Today's Journal Link Something to calm me down.

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*Warning* Do not read this Journal if you want to avoid emotional baggage. You've been warned...

█ For those of you who keep up with various news stories, the story of the suicide of one Megan after being cyberbullied makes me a bit mad. Now before emotions start flying everywhere, as they may very well, I want to put some things into perspective.

First is the reaction to the "justice" served in this matter. There is none. True the letter of the law was followed and executed, as it should be, but it undercuts one of the reasons why we even have laws to begin with: For protection... from each other.

Spiritually, society is dead. It has been for a long time now. I don't speak of churches, religion, God, or gods; no those things do very little for spiritual health outside soothing the fear of death and injustices that we can't do a damn thing about. (no doubt some people will find peace believing that Lori Drew will burn in Hell for all eternity)

But I digress, spirituality is dead. Few people look inwards, to seek out their soul, their identity, who they are. Instead our spirituality and souls are manufactured for us. We are special. We can do anything. We are unique. We are equal. If we behave we'll get a prize at the end of all this. That no problem we face cannot be overcome by a little elbow grease and sheer will power.

What a crock. It's really all a bunch of crap that's been covered up with so much sugar that the result is hyper-activeness and giddiness to overlook the fact you just ate the end result of something that actually tasted good to start with.

As such, I find it of little surprise that anything that inflicts mental or emotional damage on anyone isn't considered a crime. Sticks and stones and all that right? It's only "hurt" when it's bruised, broken, and bleeding right? After all, that's how laws in regards to injury are. Pain and suffering has to be physical. People who whine and bitch are just weak, and should suck it up, man up, and walk away.

Lies. Damn lies told by ignorant fools without enough empathy to realize that they are not the only ones who live in this world.

How many of you reading this were taught that your soul is very much vulnerable and not invincible? That you can feel pain without ever bleeding? That as our body can scar and die from wounds deep and grievous, that the same can happen with your heart and mind? I imagine not many, if any. If anything, you'd be told you're a spineless weakling for letting words get the better of you.

I'm here to tell you that your soul (should you believe in its existence) behaves very much like your body when wounded, and the consequences are very much similar.

People do loose their will to live.
People do get scarred so much that they must avoid the source of their pain (should they be that lucky)
People do get hurt without ever bleeding.

We are ill-prepared to defend ourselves emotionally. There are self-defense classes for those who are afraid of being attacked while alone at night, and there are police to aid and help prevent such things from happening in the first place. Laws in place to punish those who harm another, at least physically.

We can be assaulted from miles away sitting behind our computers. Though this is not a crime. It's just fantasy, it's not "real" We can suffer pain so great that breaking a leg instead would feel like but a scratch in comparison. However, being emotionally assaulted and 'losing' is just a sign of weakness, not an indication of abuse, or assault. So there's no protection, and done against the isolated, just creates more hurt, more unbearable pain.

So what of Megan? In her final moments she was betrayed by her glimmers of hope. The fake boyfriend who wished her dead, and ended up in an argument with her mother who only tried to protect her. She died alone, the most horrible way to die. Physically she may have been healthy, but emotionally, spiritually, she was starved, beaten, bloodied, battered. She died well before her heart stopped beating.

It's sad, and sadder still, nothing is learned, and only hate spreads through the lands.

For one side, wishes Lori Drew to die, and die horribly, to suffer to the end of her days (in which she probably won't, it seems she has no remorse in her heart)

And the other, who say Megan took her own life, it's not Lori's problem that she was a troubled child with parents who didn't care for her (even though that's contrary)

I don't feel anger, so much as deep sadness. Sadness that such pain is allowed to exist. Sadness that people are tortured till they are no more, till there's nothing left.

It's real. The pain is very real. I don't need to see the blood to know it's there.

So I implore you not to deny your own pain, should you have it. It's real, and you're not weak for feeling it. Being a tough guy when you're bleeding to death calling out proudly "It's only a flesh wound" only will end up in you dying. Maybe your heart won't stop beating, but your soul might just wither away and die.

But, that's just how I see things. You can call me a madman for preaching to you all like this, but that's how I see that story. I also deeply apologize if me sharing my view has caused you undue harm in the process. A part of me views this journal as rather selfish in the sense of talking of pain when it should be more about fun.

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