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IMPORTANT UPDATE!
7 years ago
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Hey there folks! I’ve been debating mentioning this for a while now, but I think it’s inportant to keep my fans and commissioners in on my life and what’s up.
Back in late March, I sustained a fairly significant injury to my wrists. I don’t want to go into details, but suffice to say, it left a bit of lasting damage on me. My hands just aren’t what they used to be ever since and there is a constant pain that persists throughout most of my days and it’s been causing a lot of issues on my end. I’m not going to go into detail about the daily/personal troubles it’s caused because my personal stuff isn’t really anyone’s concern but my own; the part I need to address to you guys is that it has caused a significant slow down on my ability to draw. I’m sure many of you have noticed that my output of art has been slower than usual, and for those of you who frequent my streams, you may have noticed that they have been pretty rare lately on top of the fact that I’m a lot slower while I draw in them than I used to be.
I’ve been doing my best to push through the pain and gut through it because my work is my life; I’ve given the vast majority of my life to making this my career and I can’t really stomach the thought of disappointing my commissioners. I think part of me has been determined to keep working and just hope it goes away eventually, but here we are, in June and I’ve come to realize that I can’t internalize the struggle anymore and I need to be open about my new problem.
What does this mean?
Please don’t fret if you’ve commissioned me; I want to first and foremost explain that I will not be canceling or stopping my commission work. I will be doing my best to fight through this pain and the problems (shaky hands) I’m dealing with and no one will be left behind with work. That’s not how I roll, that’s not how I am. What I am going to say is that I am hoping I can request a little patience with those who are currently on my queue as my speed has dropped significantly. I will always strive to give everyone the best quality I can because it’s not just my job, it’s my passion. It just may take a bit longer than usual and I sincerely apologize for this. To any current commissioners, if waiting a bit longer than normal is something you’re not willing to do, please contact me and we can work out a refund. There is no shame in that request as my injury isn’t anyone’s fault and my commissioners should not be forced to bare the burden of it. I understand that my ability to produce a service I was paid for should take precedence over anything else, so if you feel waiting isn’t something you’re up to, I will wholeheartedly be accepting of that choice and make sure we can come to a resolution!
For those who are willing to wait, I appreciate it beyond words can convey and I promise that despite my injury, I will still provide you with the best work I possibly can, just as I always have!
The other downside to this is that I am unsure of how much longer I can keep Commissions as my full time job. The speed required on my end to keep myself afloat isn’t quite there anymore. I don’t have a family that’s willing to help me out and I don’t ever foresee myself being willing to open things like “gofundme”. I’ve never opened anything like that I and I don’t think I ever will; it’s something I personally am against because my situation isn’t really deserving of such a thing. The truth is, I just have to suck it up and look for a new career path. I do have a Ko-Fi page for tips, but I’m not going to link it because I don’t feel right asking for any donations.
It’s been a really difficult time in my life to come to terms with this situation along with having to take several trips out of state in the last span of a month. I’ve worked my entire life to make drawing my career. I grew up being told it couldn’t be done and was was put down by family and even friends in my younger years who insisted it was a pipe dream. Yet, somehow, I did it. I gave everything I could to living my dream and I’m so happy I was able to live that part of my life. Sadly, all things come to a close and I’ve just been having a rough time emotionally coming to terms with the death of a dream, so to speak. I’m so grateful to have been able to draw for so many people and bring their ideas to life and I would never trade any of that for the world. I would be a liar if I didn’t say I’m not at least a little bitter; It’s hard to accept that everything you worked for in life can be taken away from you in moments, but if anything I’d rather use that as a means to remind folks to not take anything in life for granted! Not even your own body. I can stare at my hands in disgust at the fact they don’t work the way they used to, but it won’t change anything so I’d rather invest my time in trying to stay positive.
As it stands, I’m currently seeking standard employment to make sure I can stay above water and I’ve been working my tail off as fast as I can to make sure my commissioners don’t have to wait too long for anything. I may continue to draw after my queue is cleared but it will depend on the state of my hands at that point. It’s a “we’ll see” situation; though I think I will be hard pressed to completely give up on my career. I may do a stream today just to test the waters on my speed and to make sure my bills are covered, but I don’t think I’ll be doing many more anytime soon.
If you did read all of this, I appreciate it a ton! Take care and have a great day!
Back in late March, I sustained a fairly significant injury to my wrists. I don’t want to go into details, but suffice to say, it left a bit of lasting damage on me. My hands just aren’t what they used to be ever since and there is a constant pain that persists throughout most of my days and it’s been causing a lot of issues on my end. I’m not going to go into detail about the daily/personal troubles it’s caused because my personal stuff isn’t really anyone’s concern but my own; the part I need to address to you guys is that it has caused a significant slow down on my ability to draw. I’m sure many of you have noticed that my output of art has been slower than usual, and for those of you who frequent my streams, you may have noticed that they have been pretty rare lately on top of the fact that I’m a lot slower while I draw in them than I used to be.
I’ve been doing my best to push through the pain and gut through it because my work is my life; I’ve given the vast majority of my life to making this my career and I can’t really stomach the thought of disappointing my commissioners. I think part of me has been determined to keep working and just hope it goes away eventually, but here we are, in June and I’ve come to realize that I can’t internalize the struggle anymore and I need to be open about my new problem.
What does this mean?
Please don’t fret if you’ve commissioned me; I want to first and foremost explain that I will not be canceling or stopping my commission work. I will be doing my best to fight through this pain and the problems (shaky hands) I’m dealing with and no one will be left behind with work. That’s not how I roll, that’s not how I am. What I am going to say is that I am hoping I can request a little patience with those who are currently on my queue as my speed has dropped significantly. I will always strive to give everyone the best quality I can because it’s not just my job, it’s my passion. It just may take a bit longer than usual and I sincerely apologize for this. To any current commissioners, if waiting a bit longer than normal is something you’re not willing to do, please contact me and we can work out a refund. There is no shame in that request as my injury isn’t anyone’s fault and my commissioners should not be forced to bare the burden of it. I understand that my ability to produce a service I was paid for should take precedence over anything else, so if you feel waiting isn’t something you’re up to, I will wholeheartedly be accepting of that choice and make sure we can come to a resolution!
For those who are willing to wait, I appreciate it beyond words can convey and I promise that despite my injury, I will still provide you with the best work I possibly can, just as I always have!
The other downside to this is that I am unsure of how much longer I can keep Commissions as my full time job. The speed required on my end to keep myself afloat isn’t quite there anymore. I don’t have a family that’s willing to help me out and I don’t ever foresee myself being willing to open things like “gofundme”. I’ve never opened anything like that I and I don’t think I ever will; it’s something I personally am against because my situation isn’t really deserving of such a thing. The truth is, I just have to suck it up and look for a new career path. I do have a Ko-Fi page for tips, but I’m not going to link it because I don’t feel right asking for any donations.
It’s been a really difficult time in my life to come to terms with this situation along with having to take several trips out of state in the last span of a month. I’ve worked my entire life to make drawing my career. I grew up being told it couldn’t be done and was was put down by family and even friends in my younger years who insisted it was a pipe dream. Yet, somehow, I did it. I gave everything I could to living my dream and I’m so happy I was able to live that part of my life. Sadly, all things come to a close and I’ve just been having a rough time emotionally coming to terms with the death of a dream, so to speak. I’m so grateful to have been able to draw for so many people and bring their ideas to life and I would never trade any of that for the world. I would be a liar if I didn’t say I’m not at least a little bitter; It’s hard to accept that everything you worked for in life can be taken away from you in moments, but if anything I’d rather use that as a means to remind folks to not take anything in life for granted! Not even your own body. I can stare at my hands in disgust at the fact they don’t work the way they used to, but it won’t change anything so I’d rather invest my time in trying to stay positive.
As it stands, I’m currently seeking standard employment to make sure I can stay above water and I’ve been working my tail off as fast as I can to make sure my commissioners don’t have to wait too long for anything. I may continue to draw after my queue is cleared but it will depend on the state of my hands at that point. It’s a “we’ll see” situation; though I think I will be hard pressed to completely give up on my career. I may do a stream today just to test the waters on my speed and to make sure my bills are covered, but I don’t think I’ll be doing many more anytime soon.
If you did read all of this, I appreciate it a ton! Take care and have a great day!
I hope that your job hunt goes well and that you end up in an alright place!
I also hope that there is a possibility to get this cured in a way, even if it takes some time!
Definitely best wishes from my side!
Hope you get better soon. 💜
I'm not be a commissioner, so I don't really have a say in this (to to speak), but I think after you're done with your current workload it's certainly for the better to keep it low with drawing (or other activities that go a lot on the wrist). I mean, people likely told you that way already, but straining something that's already "broken" can't do much good in the long run. Also, dunno how feasible that is - mostly because I don't know how well, if at all, this is covered by your insurance - you might think about a physical therapy for it. Mileage will most likely vary, but it could help greatly.
Anyway, enough rambling about! I hope you'll recover soon, of course hope to see more of your arts and, maybe one day, have the chance to get something myself from yours truly! Take care~ <3
Oh, and something that came to my mind because you said, it's kinda like the "death of a dream": think of all the other hardships you endured and did overcome on the way to having this as your job! This is just another obstacle on the long way, it'll pass, too. <3
As for the pain in your hands, I would suggest copper-infused compression gloves. I use similar socks for my neuropathy, and they work pretty well. I know the same brand puts out the gloves. Copper Fit, by the way.
May things go in your favor and be pleasantly uninteresting otherwise. Other than good-interesting, that's always nice.