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Where do i even begin? (Auction inside too)
10 years ago
Story information: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10826933/
Universal information: https://www.heavy-weapons.com/
Universal information: https://www.heavy-weapons.com/
Hey guys, long time no speak. Been a while since i've done a proper journal, figured you all could do with an update.
So. 6 weeks ago i was diagnosed with depression and general anxiety disorder after having my first panic attack outside. That was a tough week. I quit my door to door job the same week as i simply unable to muster the effort to go to work. I spoke to the doctor about it immediately though and was prescribed some anti-depressants (Hereby known as Anti-dee's from now forth). I landed myself in another job pretty quick however as roughly the same job, just office based. Essentially working in a call center. I don't know whats causing the depression, but the following weeks were hard. I had no interest in anything at all, all that was on my mind was "I want to stop existing". Which ain't fun.
Fast forward a couple of weeks, things are actually going pretty damn good at the job, i'm enjoying the work, the pay is decent, they were great about my depression too (THey let me work part time hours) and things seemed to be going alright. Cut to easter, they don't have any work for me due to there being a lack of data avaliable, they do want me to work there, but they just don't have anything to offer me. Same deal again this week. Only, for some reason, i flipped out on monday night/tuesday morning. I had my first proper anxiety attack. For those of you who haven't had one of these or are just wondering what mine was like, my chest started hurting, my throat closed up (Felt like i was choking on something), i went dizzy/light headed, my finger tips went a little numb, i was hyper ventilating and i was going cold and clammy all over. Having never experienced anything like that before, i panicked. Ended up calling 999 for an ambulance. My dad came downstairs wondering what was going on, ended up having a MASSIVE argument with me, we were shouting and swearing at each-other, he ended up saying that he'd had enough of me and wanted me out the house. Ambulance arrives, clears me of any serious problems (Thank god), i end up calling me best pals at 6am and asking them to come grab me and help me out, which they did. Had a heart to heart talk to my dad before i left and we sorted things out a little.
Yesterday i played tennis, joined an online dating website and ate pineapple.
Today, i found out that my mum has relapsed and gone into another psychotic episode. Which is just great.
Yeah, i know. What the fuck is going on with my life. Its been very up and down to say the least. But hell, i'm still alive.
Next on the agenda, money. Due to the company not having any data, my money is hideously short right now.
First off, i want to apologies to those who are waiting for stories from me. They are well overdue and i am very aware of that, i haven't forgotten you guys, i promise. You guys have paid me and i haven't delivered yet. The good news is, i'm not going anywhere and running off with your money. The other good news is that i wanna get them done soon and properly. I'm never gonna rush your stories guys, i promise that. The news that i'm not so happy about delivering.
I'm gonna hold a quick fire auction tonight. I don't like the idea of it, but there stuff i wanna buy and a quick cash boost would really help me out. I don't feel its fair to the guys who are currently waiting and i hope don't hold it against me, but my options are fairly limited right now. If i could get £15 from the auction, i would be a happy bunny. More would be awesome, but £15 is my target. I'll set up the bid below and put up some advertisement. Its going to finish tonight at midnight, so its only 3 hours long! If you guys wanna help me out, just let people know i exist!
Standard rules for story bid. Bid on the last bid, bidding is in pounds, snipes will extend bidding by a couple of minutes. I hold the right to refuse any story i don't feel is suitable but i'm happy to work for a compromise, if no middle ground can be found then it'll go to the next highest bid. Payment tonight would be most ideal guys too.
But yeah, there we are. Life is a roller coaster. Lets hope they oiled the wheels.
So. 6 weeks ago i was diagnosed with depression and general anxiety disorder after having my first panic attack outside. That was a tough week. I quit my door to door job the same week as i simply unable to muster the effort to go to work. I spoke to the doctor about it immediately though and was prescribed some anti-depressants (Hereby known as Anti-dee's from now forth). I landed myself in another job pretty quick however as roughly the same job, just office based. Essentially working in a call center. I don't know whats causing the depression, but the following weeks were hard. I had no interest in anything at all, all that was on my mind was "I want to stop existing". Which ain't fun.
Fast forward a couple of weeks, things are actually going pretty damn good at the job, i'm enjoying the work, the pay is decent, they were great about my depression too (THey let me work part time hours) and things seemed to be going alright. Cut to easter, they don't have any work for me due to there being a lack of data avaliable, they do want me to work there, but they just don't have anything to offer me. Same deal again this week. Only, for some reason, i flipped out on monday night/tuesday morning. I had my first proper anxiety attack. For those of you who haven't had one of these or are just wondering what mine was like, my chest started hurting, my throat closed up (Felt like i was choking on something), i went dizzy/light headed, my finger tips went a little numb, i was hyper ventilating and i was going cold and clammy all over. Having never experienced anything like that before, i panicked. Ended up calling 999 for an ambulance. My dad came downstairs wondering what was going on, ended up having a MASSIVE argument with me, we were shouting and swearing at each-other, he ended up saying that he'd had enough of me and wanted me out the house. Ambulance arrives, clears me of any serious problems (Thank god), i end up calling me best pals at 6am and asking them to come grab me and help me out, which they did. Had a heart to heart talk to my dad before i left and we sorted things out a little.
Yesterday i played tennis, joined an online dating website and ate pineapple.
Today, i found out that my mum has relapsed and gone into another psychotic episode. Which is just great.
Yeah, i know. What the fuck is going on with my life. Its been very up and down to say the least. But hell, i'm still alive.
Next on the agenda, money. Due to the company not having any data, my money is hideously short right now.
First off, i want to apologies to those who are waiting for stories from me. They are well overdue and i am very aware of that, i haven't forgotten you guys, i promise. You guys have paid me and i haven't delivered yet. The good news is, i'm not going anywhere and running off with your money. The other good news is that i wanna get them done soon and properly. I'm never gonna rush your stories guys, i promise that. The news that i'm not so happy about delivering.
I'm gonna hold a quick fire auction tonight. I don't like the idea of it, but there stuff i wanna buy and a quick cash boost would really help me out. I don't feel its fair to the guys who are currently waiting and i hope don't hold it against me, but my options are fairly limited right now. If i could get £15 from the auction, i would be a happy bunny. More would be awesome, but £15 is my target. I'll set up the bid below and put up some advertisement. Its going to finish tonight at midnight, so its only 3 hours long! If you guys wanna help me out, just let people know i exist!
Standard rules for story bid. Bid on the last bid, bidding is in pounds, snipes will extend bidding by a couple of minutes. I hold the right to refuse any story i don't feel is suitable but i'm happy to work for a compromise, if no middle ground can be found then it'll go to the next highest bid. Payment tonight would be most ideal guys too.
But yeah, there we are. Life is a roller coaster. Lets hope they oiled the wheels.
Bid here. Starting bid £5.
drycos
~drycos
10
Beta_krogoth
~betakrogoth
OP
Dryco's wins!
Industry
~industry
I see. well thanks for explaining what you are going through. i hope you continue to be alive. cause if ya don't, i'll have kill myself so i can travel to the afterlife and kick you in the shins. :^)
rafaelhot123
~rafaelhot123
I hope everything right for you, depression is something difficult, but if you die, I'll kick your ass, because I love your stories and characters, thank you for explaining your situation
thepolishtitan
~thepolishone
Damn dude. I hope everything gets better for you. And take your time to take care of yourself, no need to rush anything. If you ever need someone to talk to, just send me a note or something.
