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9 years ago
Warning this is a personal journal, not at all professional, so if you're uncomf with those it's cool just click out! No prob u v ub
So now that I'm with my grandma, I find out just how CRAZY she is.
Long story short everything was going AMAZING untill like, around Friday maybe? So at the begginning of the weekend basically. What happened is I got sick and had a lot of work to do, so I mostly stayed in my room and kept to myself.
Well. She didn't like that.
So now she's been calling my mother every single day, multiple times a day to bitch at her about how rude I am, about how I'm trying to take over her house, about how I'm messy and just awful basically.
Thing is? I haven't done anything to really deserve this reaction.
One thing you need to know about my grandmother is she almost died and had to get brain surgery.
Yes, she did not fully get back to 100% after that, so she has memory problems, issues getting words out of her mouth, and paranoia issues.
For example, we went to Ikea.
I buy a thing. It's kind of on the big side.
She gets out of the car to help me, then tells me to pop the trunk.
I press the wrong button and accidentally pop the hood instead.
I tell her immediately what I pressed since the hood didnt pop indeed and I didnt want to mess up anyones car.
Shes like oh well it's fine I dont know what that button does.
So then from that day on the hood of the car never really closed properly and we were scratching our heads wondering why.
Untill eureka, I figured out what the buttom I accidentally pressed was.
So I tell her and shes says ohhhhhh okay I see now.
So she has to take it in to get closed properly cause we couldnt figure it out.
Fast forward to the weekend now, I'm sick and working a LOT.
She calls my mother and says to her that her hood was open and 'what is she doing looking around under my hood, at my engine???' in a way that implies I was going to?? I dont even know?? Steal it??? Take over her car??? Who the fuck knows.
But this is after I told her 5 times. This is the button I accidentally pressed.
No I dont care about your car motor???? It was a mistake.
But no shes paranoid that I'm doing something sketchy to her car apparently???
Example number 2.
She has a guest bedroom and an office that she offered to me when I got here, saying here you go these are the rooms you can live in (mind you this is after she bragged to the people at the airport that MY GRANDAUGHTER IS MOVING IN, NOT VISITING!) so at this point I'm like, nervous because the experience I had with my grandpa was that he didn't really want to let me go. He wanted me to live there and be the equivalent of a nurse to him (prepare him meals, clean the house, help him walk around. Which I did, for 7 months, and got abused for 7 months straight too on top of it)
So fast forward to the next day, we're both awake, and both in the office as I'm moving a few spare pieces of luggage my grandma owns, out of the closet I needed to use, that she offered me (mind you there was actually no room for my shit in there) to the ones in the office, that I had already planned to not really use (the office I mean).
So there we are, I'm organizing and shes praising my organization skills. I moved a bookcase and she went on for a few days about how she LOVES it where I put it.
And she seemed completely genuine about it, and I do believe she was at the time, genuine about it.
So now fast forward again to this weekend, so now shes telling my mom that I'm trying to take over her house, and I'm rude, and she doesnt know where anything is anymore (mind you this is after I made sure to show her exactly where I put everything) and basically implying again, that I'm some kind of sneak or sketchy or whatever.
And those are just two examples of what she's doing, and yes it's worse than it sounds written here, she is being extremely nasty to my mother, getting into arguements and calling me all kinds of names, saying shes done with me and shes not going to help me do anything anymore.
Mind you I moved in two weeks ago.
It's only been two weeks, and because I wasn't feeling good and had work to do, I didn't really leave my room much for about 3 days (Friday night, Saturday, Sunday, and then Monday I tried leaving but she was already pissed at me and ignoring me)
Not to mention now that I'm here I need Florida state insurance so I have to call those people, my phone got cut so I had to redo that this morning, I have to save up for a car so I can drive to the job I'm going to look for, and I need to take the drivers test for my actual licence.
I'm sure theres more important shit like that, that I have to do and just can't remember right now but YEAH basically I've been preoccupied as hell!
Between all this legal shit, between me leaving to come here, the stressfull plane flight with 2 animals and yes, I did break up with my partner of 4 years (3 living together) we're taking a break or just plain broken up I dont know right now, it's irrelevant to this aside from the fact that HEY I'M SUPER UPSET!!!!!
And mentally ill too, I came here expecting to be abused.
I really did.
She abused my mom and all her other kids.
So of course I'm expecting to be abused too. So here I am nervous as hell trying my best to smile and do things with her and cook for her (to which she keeps scoffing off in order to get mcdonalds)
And then all of a sudden she just flipped out on me.
And I still dont understand how this happened, what triggered this.
She was fine Thursday, and then Friday she flipped out and started bitching about all the things I did that she SAID WERE OKAY for two whole weeks I was here!
The only explanation I have is she's not okay. She's not 100% from her brain surgery, and she has mental illnesses that went unchecked due to being abused by HER parents.
And of course she doesnt believe in therapy and thinks it's dumb so she wont take ME to therapy. On top of gaslighting me too! Cause that is sure something she's been doing to me the entire weeend! Or well to my mom! Since shes IGNORING ME! And wont tell me whats wrong and I only know whats wrong thru my mother telling me.
TL;DR: She had brain surgery and almost died and is not completely 100% okay, shes suffering from paranoia, memory loss, and speech issues. She's all of a sudden flipped on me after 2 weeks of being here, suddenly acting like I'm some bad guy in her house trying to fuck everything up, like some thief or sketchy person, for no reason because I have done nothing to deserve any of that.
And as a result I might get kicked out.
The problem is I thought this is where I'd be untill I got my life in order, a licence, a car and a job, and possibly my own place after this. But I'm scared it's going to get cut short, because she's unpredictable, has anger issues, and unchecked mental illness (which does not mix well with my mental illness)
Basically I spent all of my money (and it was a LOT) to move here.
I'm broke. If I get kicked out I'm on the streets with 2 animals.
I'm honestly scared right now, because i don't know what's going to happen but my mother told me to GET OUT NOW, and she knows best about this because she lived with my grandma for most of her young years of course, and got abused, and my grandma is showing some of the same signs of how she abused my mother. So yeah.
I'm basically freaking out and kind of, well, terrified.
I'm going to do something I never do, and open donations.
I'm really so so so friggen sorry I have to do this, I don't like it, I always prefer to work for my money, but right now I just cant. I can't do this anymore. I just can't. I'm so tired of this, so tired of being abused everywhere I go. I just need to get out and get my life together.
For anyone considering donating even just $1usd
My PayPal is angrycraigosaurus[at]gmail.com and if you're sending it as goods please make sure to select no address needed/required. I'm going to allow donations as friends and family too.
I'm again, very sorry for this but I just don't know what to do anymore. If you want me to sketch something for you if you send $20usd or more, just note me with a reference and I'll try my best (though I will ask if you could please have the ref be of a moderately simple character, as I just don't have the energy right now to draw things too complex, I'm really sorry)
I really just want to get out of here before it escalates, because it will, 100% escalate, and I dont want that.
Thank you again for all of you guys support and patience with me, I'm always very gratefull! And if you can't donate please please please signal boost this!
PS: I forgot to mention that I do have these 2 rare adopts (one Jinglelope and one Ribbun) open and up for auction if you'd like to receive an adopt for your money! You can find the auction [HERE]
So now that I'm with my grandma, I find out just how CRAZY she is.
Long story short everything was going AMAZING untill like, around Friday maybe? So at the begginning of the weekend basically. What happened is I got sick and had a lot of work to do, so I mostly stayed in my room and kept to myself.
Well. She didn't like that.
So now she's been calling my mother every single day, multiple times a day to bitch at her about how rude I am, about how I'm trying to take over her house, about how I'm messy and just awful basically.
Thing is? I haven't done anything to really deserve this reaction.
One thing you need to know about my grandmother is she almost died and had to get brain surgery.
Yes, she did not fully get back to 100% after that, so she has memory problems, issues getting words out of her mouth, and paranoia issues.
For example, we went to Ikea.
I buy a thing. It's kind of on the big side.
She gets out of the car to help me, then tells me to pop the trunk.
I press the wrong button and accidentally pop the hood instead.
I tell her immediately what I pressed since the hood didnt pop indeed and I didnt want to mess up anyones car.
Shes like oh well it's fine I dont know what that button does.
So then from that day on the hood of the car never really closed properly and we were scratching our heads wondering why.
Untill eureka, I figured out what the buttom I accidentally pressed was.
So I tell her and shes says ohhhhhh okay I see now.
So she has to take it in to get closed properly cause we couldnt figure it out.
Fast forward to the weekend now, I'm sick and working a LOT.
She calls my mother and says to her that her hood was open and 'what is she doing looking around under my hood, at my engine???' in a way that implies I was going to?? I dont even know?? Steal it??? Take over her car??? Who the fuck knows.
But this is after I told her 5 times. This is the button I accidentally pressed.
No I dont care about your car motor???? It was a mistake.
But no shes paranoid that I'm doing something sketchy to her car apparently???
Example number 2.
She has a guest bedroom and an office that she offered to me when I got here, saying here you go these are the rooms you can live in (mind you this is after she bragged to the people at the airport that MY GRANDAUGHTER IS MOVING IN, NOT VISITING!) so at this point I'm like, nervous because the experience I had with my grandpa was that he didn't really want to let me go. He wanted me to live there and be the equivalent of a nurse to him (prepare him meals, clean the house, help him walk around. Which I did, for 7 months, and got abused for 7 months straight too on top of it)
So fast forward to the next day, we're both awake, and both in the office as I'm moving a few spare pieces of luggage my grandma owns, out of the closet I needed to use, that she offered me (mind you there was actually no room for my shit in there) to the ones in the office, that I had already planned to not really use (the office I mean).
So there we are, I'm organizing and shes praising my organization skills. I moved a bookcase and she went on for a few days about how she LOVES it where I put it.
And she seemed completely genuine about it, and I do believe she was at the time, genuine about it.
So now fast forward again to this weekend, so now shes telling my mom that I'm trying to take over her house, and I'm rude, and she doesnt know where anything is anymore (mind you this is after I made sure to show her exactly where I put everything) and basically implying again, that I'm some kind of sneak or sketchy or whatever.
And those are just two examples of what she's doing, and yes it's worse than it sounds written here, she is being extremely nasty to my mother, getting into arguements and calling me all kinds of names, saying shes done with me and shes not going to help me do anything anymore.
Mind you I moved in two weeks ago.
It's only been two weeks, and because I wasn't feeling good and had work to do, I didn't really leave my room much for about 3 days (Friday night, Saturday, Sunday, and then Monday I tried leaving but she was already pissed at me and ignoring me)
Not to mention now that I'm here I need Florida state insurance so I have to call those people, my phone got cut so I had to redo that this morning, I have to save up for a car so I can drive to the job I'm going to look for, and I need to take the drivers test for my actual licence.
I'm sure theres more important shit like that, that I have to do and just can't remember right now but YEAH basically I've been preoccupied as hell!
Between all this legal shit, between me leaving to come here, the stressfull plane flight with 2 animals and yes, I did break up with my partner of 4 years (3 living together) we're taking a break or just plain broken up I dont know right now, it's irrelevant to this aside from the fact that HEY I'M SUPER UPSET!!!!!
And mentally ill too, I came here expecting to be abused.
I really did.
She abused my mom and all her other kids.
So of course I'm expecting to be abused too. So here I am nervous as hell trying my best to smile and do things with her and cook for her (to which she keeps scoffing off in order to get mcdonalds)
And then all of a sudden she just flipped out on me.
And I still dont understand how this happened, what triggered this.
She was fine Thursday, and then Friday she flipped out and started bitching about all the things I did that she SAID WERE OKAY for two whole weeks I was here!
The only explanation I have is she's not okay. She's not 100% from her brain surgery, and she has mental illnesses that went unchecked due to being abused by HER parents.
And of course she doesnt believe in therapy and thinks it's dumb so she wont take ME to therapy. On top of gaslighting me too! Cause that is sure something she's been doing to me the entire weeend! Or well to my mom! Since shes IGNORING ME! And wont tell me whats wrong and I only know whats wrong thru my mother telling me.
TL;DR: She had brain surgery and almost died and is not completely 100% okay, shes suffering from paranoia, memory loss, and speech issues. She's all of a sudden flipped on me after 2 weeks of being here, suddenly acting like I'm some bad guy in her house trying to fuck everything up, like some thief or sketchy person, for no reason because I have done nothing to deserve any of that.
And as a result I might get kicked out.
The problem is I thought this is where I'd be untill I got my life in order, a licence, a car and a job, and possibly my own place after this. But I'm scared it's going to get cut short, because she's unpredictable, has anger issues, and unchecked mental illness (which does not mix well with my mental illness)
Basically I spent all of my money (and it was a LOT) to move here.
I'm broke. If I get kicked out I'm on the streets with 2 animals.
I'm honestly scared right now, because i don't know what's going to happen but my mother told me to GET OUT NOW, and she knows best about this because she lived with my grandma for most of her young years of course, and got abused, and my grandma is showing some of the same signs of how she abused my mother. So yeah.
I'm basically freaking out and kind of, well, terrified.
I'm going to do something I never do, and open donations.
I'm really so so so friggen sorry I have to do this, I don't like it, I always prefer to work for my money, but right now I just cant. I can't do this anymore. I just can't. I'm so tired of this, so tired of being abused everywhere I go. I just need to get out and get my life together.
For anyone considering donating even just $1usd
My PayPal is angrycraigosaurus[at]gmail.com and if you're sending it as goods please make sure to select no address needed/required. I'm going to allow donations as friends and family too.
I'm again, very sorry for this but I just don't know what to do anymore. If you want me to sketch something for you if you send $20usd or more, just note me with a reference and I'll try my best (though I will ask if you could please have the ref be of a moderately simple character, as I just don't have the energy right now to draw things too complex, I'm really sorry)
I really just want to get out of here before it escalates, because it will, 100% escalate, and I dont want that.
Thank you again for all of you guys support and patience with me, I'm always very gratefull! And if you can't donate please please please signal boost this!
PS: I forgot to mention that I do have these 2 rare adopts (one Jinglelope and one Ribbun) open and up for auction if you'd like to receive an adopt for your money! You can find the auction [HERE]
*hugs*