don't see also this one

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ehhhhdit: to clarify, nobody is singling me out for repeated harassment over this. That I can handle. The problem is me going through the same sort of thing repeatedly with different people who misread me in similar ways.

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I have not in yikes nine years of using this website identified myself as male or gay, or really as anything. Yet I am consistently identified as these things, sometimes directly informed of them, in my interactions through the internet, this website primarily. Part of the trouble may relate to people mistaking nemitz (stupid red imp) as a representation of myself. At this time, indeed, I have mit as my user avatar, since it is animated and I want or wanted to subtly indicate that I can draw that and felt that using a character less or not associated with me would leave the authorship ambigious. However, I formerly changed my avatar regularly and rarely was it nemitz. of course I never identified nemitz as male either, but people interpret anything without cartoon eyelashes as male, and they get gay from me never once drawing any of my characters nemitz or not with any hint of genitalia nor engaged in any remotely sexual act, because usually, apparently, that is how it goes around here. This misconception with regard to me should not be a big deal, but people talk to me, and make requests of me, and once or twice a year want to talk relationships and/or forward phallus-featuring imagery at me based on this chain of misconceptions, and I would like to prevent that for the sake of both of us, but me especially. I am by now a deliberately misremembered distance past thirty years of age and I have never done sex with anybody, do not desire to, and expect I never will.

I cannot even wear short sleeve shirts. My flesh is sacred. It is necessary to understand that my entire life is bizarre and cannot be predicted based on my artwork and your experiences with any other person. For almost as long as my "normal" art pages, I maintained the alternate account pleistocene which featured the closest I make to normal person "porn," which includes an embarrassing amount of the eyelashes earlier alluded to, and even people who watch both accounts have regularly not getted it, and still thought I was hiding something, d-d-d-DESPITE that page explicitly stating "i think sex is gross" (or something to that effect; you think *I* want to read my boring nonsense?) right in the profile text for at least two years now. I do not even like the WORD sex. I think some people DID get it, but unfortunately those were usually the ones who didn't like what they are getting.

No, anonymous tumblr person, it is not "religion"-based. That accusation doesn't even make sense. Religious people do just as much or more sex as anyone else, they just are more likely to aim to produce children when they do. There are specific sects of some faiths which advocate abstinence, and almost nobody actually adheres to that, because religious people also lie to themselves and others just as much or more as anyone else. I am not "abstaining" from sexual deeds. My psychology was hopelessly warped as a child and this is one thing among many that didn't happen the normal way for me. I cannot draw with solid lines or without colors either. That is even directly evident from my uploads here but nobody asks me about THAT.

And no no, boring raccoon cartoonist guy (who isn't any of you, trust me), it is not because I don't "challenge" myself. People draw porn to give themselves a break from challenges, and if your conventionally erotic material is a challenge to you, it is a challenge with a potential reward, I have to assume. I would only hate myself more and attract more-- you know I already hit the glass ceiling on this website a long time ago by not having a fursona and not liking disney junk or trance music and not felt like I was in on a meme since All Your Base Belonged to Us. I will never be in the vicinity of a popular artist making big buck$ through obnoxious self promotion here. If I tried to force myself to draw regular person fetishes to try to gain followers I might as well be wearing that ceiling as a hat. It would be horrible, I would hate it, you would hate it, it would not go very far, and the scars would never heal. If I am going to draw something I am terrible at I should try room interiors because I can at least show those drawings in public.

And please do not claim you are in the same metafuzzical kayak as me if you only draw normal porn "rarely" or for money when not desperate. That is completely and wholly different from being disgusted by the sight and thought of the whole thing. I hate eating salad but I was eating a salad voluntarily as I was writing this. I CAN do that without vomiting. My situation with sex is not at all alike. If you can tolerate it to any degree, then we aren't the same. And we don't have to be. We can have things in common without pretending that is one of them. One of the reasons I dumped the skrimpf account, apart from the name being terrible and me not wanting to be called that, was to get away from all the contacts I had inadvertently made who thought they knew everything about me without trying or caring. I care about everything, even things I hate, and most of what I do is hard. But please trust me when I say what is and is not hard. Thank you and goop muck.