So today we are going to visit the Holywell Citizen's advice bureau. I am so scared. I have high anxiety and doing something like this is a big step.

I can't even ring up places which is most the reason I am so much in trouble as I'd rather get in debt than make a simple phone call. I end up sweating and shaking and sometimes end up saying stupid things on the phone.

I'm so worried that no one can help. I feel physically sick right now.

I am already on 100mg sertraline for depression, anxiety and OCD but I think I will try and contact my psychiatrist for another appointment ASAP for more support.

I don't want to ask for donations, I REALLY don't but if anyone wants to, they will of course be gratefully accepted. I can't offer anything in return, this is all my fault anyway.

My paypal is neonpossum[at]gmail.com but PLEASE DO NOT FEEL LIKE YOU NEED TO. I'd just feel worse.

If you want to, anything would help.

We'll see what happens today with the citizen's advice, I'm so scared but I hope they can help. If they can't I really don't know what I will do.

See my previous journal for more stuff about this: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4943844/