If I seem on edge today
11 years ago
It's because i'm angry almost to the point of incoherence about Ferguson. It's twenty-fucking-fourteen and I could still be shot if I look at a cop wrong. And when I'm shot, I'll be labeled a thug and a gang-banger, and any pictures of me that look vaguely gang-related and vaguely threatening are going to be paraded out by certain segments of the media to make me seem like a thug. Any bad thing anybody has to say about me will be promoted to demonize me, and if I'm lucky, the cop that kills me will get a trial. If I'm lucky.
I can't own a gun. Not that I would want one, but if I were to get a gun and the police come after me for whatever reason, then I'm dead. I can't go around like these crazy white people, hauling around fucking rifles to "exercise their second amendment rights" while shopping in a fucking Target. Hell, I reach for my fucking wallet in an encounter with the cops, then I'm dead. I can't have a toy gun, neither, for any fucking reason, because somebody might be threatened and call the cops on me and then I'm dead.
Ferguson, and the non-indictment of Darren Wilson, just cements the fact that the police don't care for me, and society doesn't care about me, and no, racism isn't dead. Racism is far from dead. Racism is alive and well, it just got a new outfit.
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I can't own a gun. Not that I would want one, but if I were to get a gun and the police come after me for whatever reason, then I'm dead. I can't go around like these crazy white people, hauling around fucking rifles to "exercise their second amendment rights" while shopping in a fucking Target. Hell, I reach for my fucking wallet in an encounter with the cops, then I'm dead. I can't have a toy gun, neither, for any fucking reason, because somebody might be threatened and call the cops on me and then I'm dead.
Ferguson, and the non-indictment of Darren Wilson, just cements the fact that the police don't care for me, and society doesn't care about me, and no, racism isn't dead. Racism is far from dead. Racism is alive and well, it just got a new outfit.
EDIT - Watch this video
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Don't want to get shot? Don't maul a cop. That easy. I grew up in a neighborhood WAY rougher than that, it's called South Dallas, specifically Pleasant Grove and Oak Cliff. I went to predominantly black schools. No one there was DUMB enough to pull a stunt like that. Shiv each other in school? Happened all the time. Shootings in schools? Often enough that it wasn't even news. But beating the hell out of a cop? Dude, was he suicidal or something?
No. Not racism. This was Darwin calling his own.
If Officer Wilson was put on trial and found not guilty, I would be upset, yes. I believe that he murdered Brown. But the fact that he's not going to be charged at all upsets me greatly. This, plus Travyon Martin and all the numerous other cases, some publicized and unpublicized, lead me to believe that I should be afraid for my life in any, ANY encounter with any police officer.
That is not the first incident of a kid being killed because he was stupid enough to jump in front of a cop with a toy gun. This is why, in many states, toy guns are required to have markings that make it clear that they are fake. If the kid tapes or marks over it to make it look 'cooler' (i.e. more realistic) and jumps at a cop with it... don't be surprised he gets plugged, regardless of race. White kids as well as black have been killed doing that. It's again not a matter of race, it's a matter of doing stupid things.
Cops have a rough job. They get to patrol the streets and be in risk of getting attacked every moment they are in uniform. It's even worse than being downrange. And attacking a guy with a gun and the license to use it? Not the smartest move.
You want to not be in fear of your life around a cop? Don't attack them. It isn't that hard.
As far as Treyvon Martin? I'll just leave this here:
A medical report compiled by the family physician of Trayvon Martin shooter George Zimmerman and obtained exclusively by ABC News found that Zimmerman was diagnosed with a "closed fracture" of his nose, a pair of black eyes, two lacerations to the back of his head and a minor back injury the day after he fatally shot Martin during an alleged altercation.
Again, don't jump someone with a gun. This has zero to do with race.
You know what is racist? Black man shot by white man. Before any facts are addressed, before any evidence is filed, it is automatically a racially motivated incident. Within moments of the incident happened, it was all over that it was because of race. No trial, no jury, he is guilty of being racist until proven so, with no chance of being permitted to prove otherwise. That is racist.
I don't give a damn who the person is, black, white, hispanic, oriental... take your pick. Anyone jumps a guy of any race with a gun. What do you think that guy with a gun is going to do? Me? I'm going to pull the trigger. The attacker's race is immaterial. My life is at risk. If it is a choice between my life, or the life of my family, and an assailant? It won't be me or mine going away in a body bag. I promise. That's not racist, that living to see another day. Not even if the guy who jumped me just happens to be black.
And yes, I believe this was a racially motivated incident. To do so otherwise is to live in a fantasy land, where there hasn't been years upon decades of history of these things being racially motivated. I don't accuse Darren Wilson of being a racist, but I decry a system that is against me.
I wish there had been a trial too, if only to exonerate him. As it stands, he's lost his job on the mere accusation of being racist and defending his life.
We're going to have to agree to disagree that this was a racially motivated incident. As soon as a black guy is attacked, it's automatically racist. Heck, there were some incidents that went local where a black guy was crying racism... only to discover that his assailant was, in fact, hispanic. Surprising how quiet that went and how deeply it was buried when they found out his attacker wasn't white.
I do agree that officers should be held to a higher standard due to their standing in society. However, this is part of his job. He is issued a gun and is expected to use it in the defense of lives. In this case, the life was his own. Internal Affairs crawled all over him, do not doubt that for a moment. However, that was an investigation the public never got to see.
That being said, I think that I can (as I often do) employ an engineering analogy here.
American Airlines Flight 191 was a scheduled flight from Chicago O'Hare International Airport to Los Angeles International Airport. On May 25, 1979, the flight, carried by a McDonnell-Douglas DC-10-10, crashed shortly after takeoff, killing all 258 passengers and 13 crew aboard, and two on the ground.
It was immediately clear what the proximate cause of the crash was: During throttle-up and takeoff, the port engine mount failed, allowing the engine to flip up and over the wing, tearing out fuel and hydraulic lines in the process. Due to the loss of hydraulic fluid, the slats on the port wing retracted, and the unequal lift caused the aircraft to roll sharply to port. With no chance of maintaining control, the plane impacted shortly beyond the end of the runway.
It would've been easy to simply look at the fractured engine mount, blame component failure, and call it a day. However, that is not how engineering works; there is a Root Cause Analysis, or RCA. Why did the engine mount fail? Was it not designed with sufficient strength? Was it not made to print, improperly installed, or made of an improper material?
Turns out it was the maintenance procedure used for removing and remounting the engines, a procedure that was approved neither by McDonnell-Douglas or General Electric, the engine manufacturer. Shortcuts were taken in the removal procedure, allowing the engine to hang from the rear mounting pin, causing stress deformation and cracking in the rear engine pylon. Over a period of many takeoffs and landings, the microscopic cracks continued to grow, as the stress of the engine straining at maximum thrust was repeated. Finally, the hidden, underlying stress could no longer be contained within the damaged component, and it failed, catastrophically, resulting in the worst aviation accident in US history.
Perhaps nobody really thought of the maintenance procedure as being all that dangerous. I doubt that anybody did anything to deliberately damage an aircraft. After this was revealed, the entire fleet of DC-10s was grounded and engine pylons checked for cracking and denting; many were found to be damaged, and were replaced before more critical failures could occur.
This particular component failure was not just a fluke, a single, isolated incident. It was the result of months, perhaps years of improper procedures that built up to a singular tragedy.
I'm also reminded of an observation from my Congressman, Bill Foster (D-IL). Trained as a physicist, he is a former project director at Fermi National Accelerator Laboratory, as well as an inventor and entrepreneur, designing and building theatrical lighting equipment and starting a company with his brother. Upon arriving in Washington after winning a special election following the mid-term resignation of Dennis Hastert (nothing like a Republican to force the state to spend a few million dollars it didn't have to), he remarked with surprise at the number of people there believing statements that are simply wrong. Not differences of opinion, mind you, but factually incorrect, directly disproven by evidence.
To use another engineering analogy, this time to demonstrate some political arguments: It is perfectly valid to argue that the piers of a bridge should be made of structural steel, or of concrete. Those are differences of opinion that can be supported by fact, evidence, and logic. To say that the piers of a bridge should be made of Camembert Cheese is not a valid opinion, it is simply nonsense, and anybody who would claim it is a legitimate opinion, worthy of attention, is downright delusional.
As you can probably tell by now, I could never make it in politics.