Alright well...

I'm not sure how to really...say what exactly is going on. I feel like searching for a regression hypnotherapist has stopped. I'm not exactly sure what to do anymore...and I do not want to resort to self hypnotis, as that might be more dangerous....but whatever. I'm starting to not care more and more. THAT DOES NOT MEAN IM GIVING IN!!!

I'm just so very tired...

There is a psychologist but...meh. Well see what happens.

I feel a little motivation coming back to me to do more 3D work and digital/traditional art....only a little. I truly wish I could just draw all my feelings, but my speed is so slow, that by the time I finish one, it'd be days later and the picture wouldn't mean anything to me anymore.

I'm still adjusting to meds and yes, they are working but... I still feel truly depressed deep down inside. I haven't had any breakdowns....but I feel something could happen soon. But even if that were to happen I won't be better.....

If ANYONE can help (I'll see if it's possible or not upon reviewing) in anything...let me know.