Hey guys a needed to make a little update for everyone.

I know I've made next to no progress on commissions but trust me I've not forgotten about ya'll.

I am working slowly on one right now and its almost finished!

I have been super super sick..or not sick..I really don't know? I've got a lot of invisible health problems..and its not the greatest excuse for the long wait everyone has been waiting for..and I feel so so guilty..

I had to deal with holiday's not basically doing anything for them, I got no pictures of my kids during this time (they are open adopted out), then my 30th birthday came in January..I didn't do anything..it made me extremely depressed as I wanted to do something special. My daughters birthday came the 30th of January and again..I got nothing from it..

On-top of all this - THIS IS YOUR WARNING SKIP THIS PARAGRAPH IF YOU DON'T DEAL WITH PERIOD TALK WELL -

I get EXTREMELY bad periods, to the point that I am basically stuck in bed, I can't do ANYTHING..it is excruciatingly painful and its also very very heavy..so I'm constantly dealing with pain and that. I've had children, and I can compare this monthly pain close to labor.

So on-top of period stuff - I got SICK?? Or I think so? I started coughing so bad to the point of being unable to breath..my nose was runny/stuffy through some of this time. Absolutely NO sore throat during this time but a bad bad cough to the point my ribs felt like they were bruising or breaking..it was TERRIBLE..this lasted past my period..and until now..two weeks in..with a cough..the cough has gone down drastically thank goodness but this is also an embarrassing fact..I've had two kids..if you know anyone who's had kids they could tell you that accidents happen commonly..you have little bladder control when you've had kids..its TERRIBLE..ugh! So! With that said, I've had the worst time ever..its just been one thing after another.

Good news is that I have two appointments set up to see doctors on what's going on with my body..I also suffer from mental problems too..being depression, anxiety, bipolar and personality disorder. So please be as patient as humanly possible with me..I'm truly trying to get things done and also dealing with a LOT in my real life time..a lot lot lot..

Truly I'm trying, and after all is said and done I'll be taking no more commissions for a long time until I figure out what's going on with me and get things fixed..along with my apartment living situation..its been so rough..and I'm truly sorry.


Update:

For the past several days I've had immense foot pain, I'm unable to go to the ER I have to wait for the 22nd for my doctors appointment..I have no money for Uber..or else I'd just leave now.

Its been hard to move anywhere, I can't walk at all without help or a lot of support..and even then I have to use my foot to balance and walk and I'm using the side of my foot to walk.

I plan to document my visit to the doctors just to prove that I am not making this shit up..it keeps adding up and its just insane..when things go wrong they just..get worse I tell you.

I am almost 100% sure its plantar fasciitis which is an extremely painful foot issue in which I had in the past..I can't..walk..I legitimately can't walk. I have had my roommate basically take care of me for days now. He has to walk me to the bathroom, in the morning is the worst of times. He has taken my puppy outside for me, it took time but Cupid my pup has gotten used to him taking him for potty and doing fantastic.

I really been struggling..my depression has gotten to me bad..cause I feel helpless..My cough has almost completely disappeared..I made the call initially to get that checked out..looks like I fought it myself. Next step is to get this foot checked out, and figure out my heart problems.

On a more positive note, I'll be seeing an apartment complex on the 7th! So here is hoping something good comes of that visit and tour.

Thanks for all your understandings.

Update:

I just got home from doctors office, needless to say it was interesting with a lot of different things to look into.

I got my blood pressure done, had an EKG, tested my blood oxygen level, got blood drawn..and made an appointment for a breathing test at the hospital and I need an x-ray to see if I have a stress fracture in my foot.

Blood pressure: High but not dangerous

EKG: Not sure what the results were with that exactly

I had my blood oxygen tested by having a monitor on my finger and went walking around a few times - it went down quickly the first time around..then went up the next..so yeah..odd..

Blood drawing was fun..my left arm didn't give any blood at all..even after digging around..my right thankfully did..

Also, she checked the roof of my mouth to see if it was pale and it is very pale.

Needless to say I'm possibly still very anemic, fun.

I also might have asthma but not clear on that or something else is going on with that.

Here is a screenshot straight from the website for all my medical stuff from this office I go to! Pretty nifty and helpful for me.

https://gyazo.com/bb71480be35ac7cd21ef9bc21cc3137c

So there is the run down, nothing exactly great as far as news but..gives a general idea what I'm going through right now..and I also took some video for FB while I was there too..just don't want it to seem like I'm making stuff up..I'm also going to be seeing an eye doctor so I can get an exam and new glasses as well.


UPDATE:

Went to the hospital for my appointments - got my chest x-ray as well as foot
I also did a breathing test and at the end of that he gave me some medicine to help my lungs and did some more breathing tests.

I wont know anything until I see my doctor with the results..