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Feeling as sick emotionally as physically.. Rant? 82815
10 years ago
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Commissions Permanently CLOSED ★ Refund list, Queue, Updates
Please email me at iapnes.contact[at]gmail.com or send me a note here in regards to refunds and commission statuses, or if you require my current personal life situations explained further to you in regards to how they have affected my ability to complete commissions.
Refunds are to be issued every two weeks as I receive my paychecks for the upcoming months. Thank you for your patience.
Keeping commissioners waiting on commissions has definitely been hurting me on a personal, emotional level, as much as my health.
While my most recent batch of commissioned work isn't overdue (My terms of service allows me a month), I have a handful of straggling Iron Artists to complete as soon as possible.
I've taken awhile, I have been working slowly-- but I know I'll finish them soon. I absolutely have to.
I just feel terrible about it-- I.. really didn't want to be the part of the "slow artists" that the furry community absolutely despises.
They hate them. They really do! I've seen it, and business can never recover.
I feel like a complete failure.
I never wanted that. I never wanted to be that but somehow I'm here.
It's really not stress or distraction that's taken a toll on me either-- I've really been in a hole in terms of health and personal life.
I want to believe I'm trying my best but, I know for sure so many people are looking down on me for being a straggler.
All I can say is I promise to improve myself in the future. I have to.
But that's a large part of the problem, right? All I can do is promise-- all I can do is exchange words with you guys. The next step is updating individuals with my progress, but I can only get to that when I can-- words on the internet are meaningless to many people. And sorry means nothing. Many commissioners. And I could never blame anyone for feeling that way, honestly. It's hard to trust people with your money. Incredibly hard. Especially if you've been screwed over in the past by other artists, whether or not they take forever to complete your commission, or never.
But still, all I can do is promise someone I'm trying my best, that I'll deliver their work to them when I am able.
Some artists have taken even longer than me in the past-- believe it or not I'm still waiting on a commission I ordered 3 months ago-- that's not an excuse. Absolutely not. "People have had it worse" is never a viable excuse-- you work to the best of your own capabilities and promises and that's it.
My last large commission batch was to be able to afford school this semester. The large workload wasn't unexpected, large because I needed the money desperately... I know I can get it done (my organizational skills aren't faulty), but I'm always having to overcome obstacles in the last minute of important things. I honestly feel like someone is making the bad things happen to me purposely at times. When my queue is done and through, when I finish everything I have... I promise I won't be taking large commission loads anymore. I've become too familiar with the flow of how my life works.. something is always getting in the way. How can I have a good thing going and always have some "coincidental" issue arise shortly after?
It just.. sucks.
I wish that I could always go beyond completing a commission. I love my commissioners. I love my watchers. I love anyone who loves my work-- I've had so much support. I wish I could do more for everyone who has supported me.
I would be in such a worse place if I hadn't received each and every commission I've gotten so far.
I can't believe I can express my emotions in better words? I'm so happy about all of you... I'm so happy I've had all these supporters. But I digress..
All I can do is promise that I'm going to be healthy again soon. And in the mean time, I've been working as best I can. I want to.. surprise my watchers and commissioners. Show them I can be strong and productive even with my shortcomings.
...Still, I can't help but feel like that won't ever be impressive, "You're just doing the work you're SUPPOSED to be doing. That isn't special." Oh well.
Thanks for the read!
Me too i wait a commission, hummmm maybe for 1 year now... but me too i'm a slow artist sometime i take 4 months for doing a pic just because i have so fucking much problems this years.
But anyways, stay strong and be careful with your health. I love your work :3
If it takes 4 to 8 weeks, and you are known for this, you are not hated by any measure I know of. In fact I'd personally rather have a consistent turnaround time of a month or two than one that I can't measure or keep tabs on.
You've been very clear as far as I've seen, the trello updates are on point.
Either way, I'm real excited to see what you can do on my commission! It'll be worth the wait!
You need to take care of yourself. The best thing you can do is communicate with people about timelines and shifting due dates. Most people should understand.
You've been doing a great job through Twitter and journals keeping people updated. You'll get better and get back on track.
The only time I've really seen anyone dislike slow artists is if they're slow and not keeping their commissioners updated on progress
Most people are fine with waiting so long as they have proof that you're actually working and not just purposefully shirking their commission or trying to run with the money and nothing to show for it you feel me