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Alright, I'll explain...
12 years ago
I'm in a resort at the moment. Me and my brother are sharing the same room. He has been using my laptop and found my drawings. Then later on he caught me jacking off to furry art. Then he told my mom (which she knew all about this way beforehand).
So now my mom AND my brother knows I draw AND jack off to gay furry porn. They keep telling me it's not normal but I just don't see anything wrong with it...hell
RottenRobbie does the exact same shit and he's one of the coolest/ most normal furries I ever met. Yes, there are perverted furries out there but I'm starting to avoid them now because even I know that's a little creepy.
And now I have to go through therapy...
I'll go but my mom's just gonna waste her money because I'm not saying SHIT.
That's why I feel like I'm a fucking disgrace. They NEVER said that to me. It's just that I feel like that...
I just can't believe my big brother knows about this now...he knows I like Mordecai and Rigby having sex... AND he saw my two recent drawings in the folder....Now he'll never watch Regular Show the same ever again...or probably never watch it again....and it's all my fucking fault...I'm such a fucking horrible little brother...
I can barely look at my art now knowing that he has seen my dirty work....UGGGGH this is the worst feeling ever...
I feel so humiliated now. And now I can't enjoy the rest of my vacation because of this bullshit...
And they made me get rid of Skype too....
God...this is ten times worst than before....
I'm just so fucking depressed right now...so....fucking....depressed....
So now my mom AND my brother knows I draw AND jack off to gay furry porn. They keep telling me it's not normal but I just don't see anything wrong with it...hell
RottenRobbie does the exact same shit and he's one of the coolest/ most normal furries I ever met. Yes, there are perverted furries out there but I'm starting to avoid them now because even I know that's a little creepy.And now I have to go through therapy...
I'll go but my mom's just gonna waste her money because I'm not saying SHIT.
That's why I feel like I'm a fucking disgrace. They NEVER said that to me. It's just that I feel like that...
I just can't believe my big brother knows about this now...he knows I like Mordecai and Rigby having sex... AND he saw my two recent drawings in the folder....Now he'll never watch Regular Show the same ever again...or probably never watch it again....and it's all my fucking fault...I'm such a fucking horrible little brother...
I can barely look at my art now knowing that he has seen my dirty work....UGGGGH this is the worst feeling ever...
I feel so humiliated now. And now I can't enjoy the rest of my vacation because of this bullshit...
And they made me get rid of Skype too....
God...this is ten times worst than before....
I'm just so fucking depressed right now...so....fucking....depressed....
How did your brother find your stuff? Do you not have it hidden well? I don't draw or anything, but I have LOTS of furry stuff saved on my laptop, and I have it hidden in ways that make it hard to find. It's hidden in a folder labeled LetsPlays and inside THAT folder, are 4 other folders that actually DO have LetsPlays videos saved in them. My furry stash is kept inside one of them, and to top it off, inside of THAT folder, my furry stuff is in a folder labeled STAYOUT so just in case anyone DOES find it, they hopefully have the courtesy to, well, stay out. I even have it set so that my internet history is erased whenever I exit my browser. It's a little late for advice I guess, but you should take measures to keep your stuff hidden from prying eyes, especially if you know that they won't take it well.
You feel depressed now, but give it time, because the depression WILL fade. Negative feelings can only last so long, before becoming overshadowed by more positive things. I hope things get better for you!
Be happy of who you are and as far as being snuffed down by the world or others just remember that; your a cool dude and you like everyone are unique that way.
I was an asshole towards you and I thought you was just done with me after I kept apologizing, and I felt bad about that, and when I see this, it makes me feel like I caused it...
Also, your family seems to be very afraid of the subject, and I know we talked about it so many times, but honestly therapy is a mere business, and everyone is different, but I guess your mom and brother don't see the world in my eyes... *hug* I'm so sorry for everything...
But really I'm sorry you can't enjoy your trip :c
I'm sorry I wish the best for you but I just am hating on your family being a group of mean spirited people. You're a great person and I hope things turn out better
Just hang in there buddy, you are at your low point, it will only get better.
I agree with you that there are all sorts of freakier things and creepier furries out there, but I personally think that your mother/brother needed a better introduction to said fandom -even though most people when introduced gingerly tend to freak out anyway- but walking in on you yanking it to gay smut is sadly a common way of some people finding out about furry related stuff when it comes to families. People tend to be afraid of what they don't understand, and commonly do what they can to sweep it under the rug instead of understand it, and honestly I hope that they can find a way outside of shame/therapy to understand it better. You don't need that kind of negative enforcement over how you are. Nobody does.
Hoping for the best for you man, if you need to talk or anything, just shoot me a note and I'll try to help.