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Health/Finance Update #5
12 years ago
Master post regarding my current situation: http://www.furaffinity.net/controls.....urnal/4968345/
Okay so it's been a long while since I updated about my home situation. I thought I needed to update here as I know a lot of you are fantastic and read and support me!
Finance
- We're STILL waiting on the DRO. We went ahead and filled in the application and I have had a credit check sent off but we cannot get in touch with the guy at the citizens advice for some reason. We have tried to call him multiple times but he's either out of office or it goes to answer phone. We left him a message and he did send a letter saying he'd received it and everything and that he'd call. Since we're having so much difficulty I am going to write him a letter and post it tomorrow.
- Creditors are calling often and it's stressing me out hugely. We have some money to eat and such but not enough to pay bills. I am thinking of sending them all letters explaining that we're in the process of getting a DRO and such, maybe it'll ease the pressure a little.
- I have been signed off Jobseeker's Allowance. I explained my situation to my adviser on Thursday and he deemed me unfit for work and signed me off on the spot. He told me to apply for ESA after getting a sick note/well note from my GP.
WARNING: This next section contains triggering content (self-harm, suicide, drinking etc) I know it's a lot to share on a public place, but I want to be as transparent as possible to you all. I trust you all and thank your opinions.
Health
- Mental Health is not the best ever right now. As mentioned, I suffer from clinical depression and anxiety and lately I have been having a strong influx of suicidal thoughts and feelings. It is distressing me on a great level and I feel as though I am losing control over my emotions on a regular basis. I don't want to go too much into much detail here but if you want to follow my mental health journey, I have a tumblr here: http://mentalhealthcocktail.tumblr.com/ Please note I do not want to be named on that journal, also no reblogs etc.
- I got a 'well note' today saying I am unfit for work for at least 2 months. I applied for ESA today via the phone as I couldn't phone due to being too anxious. (What's new.)
- I started self-harming more often with no feelings either way about it. I'm not sure what to do about that. I have also been smoking and drinking a whole lot more.
- My Psychiatrist saw me for an emergency appointment on Friday. He was very concerned and upped my meds. He will also start my on some antipsychotics to try and help with the thoughts. I am picking up my prescription this Wednesday. I'm a bit worried about the side effects but hopefully it can help in the long term.
- My diabetes control is horrific right now. I just have no motivation to do it at all. I skipped my appointment because I was to anxious to attend by myself. I need to sort this out or I'm not going to live long.
- My hormones are working, albeit very slowly. I have extra body hair and stuff which is good, and my dick's grown which is cool. My sex drive is a mix of FUCK EVERYTHING ALWAYS to no sex none I hate sex bleh. I didn't go to my gender identity clinic appointments as I couldn't afford the £70+ train ticket. I need to sort that too.
- We found an LGBT support group nearby but again, I didn't go as my anxiety was so high that night.
So there you go. A TMI and triggering post nonetheless but an update!
Commissions will be done as soon as I can get to them. I'm sorry about lateness all around but I really need to sort out my life right now.
Thanks so much for understanding!
- Neon
Okay so it's been a long while since I updated about my home situation. I thought I needed to update here as I know a lot of you are fantastic and read and support me!
Finance
- We're STILL waiting on the DRO. We went ahead and filled in the application and I have had a credit check sent off but we cannot get in touch with the guy at the citizens advice for some reason. We have tried to call him multiple times but he's either out of office or it goes to answer phone. We left him a message and he did send a letter saying he'd received it and everything and that he'd call. Since we're having so much difficulty I am going to write him a letter and post it tomorrow.
- Creditors are calling often and it's stressing me out hugely. We have some money to eat and such but not enough to pay bills. I am thinking of sending them all letters explaining that we're in the process of getting a DRO and such, maybe it'll ease the pressure a little.
- I have been signed off Jobseeker's Allowance. I explained my situation to my adviser on Thursday and he deemed me unfit for work and signed me off on the spot. He told me to apply for ESA after getting a sick note/well note from my GP.
WARNING: This next section contains triggering content (self-harm, suicide, drinking etc) I know it's a lot to share on a public place, but I want to be as transparent as possible to you all. I trust you all and thank your opinions.
Health
- Mental Health is not the best ever right now. As mentioned, I suffer from clinical depression and anxiety and lately I have been having a strong influx of suicidal thoughts and feelings. It is distressing me on a great level and I feel as though I am losing control over my emotions on a regular basis. I don't want to go too much into much detail here but if you want to follow my mental health journey, I have a tumblr here: http://mentalhealthcocktail.tumblr.com/ Please note I do not want to be named on that journal, also no reblogs etc.
- I got a 'well note' today saying I am unfit for work for at least 2 months. I applied for ESA today via the phone as I couldn't phone due to being too anxious. (What's new.)
- I started self-harming more often with no feelings either way about it. I'm not sure what to do about that. I have also been smoking and drinking a whole lot more.
- My Psychiatrist saw me for an emergency appointment on Friday. He was very concerned and upped my meds. He will also start my on some antipsychotics to try and help with the thoughts. I am picking up my prescription this Wednesday. I'm a bit worried about the side effects but hopefully it can help in the long term.
- My diabetes control is horrific right now. I just have no motivation to do it at all. I skipped my appointment because I was to anxious to attend by myself. I need to sort this out or I'm not going to live long.
- My hormones are working, albeit very slowly. I have extra body hair and stuff which is good, and my dick's grown which is cool. My sex drive is a mix of FUCK EVERYTHING ALWAYS to no sex none I hate sex bleh. I didn't go to my gender identity clinic appointments as I couldn't afford the £70+ train ticket. I need to sort that too.
- We found an LGBT support group nearby but again, I didn't go as my anxiety was so high that night.
So there you go. A TMI and triggering post nonetheless but an update!
Commissions will be done as soon as I can get to them. I'm sorry about lateness all around but I really need to sort out my life right now.
Thanks so much for understanding!
- Neon
I am glad some things are looking up
Always around if you need support and someone to talk to Possum
It's worth a try and I certainly hope all works out well for you ^..^
So nervous