We're the same in that boat loca.. you know that. Let's chat.
MT

:Hugs just cuz:

So your dad passed away also. All you need to do is carry on his memory

Thanks man.

*pats your back*Well if you want to leave your job, find a new one first THEN leave it. That way there's no worry about being without a job.

I feel the same about my art, sure, here and there it improves for like three drawings, but then it goes back to what it was, or worse, and boredom is the bane of all existance.

Also, sorry about your dad, its understandable to miss someone so much, its not exactly much to compare to, but I still miss my cat.

I was considering that, but what I'm afraid is I won't find anything or I'll get stuck in something worse, and then there's benefit and pay cuts.... so complicated...

Werd, that's exactly how I feel man.

Thanks. :hugs: Great....now I miss my dad and my cat. XD I'm kidding.

Well, its a risk that's gotta be taken, and if you don't find anything, you're no worse off, and if you do find something else, just make sure you look into it a bit before making your choice, if your jobs a pain in arse, what's the worst that could be worse? Though, yeah, less pay and all can be a blistering bastard ._.;

Sorry!XD Oh God! I've made your missing worse!

*snug*

:cuddle: :'(

*more snugglage!*

I still miss my nan. Just keep your head high.

aw :hugs: Thanks, I'll try.

Aguh,sorry to hear that.Well,get relaxed it's a remedy to have good ideas

Guess that's true. Thanks.

Being on the market for a new job doesn't mean having to give up your current job. Look while you work the other job and when you find a new one,quit and take the new job. Maybe you'll find one where they punish you with public spankings. ;)

Once you have a more pleasant job,maybe you can focus more on art.

As for your dad,call him. Or talk to him on voice chat on-line. There's no reason you 2 can't talk.

(pulls off plastic dummy head) It's not my fault you can't keep up with my ninja speed. :p

There's a rather big reason why she can't talk to her dad. He's dead.

I agree about looking for another job, though.

LOL Yeah I was thinking about that too, but the job market isn't exactly exploding here. ....Public spankings...LOL

I keep thinking that too. Having a soul-sucking job throws off your creative mojo, but then having low self esteem does that too...it's like lose-lose.

As my friend Samblob mentioned, my father recently passed away. But I appreciate the advice.

Well there are a lot of things deterring me from applying for a new job right now, all of which just sound like lame excuses when explained outloud (or um...typed) so I'll spare you. LOL

That kind of sounds like burying the problem and not really solving it. There are pleanty of things that can "distract" me from how I'm feeling (art used to be one of them), but I don't want to just cover it up. I'm just tired of feeling like this. It's like....constant. I have been sleeping a lot but that doesn't help. LOL I just feel like more of a useless lug.

Well thanks for the advice Joe. Hopefully I'll end up doing something soon.

There are pleanty of things that can "distract" me from how I'm feeling (art used to be one of them), but I don't want to just cover it up.

Then, instead of using your art to cover it up, why not use your art to bring it out? Like this: http://chibi-jen-hen.deviantart.com.....-Wish-52526033 , or maybe more so.

I just kept at it because I wanted something I could be proud of or something to look foward to, but I don't think there's a point in that anymore. It's a childish wish to keep at it, and I keep thinking maybe I should just go back to school for something practical and just give this up already.

So what, practically, do you want to do? What is your calling? There are two parts of a vocation: desire and ability. What do you like to do that you do well, or that you have the capacity, with training and practice, to do well?

If I could draw as well as you do, I'd be quite proud of it. Heck, sometimes I'm proud of what I can do, and I'm nowhere near your level!

***Yeah yeah bite me.
**...is there anywhere in particular that you'd like to be bitten?
*um...no? XD
O.K., so I get to choose!

*tries to give you a comforting huggle* I don't know what to say really but all I can think of to say really is that you should try your best in anyway you can, I mean thats all anyone can ask you to do and plus as for job I don't think I am qualified or exprienced enough to give advice on that sorry Jen hope you be alright

Aw well thanks for the hug and comforting words. I will try to do my best hon. :huggles:

Wow.....exact same experience, only it's a different person's absence that's screwed my life up...

aw, well that sucks. I hope it works out for you. :(

It is, slowly but surely.

-hugs- we are in the same boat, I am stuck at a crappy job until I find something different, keep at it and hopefully something will come up.

:hugs: Werd, son, we need to sink this damn boat already. LOL Thanks and Good luck to you too. ;)

Join the club.

aww :hugs Rico-chan:.

I'm not only a member, I'm also the evil overlord!

Ah, so that explains the light sabre! xD

we all have times like these

Well, momma said there'd be days like these.

LOL

T.T

;.;

*hugs*

Aw, I can really, really feel for you... I do hope things will pick up for ya again, really. Knowing how the ride on the boat we are both in, more or less, is, I am crossing my fingers for ya and wish for the next best opportunity for a positive change for you to show itself as soon as possible. >.<

Aw well thank you. I really appreciate that. I hope whatever you're going through works out as well.

^^; You're most welcome. =3

Aaand thanks alot for that, too, much appreciated.

you have to face your problems one by one, but yeah.

Face it, life is a bunch of crap, and it will continue to get shoveled in your face if you don't handle it.

Truer words have never been spoken...or typed.

You are no way near a failure. Your the fuking best! Cheer up, Your making me sad... ;;

Don't be sad! :huuuuuuggles: There! lol

Well I sure do feel like one. I'm just trying my best not to let it get to me like it usually does.

HEY CHIBI
CHEER UP MY FRIEND
you're REALLY AWESOME
CONTINUE YOUR AWESOME WORK
CONTINUE TO BE YOURSELF
'cause you're really GREAT

I will try Keyko! Thank you for your kind words and smiley faces!

no prob
I like cheer my friends
really
you're awesome
and I wish you continue your awesome work
that's all
*hugs you*

Dunno if it makes a difference, but HUGS. Wish I could give you a real one :)

I know what you're talking about, with the not doing anything right feeling, not to mention the job market. I've got to get a job for Summer now, so I'll have to face my awful fear of telling people I'm good at something.

And, it's been my experience that sometimes, art (or anything else that needs development) doesn't seem to go anywhere, because you need a bit of hibernation / digestion before you can keep evolving. My art seems to skip between better than before and worse than before from day to day, these days. It's maybe a bit about why I do it too; with art, emotion has to be involved. :P

Aw, I'm rambling. Keep at it. You're cool. And you'll find your way again.

aww thank you darlin'. :HUGS: LOL

That's one thing I hate about interviewing...how does someone with low self esteem sell themself?! SOMEONE TELL ME HOW! T.T I think I only have the job I do now because my aunt works there and I don't have a criminal record.

I feel the same about sometimes having to take a break from art but I'm getting to a point where I don't even know if I feel like it anymore. I alwyas thought art had to have some kind of emotion behind it, but I'm not even sure I feel it anymore. I dunno...

You are not rambling. You know I luv ya. :hugs: Stay cool hon and thanks. ;)

NITROZZ! INITIATE PLAN DELTA GAMMA BRAVO!

Nitrozz: And how the hell does that plan go?

-_- Just throw Brawn at her, he'll give her a damn hug.....ruin all my dramatic moments you budias bastard of a hedgehog........

Nitrozz: You heard him Brawn....*throws the cute dimwitted echidna*

Brawn: WHEEEE! AFFECTION FROM ABOOOOOOOOOVE

:steals Brawn: You'll never see him again.

>.>

<.<

MINE! XD

Crap.......now who am I gonna get to carry all my heavy stuff?

Nitrozz: Aren't you more concerned about the fact that we lost a valued friend and ally?

No

I know how you feel. I feel also very bad because I'm very stupid and I'm a big looser...

Don't be worried about your art. Your art is wonderful and you must not make any special things. You have enough time for example making your comic or other things.^^ trust me.^^ Try to enjoy the happy time in your life.^^ You will live longer then I. I'm only 19 and know how you feel now. I will do in some years that what everyone wish who have problems and is to weak for the pain.

Oh and yes, I'm the stupid perved guy from dA. XD lol

You are none of those things, don't be silly. And yes i knew it was you all along Pory my dear. XD

Well thank you for your kindness, hon. I hope I'll get over it soon.

Wow you did answer. XD very rare. X3

You don't know me so you can't say that I'm not so. Like I can't say such things like in the Story which I did whrote for you and waiting till today for a answer. (Yes, now I think you often say here something as by dA. XD")

Good Luck chibijenhen-sama.^^

things will work out in the end :<

But what will the end be O.o?

LOL thanks. ;)

Least you got a job lass, I am still unemployed.

Aw I'm sorry. :( I hope you find something soon.

I am hoping that myself.

Listen.

Your job, nomatter how dead end...
Your art, nomatter how blocked...
Your emotional trouble, nomatter how rocky...

Does not reflect what kind of person you are or your potential. Don't ever think that.

While I appreciate what you're saying I have to disagree.

I keep the dead end job because I know I won't be able to get another one, because I know if it's between me and someone else, nine out of ten times, they'll pick someone else. I'm not confident, outspoken, or pretty, and according to my mother, I lack common sense.

My art is blocked becuase I'm unmotivated, I don't see the point anymore. I hardly like anything I do, which keeps pushing my confidence that much lower.

As much as I try not to, I feel like I keep pushing my emotional trouble on my friends which I think will one day cause them to just up and leave. I mean who wants to hang out with a Negative Nancy all the damn time?

I think that reflects that I'm a boring nobody who's going to end up broken and alone with a house full of cats. That's just me.

And while I understand what you're saying, you're wrong.

You have a confidence problem. This is where this all stems from. Your environmental factors are distractions, small reasons that you're feeling bad, but they're not the actual reason why things fall down around you. Not everyone is a social butterfly or anything, but there's a difference between shy and brokenly timid.

I have a feeling your family is doing this to you, causing you to not have any confidence in yourself, and you're buying what they're saying because of all of this "proof" that you have, which doesn't actually have anything to do with what kind of person you really are. As a result, you spend your time in fantasy, trying to forget the things that are bothering you so much, when in reality what you really need to do is recognize them- the actual problems, not the ones you think are the problem- and find a way to deal with them. Confront yourself.

Talk to me sometime, I promise I will help you, and you won't owe me anything for it.

Amen. :nod:

I know from experience that singing Chiquitita won't cheer you up.

Where do you want your art to go? Preferably not into the circular file, but the only person I can think of who'd want to put it there is you. What do you want to expand on, to do better, to improve?

I miss my dad too, and it's been thirty-one and a quarter years. *hug*

Lastly... is there anywhere in particular that you'd like to be bitten?

I don't even know if I want to expand or do anything with art. I'm just tired of not liking it. I just kept at it because I wanted something I could be proud of or something to look foward to, but I don't think there's a point in that anymore. It's a childish wish to keep at it, and I keep thinking maybe I should just go back to school for something practical and just give this up already.

I don't know.

yeah I don't think I'll ever stop missing him. And that hurts even more. LOL

um...no? XD

awww man , i feel the same workingsucks and i barely have a comp. as if that my grades are slipping, *hugs* but no worries Jen it'll be ok <:3

Nooo! Don't let your grades slip, that's no good. Work hard hon. I hope everything turns out ok. :hugs:

And thanks. :)

ok >3< n ur welcome :)

Ha I gave one extra! and a ...MUSIC NOTE!

Did u suddenly delete all ur .... ehh ... hentai pics ???

I took them down a week or so ago maybe...why do you ask?

I know i was not a big fan of the hentai pics but heh ... One of my brothers told me he must see the hentai pic of ShadJade ... Logged in .. and didnt find it .... so yeah ...

But i am not surpriced ... after all this time and u r feeling down or failure or ehh ... I thought u might do that .

And I'm sorry for everything happened to u ... and i hope u'll get better .