ALRIGHT so I posted yesterday while in the inn how things been. so let me give a brief story whats been going on.

sunday uh 04/10/16 houston area got a HUGE FREAK storm. alot you guys might of heard about this on the news. anyway was okay during the night I was loving the thunderstorm. since rarely get such a beautiful storm. anyway when waking the next morning found the neighborhood was flooding but not yet like indangering my house. tho people at the end of the street were already flooding. I live few blocks down from a creek called "cypress creek" anyway it just kept rising through the day. so now its 04/11/16 and the water around 11pm seeping into the house in the lower part. we were just trying to go to sleep after the whole day dealing with no power. we hear the creepy bubbling sound of water pushing into the house. we jump up and start moving my moms stuff out of that room. store short get 6inchs of water in that room tho rest the house was spared thankfully. the next day 04/12/16 my brother rents us a hotel room near by away from the flooding and we have to wait it out for a few days till the water and power is low enough. which was finely yesterday 04/22/16. when I put that last journal up. we got power last night at 10pm-ish so yeah. tho we lost ALL are food. were doing okay. were working now on drying out the walls. got the ball rolling with fema and found a recovery contractor thats in the neighborhood surprisingly.

compared to some of our neighbors were really lucky. down three houses they had water up to your breastbone in there house. there home is a COMPLETE LOSS. thankfully tho they had flood insurance but not over there furniture. anyway with the time away was able to think over a hand full of things and get things straight between me and my family. we bonded closer during this time and also had time to think about online friends and stuff.


as many you know I have issues with trusting and shit. I USE too now I guess lets see. I am 25 now. when I was 18 or so had a dear friend that was a sister to me and I loved her dearly. some my best years were spent with them creating a fantasy world with rich and deep characters. I was questioning my own sexuality at the time. and well decided to finely try to make more of the relationship and maybe well date them. anyway that didnt work out well and put it bluntly all connections were cut. that fucking tore me to bits cause we been friends for what I believe 5 years + and rp'd EVER FLIPPING day since the friendship started. we talked on the phone, and used text clients of that time.
ANYWAY. since then had issues with trusting folks, then on sl getting used by people that seemed they needed help or were just royal ass holes. but at the same time
in rl met my beautiful boyfriend , then some really great friends on sl and web friends (way too many to list). which I will be always internally grateful for, those who stayed friends and others that had to move on.

me and my guy now been together longer that that sister/friend now. SIX YEARS now amazing. and things are going to get even better. he's about done with his college now. and will be returning home in a month or so. I just have to remember to count my blessing cause really I am fucking lucky. things could of been lots worse and shit but in the chaos we forget to remember the little things.

lastly to friends that might not be longer friends. I am truly sorry for stupid actions. wither it been jealousy because of stupid shit, the friendship fell through because we couldnt talk much or even just personallitys clashed too much. I am truly glad I was able to spend time and meet you all. maybe one day thing can be repaired but at the same time I understand things cant some times be repaired. and thats okay. just know I am not a hateful person. and I never will be. you will be free to talk to me and such, relaxed and mellow now (besides RL STUFF). I will love every one of ya none the less. anyway all is forgiven and hope maybe you can too, with time in your hearts.


thank you for everything guys. I got work to do now!