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Med News and Losing Watchers over Porn
11 years ago
That second part sure doesn't seem right does it? But it's true! I'm actually managing to LOSE more watchers than gain them the more explicit the material I post is (No outline=no new followers, blue outline=maybe a new watcher or two, and red outline=loss of followers). This used to not be the case but uh....I don't know! It seems to be the way things work now...for some reason. When I came out as bi I lost over a hundred followers; that thing furries spout about being open minded is a croc of shit it turns out. Maybe people have actually migrated over to Weasyl? Did that actually happen? I've barely been well enough to be at my computer so I have no idea what's going on on the internet at all.
Speaking of not being well: doctors are refusing to see me! Claiming that, since I've already been through the CDC regulated treatment I should be cured. Obviously that didn't happen but the humongous conspiracy behind Lyme Disease (google it! It's depressing!) makes finding doctors willing to treat people with the late stage version of the disease exceedingly tricky, mainly because they can lose their medical license over it. Not all is lost, however, as I eventually found a doctor who WOULD see me; in December. Not wanting to wait over a half year to actually start maybe finally recovering I asked if he could expand his search beyond just Missouri (keep in mind: this was the ONLY doctor in the state who would see me). So we found someone who's going to be seeing me very soon on a monthly/bi-monthly basis in Iowa. It'll be a six hour drive both ways to see her but hey! Maybe she won't tell me that aspirin and walks will cure me like the last "specialist" did. So I'll file that away as a big "we'll see".
Also a "We'll See": Anthrocon! I'd love to go but A) I'm still sick, B) some really lovely artists are trying to smear me behind the scenes and give me a bad name to furry publishers because I guess picking on sick people is how the "open minded" artist types get their kicks, C) I have ZERO furry friends left (turns out, when you're sick, people get tired of hearing about it and move on) and I don't have a D) I'm just pretty fucking miserable and isolated right now. Hopefully I'll dredge myself out and just keep on working on stuff, maybe make that eventual comeback I keep thinking about. I know there's cool people who want me to get better, your continuous support has gotten me this far, seriously some people have sent me the nicest comments and messages over the past few months, I'm just getting pretty strung out at this point (hopefully my tone above conveyed some strung-out-ed-ness).
Overall: if you've been cool to me, keep being cool, I need ya.
~Bone
Speaking of not being well: doctors are refusing to see me! Claiming that, since I've already been through the CDC regulated treatment I should be cured. Obviously that didn't happen but the humongous conspiracy behind Lyme Disease (google it! It's depressing!) makes finding doctors willing to treat people with the late stage version of the disease exceedingly tricky, mainly because they can lose their medical license over it. Not all is lost, however, as I eventually found a doctor who WOULD see me; in December. Not wanting to wait over a half year to actually start maybe finally recovering I asked if he could expand his search beyond just Missouri (keep in mind: this was the ONLY doctor in the state who would see me). So we found someone who's going to be seeing me very soon on a monthly/bi-monthly basis in Iowa. It'll be a six hour drive both ways to see her but hey! Maybe she won't tell me that aspirin and walks will cure me like the last "specialist" did. So I'll file that away as a big "we'll see".
Also a "We'll See": Anthrocon! I'd love to go but A) I'm still sick, B) some really lovely artists are trying to smear me behind the scenes and give me a bad name to furry publishers because I guess picking on sick people is how the "open minded" artist types get their kicks, C) I have ZERO furry friends left (turns out, when you're sick, people get tired of hearing about it and move on) and I don't have a D) I'm just pretty fucking miserable and isolated right now. Hopefully I'll dredge myself out and just keep on working on stuff, maybe make that eventual comeback I keep thinking about. I know there's cool people who want me to get better, your continuous support has gotten me this far, seriously some people have sent me the nicest comments and messages over the past few months, I'm just getting pretty strung out at this point (hopefully my tone above conveyed some strung-out-ed-ness).
Overall: if you've been cool to me, keep being cool, I need ya.
~Bone
Also... wow. Losing a load of watchers after coming out as bi... faith in humanity -1
Seeing the sufferers as weak complainers.
I had a non cancerous golf ball sized pituitary tumor removed in 2009, but before that it completely destroyed my sinuses resulting in chronic pain and congestion along with frequent infections.
Sometimes as many as once a month.
Some recent surgery last july cleared some of it up but i still suffer on a day to day basis even though on the outside I look completely and utterly fine.
I wish for the best !
Man, fuck people. If you ever wanna chat just to vent or have someone to chat with, you can poke me via Skype or something.
I hope this doc works out for you because you've been sick for so long I actually worry about your well being, even though I think I've only sat in a single stream with you.
Second, I don't give a flying fuck what your sexual orientation is - it's all cool by me!
Finally, if I were you, I'd consider paying a visit to the NIH in Maryland - it sounds to me like you need specialized research and care to fix your problem. Lyme disease, especially neuroborreliosis, is gaining more recognition as it becomes more prevalent - partly since climate change is expanding the range and population of Ixodes ticks, which are the primary vector.
As always, if you need science/med questions answered send me a message and I'll see what I can do to help. Good luck!
Ah well. Hope you get the help you need. Tigerdile still loves ya! :)
As for watchers: Do what you like. People come and people go and if they're going to be finicky about your art, then oh well. But there can be something said about the changes in the dynamics of the fandom of late possibly causing some of the drop off. When you lose watchers here do you tend to get more on Weasyl? I've yet to upload things there yet but I have been using it more to keep an eye on things. And tis easier to find new quality artists there at this point than here due to the demographics being very different.
On orientation: Yeah, the tolerance level of the fandom has been in decline for a while now. Which is a shame really. But there's still plenty of us who aren't shit heads thankfully. My general principle is that one should just be amazing, and that's the only real way to convince people to get over themselves and their petty biases. Because if they come into conflict between liking someone/something and that bias for long enough, they have a good chance to evolve towards being better people.
Hang in there!
You are a great artist, and don't let anyone else tell you different. I mean, I wouldn't be watching you if you weren't . PORN AND ALL!! XD
Donno what to tell you about the doctors... Or the disease. Only that it's gotta suck. A lot. Just hope some doctor somewhere can help you, so you can get better.
That's just... weird.
I ain't gunna unwatch ya, or not support you with the moral internet hugs possible.
Keep kicking ass dude, and screw the doctors who try that pansy crap. If you really want to mess with 'em, thank them for going back on their Hippocratic Oath.
haha, well what I meant is something to say to fix things, or help fix things. I really hope things look up somehow!
But in all seriousness, keep drawing what you want, keep working towards getting better, and keep hanging out with the people you feel are really worth hanging out with. There's plenty of people around you that want to help make you feel a little less miserable and isolated, and they're all pulling for you.
*blood oozes from my broken and battered face* I feel so loved!
As for your condition, please keep pushing those doctors! I do hope you can find a way to come up to AC even if you can't work the con. I'll be there waiting for you. :)
(we still need to skype each other! Seriously hit me up whenever! :) )
:P Seriously, though, hit me up sometime! :3
The fact that friends left you is bullshit.
The fact that artists are smearing you is bullshit,
The fact that you're getting shit on by the CDC is bullshit.
Stop being so bullshitty, life!
Anyway, if you ever happened to need anything in Iowa, I might be able to help when I'm there. You're a great artist and from the little I did talk to you at MFF, I thought you were really freaking amazing so I'm really rooting for your improvement because you're a great guy and you do not deserve this shit storm that's befalling you.
I have to believe, though, that things will look up because you've had your fair share of shit for a long ass time.
If ever you need anything, you know how to reach me.
Do they like, not believe in ticks or something where you are?
I wish you all the best!
If it happens that your doctor is around Des Moines or so, you should check out this place called papa john park in down town Des Moines. It's a great sculpture garden to take a stroll through if you happen to be in town. (especially with the weather recently)