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And then more crap happened...
12 years ago
First of all, a happy note I would like to thank you all for: I've passed 1000 watchers. Thank you all so much, it means the world to me!
Now, I COULD talk about how a new manager has made my life at work HELL. I could go on about how it's left me a sobbing wreck after too many nights to count. I could cry about all the other little black clouds that seem to try and get in the way of us ever owning a home. But right now, a few big things loom in my mind.
Tomorrow, I have to take out car in for around $300 or so worth of work. Brake pads and all that. HOPEFULLY that's ALL she needs. I don't know how we'll handle more. (and only barely the former.. but I hope to work on that horrible amount by getting more done here) Still.. that's... that's a big, bad thing and it worries me more than I mention.
But just now- I don't know, I've done something wrong karma-wise? Because I'm sitting here in the computer chair we bought a few months ago, one I've really enjoyed, that I JUST threw the box away to a week or so ago, thinking I no longer needed it or the materials it contained....
And just a few minutes ago, the entire side, which also holds the back on, snapped off and I was flung up and back. Smashed my shins into the underside of my desk (the front comes down vertically) and peeled the skin off them. I pulled myself out of the heap and found all my cuts, and figured out what happened. About that time, well the order's reversed. I realized the cuts after a short pause and seeing the bleeding. Thankfully we had gauze and bandages, so I'm wrapped up in those right now and really hurting. Managed to not wake up my wife despite a loud shriek and my slamming into the wall. But this is just...
FUCK! One more fucking thing to buy. These chairs aren't cheap! And I can't sit on it- well, I CAN, but I'm hunched over allll the way forward because it has no back now. Good ol palsy and my typically hunched/slouched posture makes this DELIGHTFULLY fucking painful. And here I have all this stuff to do at my computer. So pardon me if it's childish, but I'm going to take a while to sputter and cry, holding my cut-up legs and feeling fat and stupid for this fucking chair and that everything seems determined to shit upon me and our finances.
I don't know. I don't say this often, (I hope? God I don't want to seem whiny and weak all the fucking time...) I'm just in a sorry state right now.
Now, I COULD talk about how a new manager has made my life at work HELL. I could go on about how it's left me a sobbing wreck after too many nights to count. I could cry about all the other little black clouds that seem to try and get in the way of us ever owning a home. But right now, a few big things loom in my mind.
Tomorrow, I have to take out car in for around $300 or so worth of work. Brake pads and all that. HOPEFULLY that's ALL she needs. I don't know how we'll handle more. (and only barely the former.. but I hope to work on that horrible amount by getting more done here) Still.. that's... that's a big, bad thing and it worries me more than I mention.
But just now- I don't know, I've done something wrong karma-wise? Because I'm sitting here in the computer chair we bought a few months ago, one I've really enjoyed, that I JUST threw the box away to a week or so ago, thinking I no longer needed it or the materials it contained....
And just a few minutes ago, the entire side, which also holds the back on, snapped off and I was flung up and back. Smashed my shins into the underside of my desk (the front comes down vertically) and peeled the skin off them. I pulled myself out of the heap and found all my cuts, and figured out what happened. About that time, well the order's reversed. I realized the cuts after a short pause and seeing the bleeding. Thankfully we had gauze and bandages, so I'm wrapped up in those right now and really hurting. Managed to not wake up my wife despite a loud shriek and my slamming into the wall. But this is just...
FUCK! One more fucking thing to buy. These chairs aren't cheap! And I can't sit on it- well, I CAN, but I'm hunched over allll the way forward because it has no back now. Good ol palsy and my typically hunched/slouched posture makes this DELIGHTFULLY fucking painful. And here I have all this stuff to do at my computer. So pardon me if it's childish, but I'm going to take a while to sputter and cry, holding my cut-up legs and feeling fat and stupid for this fucking chair and that everything seems determined to shit upon me and our finances.
I don't know. I don't say this often, (I hope? God I don't want to seem whiny and weak all the fucking time...) I'm just in a sorry state right now.
of course if you bought it from a reputable place you shouldn't have a problem. I buy my furniture from Furniture Row and they typically replace stuff when it's an obvious flaw in the product... or find comparable if it's no longer sold
It's from Staples. My concern is that any escalation to replace it will take days and days at least- especially as tomorrow's Friday. It was a $40 chair and I see it's on sale again for the same. It's just, that's a hefty sum for me right now but I can't wait DAYS to be able to use my computer either. I have a stream appointment coming up. I'll call them tomorrow and see if I can at least get my money or something.
2. This is all happening due to your lack of interest in WoW.
3. Er lurve yew. If you ever wondered why your windows fog up at night, surprise. -slow raspy breathing-
Some of the more judgemental people might say you are, but you know what? Fuck that noise. You're a human being, and guess what? Human beings have emotions, and they have a habit of being overwhelming at the worst of times. Judgemental folks might say "Wuh wuh wuh why u post dis we cnat do anyfin for yuuuu hurrrhuehue" but sometimes just getting it in the open is a solid way to get it off your chest. Yeah, so FA isn't facebook, but the people who read certain folks journals do so because they actually give a shit. Sure, a whole lot of us are barely even acquaintances or don't know the first thing about you, but it's not such a giant stretch for even virtual strangers to want to keep each other in good spirits, right?
So try not to be too hard on yourself, the world will take care of the entire being-mean-to-you part.
Right now, what you need is to give life the finger, and have a bit of a grump to get this shit off your chest. When you feel bad, you just need a little time to just get it out of your system. Especially if you have a shitty boss-figure killing your mood so often. I'd like to say something about not being so critical towards yourself, but I guess even that is part of having a bad week. The little internal shitstorm kinda catches you in the momentum and it can bring out your worst anxieties and self-judgements. So instead, I'll just ask that you remember once this stuff finally stops beating down on you, that it was just the bad mood talking. You're not whiny, hell if anybody was ever going to tease you over something it would probably be the opposite, being a bit ranty, but you're entitled to that, being a badger ;D
Remember : "When life tries to shit on you, tiger-uppercut!"
Because nobody likes an uppercut to the butt.
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At least... usually they don't.