Childish mind of a Chu. xP
19 years ago
General
I have to admit that lately I have been somewhat down when it comes to drawing and creating art in general. With this journal I try not to whine about it but to ask your opinions and how you feel; is this something that bothers only me or some kind of general feeling along the artists around? x3
The problem has only developed lately, I've started to feel inferior when looking at art created by others. I've always known that there's still much to learn and I've never rated my art over average, but this is different; I somethimes see no reason to even try to hone my skills when there are so many great artists already out there.
I have no intention to blame anyone, but I have to say that the feeling is at it's worst when looking at Tiuhu's recent pics. She's already a lot better than I am, but it's not that what makes me feel so low, but the fact that half an year ago she barely had ever drawn a critter... If someone can do the things that took me over four years in little over six months, I can't help but feel ashamed. It also makes me feel like there's no reason to try to get better when my lifetime isn't enough to reach that high. *huggles his 'lil pikachu* Don't get me wrong Tiuhu, only my feel about myself have changed tho. ^^
This text does not mean that I would actually stop drawing or anything like that, I just wanted to write this out of my head. :P After all, it would be hard to quit something after almost five years, and besides I don't want to. >:3
The problem has only developed lately, I've started to feel inferior when looking at art created by others. I've always known that there's still much to learn and I've never rated my art over average, but this is different; I somethimes see no reason to even try to hone my skills when there are so many great artists already out there.
I have no intention to blame anyone, but I have to say that the feeling is at it's worst when looking at Tiuhu's recent pics. She's already a lot better than I am, but it's not that what makes me feel so low, but the fact that half an year ago she barely had ever drawn a critter... If someone can do the things that took me over four years in little over six months, I can't help but feel ashamed. It also makes me feel like there's no reason to try to get better when my lifetime isn't enough to reach that high. *huggles his 'lil pikachu* Don't get me wrong Tiuhu, only my feel about myself have changed tho. ^^
This text does not mean that I would actually stop drawing or anything like that, I just wanted to write this out of my head. :P After all, it would be hard to quit something after almost five years, and besides I don't want to. >:3
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And, you know, I had seen a pencil before I started drawing critters. ;3
I do, but that's just mechanics. x3
*hugs again* And you really shouldn't feel any guilt for my feelings. ^_^;
yeah...I think I better shut up now before I blabber on :D
I guess I will be able to consider some of my stuff ok again someday. x)
First, what happend:
I watched Teddi playing Need for Speed Most wanted on the XBox, he's not used to racing games that much, so it was.. well lets say if there would've been a damage model the car would've been waste.
Ok i watched him driving and was thinking about levels of skill... and i noticed...
he drives as bad as i draw, i drive as good as he draws... it brought me to the question, would i trade that skills... but i got the intention...
--- if he has fun with driving he will get better sooner or later, it's not about showing me how good he is, it's just a game, it's not about beating me in that game, he will NEVER be able to do that without more practise then he is able to do. (same like i will NEVER be as good in drawing like he is)
The Point is, if he has fun at driving, and i have fun with drawing, we will both improve, and sooner or later we will have a level that we can say "this is what i wanted".
Of course you, or me, or whoever, will never be completly content with that we do, even if it's the best artwork in the world (for me Teddi you draw that pictures already, same like you do, little chu), but thats normal.
If you need a break chu, take it, if you need some time to think, do that. Look at other stuff, get some inspiration, but don't try to draw like others, match there style or level of their art, you won't manage that. Stick to your style and have fun drawing, thats all what counts.
+ your style rocks.
And thank you. :)
Ohh, I absolutely agree with you. I've always emphasized the meaning of one's own style, and I think the meaning of style is clear to me...
Still,I think the problem is that I feel I need to be good at something, and for some reason I just do compare myself to others. And if I feel ok about my style and how my pics look, then, instead of just being happy with the situation, I start to compare how I've got there, and suddenly my achievements and efforts seem tiny when put on a new scale, and I feel I should be a whole lot better by now. xP
...but I won't stop trying, I like trying new stuff and getting better. I only need some time to reassure myself that I _am_ getting better. :P
Hehe, thank you again. ^^ *huggle*
It's nice to hear things from you in general btw, I guess the fact that you've been around since before I started makes you a bit special to me. Thank j00! :P
Granted, you think other artists may be better than you, but we all start somewhere, do we not? No one gets anywhere without practice and dedication; of this I am certain. Don't be afraid to be weak, my friend... And when you do become great in your own eyes, then don't be too proud to be strong. Draw your art and make it your own; good or bad, it is YOURS...and THAT is what matters.
And for the record; yes, I do have this same problem. But this is merely a flaw in logic. When one can understand and come to the realization everything that I stated above, then he or she will be truly happy as an artists and all trouble shall vanish. Go at your own pace.
Hope this helps, friend. :D
Thank you for those words! :3
First, CuteEevee perfectly explained this, yous OWN joy of drawing is the most important.
Second, whatever the subject, the matter, you will ALWAYS find "better" people than you at that, and also people who will learn fast, very fast. It's a natural gift that doesn't develop at the same speed for everybody, and as for drawing, MOST of the people on Earth will NEVER be able to do what you did even years ago. So you see, it's still VERY worth. Always look at the bright side of things, never the contrary, because it is far too easy and destructive.
Third : do you think the 137 people who watched you did that just by chance ? I think it is the best proof that your art is appreciated.
Last : just continue drawing. You do not see that yourself immediatly, but you improve each time you draw something new. It's called "experience" in role-playing games... ;)
I know for myself that I draw now things I would never have been able to a year ago, although I didn't see any progression.
Let those bad ideas flee and DRAW. that's the most important.
Anyway, I guess you made the best point of whole thread with the last line, I really should just go ahead and do it. Thanks. :3
*smiles at you and gives you a hug* :)
creative output as one artist goes. But hey... like I was just telling someone else, nobody is paying any of us fur this by the hour anyways.
This is something we do for our ourselves. But yeah, I guess it all comes down to the fact that there's a fantastic feeling that comes with getting a ton of page views, or image views. I know how that goes.
I likewise have fallen into the same trap myself... particularly in one of the 3 places I hang online more than the other 2, since that's where I get the least page views/image views.
In my case, like I was just telling another... my gallery on here does not even remotely reflect how experimentational I've become. (But then, I'm just more or less an experimenter of sorts in life at times, bot just in art).
But, as far as art experimentations go, there has been some stuff I've done that I've showcased elsewhere (Sheezy Art or DevArt) online at times... other stuff only exists either on my own hard drive, on in my "3rd eye" (They sometimes refer to the imagination as one's "3rd eye").
Which brings up something here... sometimes it first requires us to take some time out and look deep within ourselves to find the answers... you know, soul searching and all that. But, erm... I dunno... maybe I'm overcomplicating the issue.
Maybe it could be more like astexiancal said... to just simply "let those bad ideas flee, and draw".
What's more, if you feel 137 watchers is a small amount, you should scope out my user screen stats sometime. Including yourself, Chuu, I have a grand total of 11 watchers. But hey *Shrugs* I don't know... so be... It's all good.
Besides, sometimes in life, less can be more. I mean, like, the more watchers one has, the more one may feel under increasing pressure to always never bring anything less than their absolute best "A material" kind of stuff.
With most things in life, there's a double edged sword nature to it...we take the good with the bad in most everything. But, if nothing else I've said has impacted you in a positive way here, at least never furget these 3 simple little words...
Never... Give... Up.
Nobody ever said art would be easy. In fact, as we all know, it can be a LOT of hard to do it, and do it well. But, I know you've gotten your share of positive feedback from others out here with your work.
Hopefuly, that makes it feel more worthwhile after all the hardwork is done, right?
Also, maybe it could be potentially spreading yourself a bit thin, but you could also use my method if you want... keep your gallery in more than just one place online.
(Although, I've no idea on what the policies are as far as Sheezy Art's or DevArt's take on cub art, or anything they would deem "extreme" or "suggestive" something).
Personally, I think you've got talent... what's more, I think It'd be one heck of a shame to not have the priviledge of you sharing that talent with the rest of us out here. Before you make any hasty decisions, please reconsider... that's all I ask.
Take care now.
What are those other two places btw, if I may ask? ^^
Answer me this. Do you actively make an effort to better yourself, or do you find comfort in drawing the things you've grown used to doing? Try to be honest.
Just to be clear, though. I'm not accusing you of doing anything wrong here. I'm just asking :)
And thank you for your words and the watch. =3
Also, regarding my question, that is also what I tend to do. I rarely ever make a solid effort to improve myself, although I know I should. I know how you feel, and you're more than justified in that sense.
Just make sure you keep drawing whether or not you try hard to improve your skills. ^_^
Query: Do you think your art is good? If you didn't think it was good you would not have posted it. A very good friend of mine said, "If you are not honest with yourself, you can not do well." He meant be true to yourself and do your best. As long as you draw your best, then you are good no matter what.
But thank you for your words too. ^^
Got down to single digit temps here last night... and with the wind chill, it felt like sub-zero. (And, I'm not talking Mortal Kombat here, neither). lol
And, just to cover the question you asked here a whiles back... I'm on DevArt and Sheezy Art besides fur FA.
pO4n (Peace Out 4 nows)
I see, need to check out those accounts as well sometime. :3