i'm so tired.... (vent)
12 years ago
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Lady_Nina
i'm tired. i'm tired of everything. of being here. of life. of my family.
i want to give up, i want to be like everyone else, but i can't.
and i hate it. i'm being extremely serious. i tell people all the time they should be more optimistic and look on the bright side, but truthfully i hate that i'm this way. i hate always being cheery only to be hurt more and more then get back up to take it all again.
i want to be like everyone else. i want to be sad, i want to cry, i want to seek comfort in others. but i can't cause i'm the person ppl seek comfort in. i can't be weak for a second without having to cheer someone up and if i am i go from upset to angry and it just makes things worse. this is weird to say but i envy ppl who are known for being upset because atleast they have multiple ppl to go to when their sad. but i can't.i have to be happy. i have to help others despite my emotional baggage. i can cry by myself when their ok. when their feeling happy i can take off this fucking mask.
it may seem like i'm being mean or an ass or whatever. but i don't care anymore.i'm just tired. i wanna be the person who cries and complains, i wanna be the person you can't vent to because i'm upset, i wanna be the one taken care of, the one who's babied and shit. i'm tired of being "strong", "happy", "optimistic". i just wanna curl up and cry....
when you have your own
i know that feeling.
maybe you should take a few days off.
just rest yourself...
i have alot of stressful problems at the moment.
and i find being online and listening to everyone elses makes it alot worse.
*hugs*
you don't have to be strong all the time hun.
its fine to cry C:
you're a great person and if you need me hun, i'm here for you.
i always have time for you if you want it ^.^
I'm the rock to which people hold onto in the raging current. Care to cling on, too?
You want what we ALL want. We cant' be strong 24/7... or we wouldn't be human. There is no greater sign of humanity and strength than emotion. Let it all out. Let it flow.
No one can blame you for it.