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Tired. So very, very tired of my skin.
12 years ago
I know that this is a weird thing to post about.... but I am just so heartily sick of looking like a pubescent 15 year old who doesn't know what a wet facecloth looks like.
It's not like I even have "normal" acne. No. I'm not that lucky. I get friggin cysts.
Black heads stay below the skin (cuz yeah THAT looks all sorts of attractive to fucking begin with!), til they turn into a cyst.
They're painful. Uncomfortable. Unsightly.
And so, so very humiliating.
I'm just .... god I seriously could just cry, I am so sick of it.
I have spent an untold amount of money on products left and right.
I've tried holistic.
Chemicals.
Run-of-the-mill products.
Costly "specialized" products... and nothing helps.
Nothing.
I mean god at this point in my life I'd down right get on my knees in public and BEG for a product that even comes remotely CLOSE to controlling this shit.
I've given up all hope on finding something that will fix me.. or help me with clear skin... really... I give up.
At this point.. something that just... doesn't encourage massive outbreaks.. something that doesn't let these horrid cysts develop.
I mean fuck... I'm 31 years old!! Is this too much to ask for!?!?
I'm not vain... not even close.. but damnit my meager self-esteem really just can't keep handling this... I hate it. Hate it hate it hate it with a passion that literally chokes me.
I literally do not know what to do.
I've tried everything and everyone with an acne product.
Name it, and I've probably tried it.
I'm just getting so depressed of looking like this....
(Gee, can you tell I've just taken a good look at myself in the mirror after trying yet another new product?)
Just.... fuck.
I don't even think giving up will help at this point.
It's not like I even have "normal" acne. No. I'm not that lucky. I get friggin cysts.
Black heads stay below the skin (cuz yeah THAT looks all sorts of attractive to fucking begin with!), til they turn into a cyst.
They're painful. Uncomfortable. Unsightly.
And so, so very humiliating.
I'm just .... god I seriously could just cry, I am so sick of it.
I have spent an untold amount of money on products left and right.
I've tried holistic.
Chemicals.
Run-of-the-mill products.
Costly "specialized" products... and nothing helps.
Nothing.
I mean god at this point in my life I'd down right get on my knees in public and BEG for a product that even comes remotely CLOSE to controlling this shit.
I've given up all hope on finding something that will fix me.. or help me with clear skin... really... I give up.
At this point.. something that just... doesn't encourage massive outbreaks.. something that doesn't let these horrid cysts develop.
I mean fuck... I'm 31 years old!! Is this too much to ask for!?!?
I'm not vain... not even close.. but damnit my meager self-esteem really just can't keep handling this... I hate it. Hate it hate it hate it with a passion that literally chokes me.
I literally do not know what to do.
I've tried everything and everyone with an acne product.
Name it, and I've probably tried it.
I'm just getting so depressed of looking like this....
(Gee, can you tell I've just taken a good look at myself in the mirror after trying yet another new product?)
Just.... fuck.
I don't even think giving up will help at this point.
Otherwise, have you spoken to a regular, general care doctor about them? It may be a sign of some other issue, like hormonal imbalance or something like that.
I, myself, suffer from something similar on my thighs that makes my groin area look like a battlezone with so many pits, scars, and discoloration, and I find that keeping the area extra clean with covering on sores that do form makes things a lot better, at least until I stop doing it.
That's really got to suck the big one....
I actually already wash three times a day... up-wash, home from work-wash, bed-wash....
Sigh.
Also I can't use bandaids cuz I'm allergic to the glue and the latex they use. Gives me a rash....
So like my sisters and my mother, I use gauze and medical tape when I need a bandage...
I also haven't been to a dermatologist, tho my doctor is looking for one for me.
I just don't want to be prescribed drugs or some urine-derived caustic cream (which seems to be the Go To for doctors and skin issues.. yuck)
I hope you are feeling more up soon.
But yeah, already do the 3 times a day. Wash, toner, moisturize.
Etc... XP
And my doctor is trying to find a dermatologist... back in the day I used to use birth control pills to help control (not fix) my acne.. but I've not been on any pills for near 7 years and I honestly refuse to go back on the pill for many, MANY underlying reasons.... XP
An me too hon.. me too... XP
It's just killin me y'know?
So .. yeah... that's why using tea bags as a topical astringent treatment for redness.. ^ ^;;
And I agree.... most darker teas I'm a wuss and must have sweetener and milk in lol.
Depending on the tea I'll take cream, milk, almond or coconut milk too....
It opens the pores, but doesnt do much beyond a steam clean, and I can't do that daily else my scars act up like crazy...