It maybe so that I can be love with a girl,
But for whatever reason a loving a guy seems meaningful!
Its not that not having kids is bad but im really not sure about that,
I rather stress on other things than having kids,
I know shes a sweetheart but Im really not sure if I can be happy with her,
Its because two feelings are attacking each other never finding a solution!

Why oh why do I have to deal with this hellish thing called love,
Its driving me nuts and insane and I dont know where to go,
So all I can do is worry and not understand but,
I know I havta wait but I do not want to bring this upon myself,
Im gonna break it to her unfornately,
Ever since my last relationship with guys,
I feel so different now,
Guys are more lovable and cuddlable and I dunno why,
But maybe thats because they have this certain presence that makes me smile,
But I cant break her heart for all I have done and worked for and said,
Now I havta to break in tears because I cant stand it,
Oh why oh why do I dread on this,
Maybe because I cant find my true happiness

Maybe love would find me somewhere else,
Sure its true that love doesnt really matter if your not similar to each other,
But inside I dont think I am comfortable with this relationship I am in,
Maybe its because I dont see much in her afterall,
Why....
WHY GOD DAMN IT WHY!
DO I HAVE TO LIVE THIS WAY????
WHY WHY WHY!!!!!!!
GOD DAMN IT ALL TO HELL!!!!
*sigh* I guess this ends this song...

Guys... I need severe help... I dunno what to do or say.... I cant ruin peoples feelings but I cant feel unhappy.... Thing is that sammy wont be back anyway to see until the fall so I got plenty of time