okay..Everything in my life.. Through all the trials and tribulations I've been in. Some I keep to myself, I just feel like I'm here. I'm pretty accepting to everyone as long as they accept me. Etc. I dunno what defines my life. Have I made an impact to others? I usually forgive everyone, but they don't know the side of me, it feels like if I slip up, something is bad going to happen. Another betrayal.

I just feel like something is amidst and I can't put my finger on it, maybe with all the past experiences it's just that I feel I'm walking on egg shells, I don't want to lose anyone in my fur family, because all of you are important to me as I hope I am too you as well. It's hard to explain.. like if I make a choice in dating something bad is going to happen.

Im in purgatory mode and really cannot move on from the mistakes I've made, and it's been having a personal effect on my emotional side. I really don't like what I feel at the moment, maybe in the future something might change. Im mostly a keep to myself guy and "move on" aka avoiding problems in which I don't want to do. There are times I just want to be in the past and stay there forever, I'm sure we all do. This whole "moving on" thing is really killing me on my personality. There's alot I wish to explain, but I dont want to be a open book just yet. In time. Perhaps.