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11 years ago
Hi all
Recently I've been pushing my self to do all my late commissions, and even managed to finish 'em. As soon as I could I re-opened, cos I wanna keep gathering money to buy me new PC, and also I really like drawing and would really want to improve as much as possible as it would be nice make a living with my art.
Sadly as usual, as soon as I manage to get in a good mood or try to achieve something a series of things take place.
sorry if I sound weird, but I once got my Journal removes and was threatened to have my account closed/suspended for expressing my self the way I did back then, so I need to express my self like a kid.
Basically my family is being "bad", doing some things that makes me feel "sad"
As soon as I reopened my commissions again a bunch of events took place (nothing serious, but thing that got me all "sad")
again I cant express my self free here, and some thing are personal stuff...basically I'm being forced to work all over the place, doing this and that, and family will simply call me names, say I'm lazy, that I should almost worship them cos I'm allowed to live in their home, and I own 'em my life....short story long, for those who dont remember from my past Journals, I'm adopted, I was really really sick at the time, almost lost my life, I was adopted by my current family and I got better at the hospital.
Now as I'm 20+ years old, I dont have high school done and no job I'm being constantly reminded of that event every time they order me to do some things, even my sister (blood), acts like this making me feel "sad".
To top all that I cant tell them about me being furry and not to mention my desire to change my gender.
Commissions I need to HIDE from them, as most of the time the art I'm being asked for is "adult". Dont get me wrong I really like drawing that, and I enjoy the art. but must hide it, so family things I spend all day playing WOW or watching videos on youtube. Some times I do, but is part of what I do to hide my art.
That means I have really few hours of day to draw, and that if I'm not physically exhausted do to the things I need to do at home or "sad/angry" with my family do to the "exchange of thoughts"
When I finally get to do my art, many times people that ask me for art are "rude to me", all because in their Note description I missed 2 key words for the picture. Other times I'm given the freedom to decide how to make the pic as far as it keeps the main idea, but even then I get "comments" about how "bad I did".
Many times I'm asked to do the entire pic all over again.
-PLZ. understand that I do traditional art, meaning I use paper and pencil, not a last gen PC and a fancy tablet. I cant simply "clic" and undo my work, many times I need to re-draw the entire thing even when its a simple/minor detail I need to change.
Sadly many dont understand that. I get many "negative comments" and most of the time I'm forced to re-do the entire picture, even after the 1st one was posted here on FA. Meaning that the commissioner can easely right clic and save the 1st picture and get a 2nd one completely free.
That, many thing is the logical thing, that I'm being "dramatic" about it....but as I mentioned earlier, I dont really have that much time to do art, if I had my own place, I woudnt have a problem doing this...sadly I dont.
Other times I'm being asked for a refund. LET ME EXPLAIN A THING
At home I need to pay for some home bills, help Mom with money and the few I get left I can try spend paying my WOW time (yeah I think I deserve to have 1 game, even if that 1 takes away a lot of money)
I used to ask for commission payment AFTER the pic was done, but many people never payed or "commented" about how "bad" my art is, so many times I ended doing pictured 3-4 times all over again until commissioner was happy with all the 3 previous sketches and the final picture.
I once had a commissioner who asked me for 8 pictures, I had to re.draw ALL 8 3 to 4 times each, and every time he asked for something NEW.
I even had a case where an artist asked me for a pic, as soon as I posted he payed me HALF of the commission prize. this artist said that my art was "inferior" compared to his own. Sadly I had a really similar case where an artist payed below my prize, and after I informed of that mistake, I was asked to send the payment so it could be send again complete...as soon as I send the payment back the artist "shared some thoughts" and then payed 2ce the prize. (this should be good if it wasnt because this artist claimed to be "superior" to me, and I should be "grateful/thankful" I was asked to do art for this artist)
Since then I had a few similar events, nothing serious, but I made my mind and started asking for payment before the art was done. I know I'm slow some times, specially this year, I've been really really slow. but trust me when I say had "a bad year" and I've been really "sad" because I had many "exchanged of ideas" with my family.
Now that I got some saving I might consider send refund when some artist "acts negatively against me". I dont want to...but these last events made me thing it might be the only way.
SORRY this was such a LONG talk...I just really needed to share some of my thoughts some where...
I needed to share this info before I asked for some help...
at the beginning of this year I started my classes to get my driving licence. I passed the exam a few months ago, all clear on 1st shot. so now I need to pay for the car practices, those are really expensive and just recently a member of my family started to do study for the driving licence too. So my family is saving money for THAT PERSON'S future car practices, NOT MINE. I'm forced to pay my own practices, or find a job to pay them. but most jobs require car licence, what I dont have cos I cant play practice to get licence, to get a job, to pay the practices...etc...etc
SO, I'm gonna do a special GROW series of pics....I've seen some artists do that, so I hope this might help me pay my car practices...I'm still working on details, but it will be a GROW series of 5 pics, growing my self fursona. Growing bigger depending on the amount of tips I get.........I'll try gather 500$ cos each 45 mins are 25€ EUROS
(500$ / 25$ would be 20 practices, but as Euro worth more than Dollar it will be less sadly, but enough to allow me to get ready for the final exam)
PLZ let me know on comments what ya think of this...I really need some help (and kindness) at the moment
Recently I've been pushing my self to do all my late commissions, and even managed to finish 'em. As soon as I could I re-opened, cos I wanna keep gathering money to buy me new PC, and also I really like drawing and would really want to improve as much as possible as it would be nice make a living with my art.
Sadly as usual, as soon as I manage to get in a good mood or try to achieve something a series of things take place.
sorry if I sound weird, but I once got my Journal removes and was threatened to have my account closed/suspended for expressing my self the way I did back then, so I need to express my self like a kid.
Basically my family is being "bad", doing some things that makes me feel "sad"
As soon as I reopened my commissions again a bunch of events took place (nothing serious, but thing that got me all "sad")
again I cant express my self free here, and some thing are personal stuff...basically I'm being forced to work all over the place, doing this and that, and family will simply call me names, say I'm lazy, that I should almost worship them cos I'm allowed to live in their home, and I own 'em my life....short story long, for those who dont remember from my past Journals, I'm adopted, I was really really sick at the time, almost lost my life, I was adopted by my current family and I got better at the hospital.
Now as I'm 20+ years old, I dont have high school done and no job I'm being constantly reminded of that event every time they order me to do some things, even my sister (blood), acts like this making me feel "sad".
To top all that I cant tell them about me being furry and not to mention my desire to change my gender.
Commissions I need to HIDE from them, as most of the time the art I'm being asked for is "adult". Dont get me wrong I really like drawing that, and I enjoy the art. but must hide it, so family things I spend all day playing WOW or watching videos on youtube. Some times I do, but is part of what I do to hide my art.
That means I have really few hours of day to draw, and that if I'm not physically exhausted do to the things I need to do at home or "sad/angry" with my family do to the "exchange of thoughts"
When I finally get to do my art, many times people that ask me for art are "rude to me", all because in their Note description I missed 2 key words for the picture. Other times I'm given the freedom to decide how to make the pic as far as it keeps the main idea, but even then I get "comments" about how "bad I did".
Many times I'm asked to do the entire pic all over again.
-PLZ. understand that I do traditional art, meaning I use paper and pencil, not a last gen PC and a fancy tablet. I cant simply "clic" and undo my work, many times I need to re-draw the entire thing even when its a simple/minor detail I need to change.
Sadly many dont understand that. I get many "negative comments" and most of the time I'm forced to re-do the entire picture, even after the 1st one was posted here on FA. Meaning that the commissioner can easely right clic and save the 1st picture and get a 2nd one completely free.
That, many thing is the logical thing, that I'm being "dramatic" about it....but as I mentioned earlier, I dont really have that much time to do art, if I had my own place, I woudnt have a problem doing this...sadly I dont.
Other times I'm being asked for a refund. LET ME EXPLAIN A THING
At home I need to pay for some home bills, help Mom with money and the few I get left I can try spend paying my WOW time (yeah I think I deserve to have 1 game, even if that 1 takes away a lot of money)
I used to ask for commission payment AFTER the pic was done, but many people never payed or "commented" about how "bad" my art is, so many times I ended doing pictured 3-4 times all over again until commissioner was happy with all the 3 previous sketches and the final picture.
I once had a commissioner who asked me for 8 pictures, I had to re.draw ALL 8 3 to 4 times each, and every time he asked for something NEW.
I even had a case where an artist asked me for a pic, as soon as I posted he payed me HALF of the commission prize. this artist said that my art was "inferior" compared to his own. Sadly I had a really similar case where an artist payed below my prize, and after I informed of that mistake, I was asked to send the payment so it could be send again complete...as soon as I send the payment back the artist "shared some thoughts" and then payed 2ce the prize. (this should be good if it wasnt because this artist claimed to be "superior" to me, and I should be "grateful/thankful" I was asked to do art for this artist)
Since then I had a few similar events, nothing serious, but I made my mind and started asking for payment before the art was done. I know I'm slow some times, specially this year, I've been really really slow. but trust me when I say had "a bad year" and I've been really "sad" because I had many "exchanged of ideas" with my family.
Now that I got some saving I might consider send refund when some artist "acts negatively against me". I dont want to...but these last events made me thing it might be the only way.
SORRY this was such a LONG talk...I just really needed to share some of my thoughts some where...
I needed to share this info before I asked for some help...
at the beginning of this year I started my classes to get my driving licence. I passed the exam a few months ago, all clear on 1st shot. so now I need to pay for the car practices, those are really expensive and just recently a member of my family started to do study for the driving licence too. So my family is saving money for THAT PERSON'S future car practices, NOT MINE. I'm forced to pay my own practices, or find a job to pay them. but most jobs require car licence, what I dont have cos I cant play practice to get licence, to get a job, to pay the practices...etc...etc
SO, I'm gonna do a special GROW series of pics....I've seen some artists do that, so I hope this might help me pay my car practices...I'm still working on details, but it will be a GROW series of 5 pics, growing my self fursona. Growing bigger depending on the amount of tips I get.........I'll try gather 500$ cos each 45 mins are 25€ EUROS
(500$ / 25$ would be 20 practices, but as Euro worth more than Dollar it will be less sadly, but enough to allow me to get ready for the final exam)
PLZ let me know on comments what ya think of this...I really need some help (and kindness) at the moment
Your happiness is more worthy than my commission. I care about your situation & hope you find peace and solace soon.
Kinda sad to hear that people force you to rework art.
When I order them I often like to give a artist freedome of work, and enjoy the result. that comes out of it. Its not always what I instantly imaged but I think the beauty in it is to see an artists freedome to expess things there way.
I did it once with detail changes but that just anjoying in the end.
I hope you have in your new bunch of coms less difficult costumers to work with.
*gives youa hug*