Hmm... I haven't posted one of these in a while.

I was just thinking about my little side, which will from here on be referred to as a "he" even though it is just a part of my personality that is me, not a separate entity that would make me sound crazy. Anyway, he likes to tweak my personality sometimes, which is only really becoming apparent now because I'm at a youth conference that is really accepting of my sexuality, I don't have the stress of school to worry about, my trip with my fiancé is right around the corner (6 more days =D), and I haven't had a whole lot of time to be little. It's kinda making me act more immature then I normally would, more energetic, open too, but with it is coming some less welcoming traits. My temper, which hasn't been a problem for years, is flaring up a bit more now. Even if someone does something that they don't know is annoying (LIKE EATING AN APPLE WHEN EVERYONE IS BEING QUIET!!! D=< ) I get mad and even upset, and then I don't know why. Yes, it's something annoying, but why am I letting it make me SO mad and upset. I also have kinda gotten my tail-between-the-legs puppy routine down. It really has to do with the fact that as a kid I really strived for attention and that immediate gratification of someone telling me I did well or that immediate comfort of a hug. Since I'm a teen I've actually gotten to where those two things make me a bit uncomfortable, and people know, so I don't get them, but when my little side pokes his head into my personality I crave those things and even find myself going around and showing things that I can do off in a kinda "Look at what I did!" kinda way, but again, because I'm a teen, the most I get is a kinda "Oh, awesome." Which is kinda nice, but then I get all bummed because I don't get that enthusiastic "Good job!"

Anyway, just wanted to share my thoughts a bit.