'm just here for no particular reason, no one comforts me when i'm sad-depressed-stressed-lonely, Jealousy is to hard for me to ignore, ppl think i'm an interesting person even though i'm not, everyone says age matter in love relationships when i said it doesn't, My fantasies are just complete failures and no one are interested about them, I stay quiet when ppl are talking to the person i wanna talk to, I'm always in a corner of a room when i'm stressed out, no one gives a care of what i say, no one loves me as much as i love them, i hide my insides due to people not wanting to see the real me, no one gives a care about my feelings, when i say 'i love you' i really meant it, If i don't see a smile on your face - it tells me that you don't really much care about what i'm saying, When there are times i want to talk to you - you go off and do other things besides spend time with me, I won't find a mate/boyfriend due of jealousy and boringness, Everything i say is stupid and forgettable, I lie cuz i'm afraid, i hate being honest to myself, Maybe I'm not worth to be loved, I'm such an Idiot, Baka..., Why was I even born to begin with, Ppl say i'm too young to understand and i hated that, I hate getting mad at others, I get sick a lot due my thoughts, Living in a Hating world with no one to comfort you hurts doesn't it, I hide my feelings with a smile cuz no one wants to see the true me.

My heart hurts very much right now and idk what to do but say negative things to myself...Jealousy hurts...