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12 years ago
I should probably make these more often so you guys don't think that I'm dead on here. Sadly, though, not a lot happens in my life... Anyway, how about I start this off with some good news, eh?
Alright, first up, I'd like to give a huge thank you to
LCPatch for sending me and my roommates some goodies; including, but not limited to, some new manga to read and a super cute new tail! ^//^
For those Tailswisher fans out there, I've been busy gathering new pictures for you guys that I hope to show off sometime soon. Believe me when I say that even though I can't afford commissions, there are some amazing artists out there with great hearts that still offer requests. :3 Also, the cosplay series people liked so much will be making a return.
I'm going to be getting another roommate here at the end of the month. He's a new fur, but he found his furry side VERY easily and is fitting in very well with me and my 2 other roomies.
Now, it's time for the bad news...
Not sure if you guys remember, but I was working as a telemarketer at the beginning of the year and that I quit that job. Well, the job I'd found after that closed their store that I was tending at the mall nearby; leaving me without a job. However, I managed to find a job working at a tuxedo place nearby soon after. This turned out to be a mixed blessing, unfortunately. While I can do most of the work there very well, I have trouble with being a salesperson and tend to excel at the backroom processes. However, this means that I'm not making any commissions from sales and my base pay of $7.50/hr isn't cutting it with bills. (As it is, I'm barely able to pay them late, let alone on time.) It's also severely cutting into my food and gas rations (I've been eating mostly crackers and water of late.). Now for the biggest problem of the job: my manager. He's a racist, sexist, high-n-mighty, in-your-face, rule through intimidation blow-bag who hates me because I'm not his "perfect little salesman" and can only do well with the backroom assignments. Well, I managed to get my roomie hired on there because she was hurting for cash like me, but through her I've heard, twice now, that he wants to fire me! So, I'm getting beyond annoyed at this! (If he wants to fire me, he should tell me to my face, instead of saying it in front of the other employees!)
Also, my kitten, Fluffers, and 5 gerbils I took care of are all dead. I don't blame anyone for this, but I am saddened by the loss of life and keep getting the feeling like I'm meant to be alone... (Yeah, I've been having a LOT more depressed moods of late.) On the bright side, I do still have 2 gerbils left alive and I'm trying to keep them alive best that I can; though their insistence on chewing plastic instead of wood annoys me greatly. >.< I have given up on names and dubbed them simply: Tan and Grey; after their fur coats.
I am still having 0 luck finding any friends in the Arlington area, let alone anyone who'd want to date me. (Re-enforcing my depressed thoughts of being alone forever.)
I've also been told, twice now, that one of my roommates has a problem with me that just hurts me deeply because it's not something I can really change since it's apparently ALL of me she has a problem with. I guess it's because my roommates are all more predatory in nature (being therian rather than furry) which has turned my normally shy personality into prey status. This means that everything gets directed at me because I don't fight back. I just keep taking the abuse as I always have and moving on. Problem is...my emotional bottle is getting rather full and hard to shut the lid on anymore. Again, I don't hold anything against them, I just don't know if I can handle being that "friend you like but can only hang out with for an hour before wanting to kill them".
So, yeah, long story short, there's still awesome people out there making me happy by drawing pictures for me or sending me gifts, but IRL I'm all kinds of torn up, emotionally. I'm in DIRE need of a new job ASAP! Preferably something that I can at least pay bills on time with and still have cash on the side to eat and drive with. >.<
Alright, first up, I'd like to give a huge thank you to
LCPatch for sending me and my roommates some goodies; including, but not limited to, some new manga to read and a super cute new tail! ^//^For those Tailswisher fans out there, I've been busy gathering new pictures for you guys that I hope to show off sometime soon. Believe me when I say that even though I can't afford commissions, there are some amazing artists out there with great hearts that still offer requests. :3 Also, the cosplay series people liked so much will be making a return.
I'm going to be getting another roommate here at the end of the month. He's a new fur, but he found his furry side VERY easily and is fitting in very well with me and my 2 other roomies.
Now, it's time for the bad news...
Not sure if you guys remember, but I was working as a telemarketer at the beginning of the year and that I quit that job. Well, the job I'd found after that closed their store that I was tending at the mall nearby; leaving me without a job. However, I managed to find a job working at a tuxedo place nearby soon after. This turned out to be a mixed blessing, unfortunately. While I can do most of the work there very well, I have trouble with being a salesperson and tend to excel at the backroom processes. However, this means that I'm not making any commissions from sales and my base pay of $7.50/hr isn't cutting it with bills. (As it is, I'm barely able to pay them late, let alone on time.) It's also severely cutting into my food and gas rations (I've been eating mostly crackers and water of late.). Now for the biggest problem of the job: my manager. He's a racist, sexist, high-n-mighty, in-your-face, rule through intimidation blow-bag who hates me because I'm not his "perfect little salesman" and can only do well with the backroom assignments. Well, I managed to get my roomie hired on there because she was hurting for cash like me, but through her I've heard, twice now, that he wants to fire me! So, I'm getting beyond annoyed at this! (If he wants to fire me, he should tell me to my face, instead of saying it in front of the other employees!)
Also, my kitten, Fluffers, and 5 gerbils I took care of are all dead. I don't blame anyone for this, but I am saddened by the loss of life and keep getting the feeling like I'm meant to be alone... (Yeah, I've been having a LOT more depressed moods of late.) On the bright side, I do still have 2 gerbils left alive and I'm trying to keep them alive best that I can; though their insistence on chewing plastic instead of wood annoys me greatly. >.< I have given up on names and dubbed them simply: Tan and Grey; after their fur coats.
I am still having 0 luck finding any friends in the Arlington area, let alone anyone who'd want to date me. (Re-enforcing my depressed thoughts of being alone forever.)
I've also been told, twice now, that one of my roommates has a problem with me that just hurts me deeply because it's not something I can really change since it's apparently ALL of me she has a problem with. I guess it's because my roommates are all more predatory in nature (being therian rather than furry) which has turned my normally shy personality into prey status. This means that everything gets directed at me because I don't fight back. I just keep taking the abuse as I always have and moving on. Problem is...my emotional bottle is getting rather full and hard to shut the lid on anymore. Again, I don't hold anything against them, I just don't know if I can handle being that "friend you like but can only hang out with for an hour before wanting to kill them".
So, yeah, long story short, there's still awesome people out there making me happy by drawing pictures for me or sending me gifts, but IRL I'm all kinds of torn up, emotionally. I'm in DIRE need of a new job ASAP! Preferably something that I can at least pay bills on time with and still have cash on the side to eat and drive with. >.<
Seems absolutely horrid with how it sounds
as for who find someone i gave that up long ago i try but i just had it. these day i have no idea what women want to tell you the truth.
if some wants let them come to me. you should worry about you first then find someone.
Try to focus on the happy things more then the sad things to fight the depression... i have been there personally... and know its not easy... AT ALL.
About your job... idk. I guess your best option is to go hunt for a new one again :c
For roomies... thats some fight i cant say anything about :( sorry
And please... your not meant to be alone <3 wtf are we all we here for then? Maybe we are not near you in person. But i know for sure all your friends on FA are with you in spirit ^^
I'm really, really, sorry for the loss of your kitten and all the gerbils too, I can understand that loss far too well and hope things will feel better soon even as much as I know how tough it is, no matter what goes on for it. At least you have Tan and Grey and in giving up on names you actually gave them both a name without thinking of doing so, a good thing really
Plus with your Roomie I know and understand in a sense and way how that feels after putting up with my own "friends" for years when they really only wanted things for themselves, so I hope that situation eases too
I might not be the best person to try and help you out and read things like this but I will always have the best hopes and wishes for you for you are amazing and a wonderful friend to someone like me, so I really hope things will ease and feel better soon. I really hope you will have good things start to happen for you honestly and truly deserve all good things that come for you