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12 years ago
I tend to be generally in an ok mood regularly....but lately I've been very stressed...about certain things...pretty much just thoughts that go through my mind every now and then, but keep me in a very stressful mood whenever I think about it...to the point of regret...
I asked for Aya to have a sexy figure based on my perspective of sexy, thus changing the original concept of cute to a more sexier outlook (bigger breasts, wide hips and a bigger butt), whenever I think I about it, I feel I was too selfish to ask for those things....to the point of regret....It's just that Garasaki is the cute/innocent one and I thought I would change it up a bit with Aya, adding a sexier appeal for a change of looks, even if it wasn't part of the original design.
It's still not too late to change the sexy appeal, but I just...ughh....
Looking back at my decision, I just feel it was a wrong one, I tend to be very indecisive and stress heavily because of it. What if people don't like it? What if people look at it and say "Oh, it has the same colors as Garasaki, how boring". What if people look at Aya and give me horrible looks because of the sexy outlook? These type of questions keep flooding into my mind and stress me out a lot.
I don't know what I'm doing anymore.....sorry :(
I asked for Aya to have a sexy figure based on my perspective of sexy, thus changing the original concept of cute to a more sexier outlook (bigger breasts, wide hips and a bigger butt), whenever I think I about it, I feel I was too selfish to ask for those things....to the point of regret....It's just that Garasaki is the cute/innocent one and I thought I would change it up a bit with Aya, adding a sexier appeal for a change of looks, even if it wasn't part of the original design.
It's still not too late to change the sexy appeal, but I just...ughh....
Looking back at my decision, I just feel it was a wrong one, I tend to be very indecisive and stress heavily because of it. What if people don't like it? What if people look at it and say "Oh, it has the same colors as Garasaki, how boring". What if people look at Aya and give me horrible looks because of the sexy outlook? These type of questions keep flooding into my mind and stress me out a lot.
I don't know what I'm doing anymore.....sorry :(
ultimatly it comes down to this, (sorry if its cliche) would you rather live without regret? or always live wondering what could have been. it matters what YOU like. somebody somewhere is not going to like everything you do. you cant please everyone. if you do, youre not going to be happy.
pick 15 or so people you care about who support you. ask them what they think and if you cant only listen to yourself, listen only to them.
in case you wanna know what i think, i say go for it. i can understand and appriciate the idea of one person made up of many sides.
Personally, I love what you've done with Garasaki; I think she's adorable, and I love how you've portrayed her in your photos. I know you've had a bit of conflict with trying to add the sexy look to her, so if it's something you definitely want to have in one of your characters, I'd say a new character is a great place to start.
And of course, I think just about any kemono suit has an adorable quality to it, so there's that factored in, too, that everyone's opinion will differ. My fursona is a male kangaroo with a pouch, not anatomically correct, but it's something I like, so I plan on adding one to my suit whether others like it or not. X3 So, whatever YOU feel is best, I say you should go for.
Since many people have their own perspective of what is sexy and what's not, I just went in with my own. Although Aya's original design intent was to be another cute character, that's why I'm at conflict right now.
I love cute characters, but I also want to explore other aspects other than cute....(Like maybe in the future instead of cute and sexy, cool?)
I definitely feel that Aya will have a sexy look, but I hope that doesn't overshadow the cute aspect of Aya either, else it will turn to be a character just known as "Erotic Aya" or something like that.