Since I come back home in the end of May, I've been feeling worse and worse. It's more about personal problems, but I just want to bring it out. As I start seeing and understanding more about the relationship between me my family and the Chinese society, I find it very difficult to calm down myself back to arts. I want to say that the reason I do arts is to show everyone else that how I enjoy life and hopefully doing arts can help leave my anger and pain behind. With that being said, I really really want to draw some gift arts for my friends and people on FA who have mentally helped me in the past five years. FA is a welcoming community and I have had many good experiences with people around it. And, the idea is still there, but now I just can't seem to finish any of my drawings. However, I want to follow my friend's advice and am going to take my time to avoid burnout. I promise will be fine.

I know I am pretty much unknown to this community since I joined, but I just start breaking down my wall piece by piece. I am looking to join any of the Cons in NA or EU in two years for my very first time.

On the other hand, I am sorry for keeping everyone from my art queue waiting for literally months or more than a half year (I'm such a selfish turd). And, I know many of you guys want to see more my drawings. Just wait until I adjust myself, because I can't stop thinking "I must do good every time, or else I won't do it," which I know is a wrong concept. I need to just keep drawing. Furthermore, I actually find doing arts help me forget all these crazy politic stuff, which I never ever want to deal with in my life. I am trying to get myself back on track pretty soon and hopefully finish my art queue.

Thank you again and you guys are amazing! <3