My Thought Stream
16 years ago
I need a better drive in life.
Write a werewolf story
Feline/ferret
Skunk
Skink
Jackalope
Mouse
German Shepherd
Cat
Crow
Marten
Bat
Other rodents?
Monkey
Red Panda
Raccoon
Jackel
Tribal marks?
Black cat/kitten cub
Cub?
Black and white lizard/croc/gator
Rabbit, bondage, red, black, and white
Tiger/Sibeerian
Mole
Badger
Likes to learn
Likes to build
Likes to destroy
Sleeps whenever
Moveable ears?
Tail lashes
Tail wags
Tail curls
Fangs?
Claws?
Fursuit
Enjoys sprawling out
Loves either really hot or really cold
Adapts well
Scared of heights
Dragon?
Enjoys attention from people
Enjoys helping
Enjoys scaring people
Wants people to be happy
Lonely.. So lonely
Fast recovery
Enjoys large power
Wants to recreate the world
Wants own world
Has own world
So lonely
Eastern towhee
Eastern towhee markings?
Easily loving
Very caring
Angry easily
Lots of selfcontrol
Very little selfcontrol
Loves to listen to music
Loves the inside
Loves the outside
Hates the outside
Hates the inside
Dual fursonas?
MFD?
BP?
Very fickle
Bad focus skills
Very focused
Persistent
Blood thirsty
Friendly
Lazy
Gives up easy
Never gives up
Easily upset
Easily discouraged
Low self esteem
Never cries outloud
Will keep going
Egotistical
Want a mate
Police officer
Paramore
So lonely
Possiblies of life
Can you cook and egg over a fire?
What kind of heart is one you can break?
Hate humans
Miss my friends
Hate technology
Love technology
Wants simple things
Wants so so much
Wants to be happy
Wants to have a name for self
Riot
Pain.. So much pain..
A broken heart can't be fixed with glue or tape, only another broken heart can understand and both must work together to become whole again.
So cold
Frost
Crying
Wanting to cry
So lonely
Want a small town to live in
Sun
Sunlight
God
Jesus?
Pillow
Soft
Feather
Itchy
Fleas
Lice
Tearing and tearing, removing them one by one with a comb with no shampoo.. Dig dig.. One at a time.. Kill them drown them.. Scalp so sore... Rid shampoo...
Toxins
Reeking stench
Dead bodies
Fire
Guns
Smoke
Coughing
Tears
Tear gas
Riot
Destruction
Fire
Burns
Melted skin
Destroyed life
Pain
Baseball
Homerun
Pride
Joy
Strikeout
Sadness
Fear
Defeat
Lonely
Tired
Sleep
Rem
Sleep cycle
Furaffinity
Forums
Art
Kira
Bluehart
Upset
Sorry
Wanting forgiveness
Regret
Feeling stupid
Hating self
Wanting to tear own skin off
Regret
Brant
Steam
Raccoon
Birthday
Movie
Ice cream
Cake
Freedom
Lonely
Sorry
Wanting forgiveness
Feeling stupid
Doesn't deserve forgiveness
Deserves pain
Low self esteem
Journaling
Furaffinity
Furries
Fun
Cons
Wonderful
So much fun
Post con depression
MFM
MFF
Groped
Scarred
21 Guns
21 gun salute
Dead soldier
America
Corrupt
Anarchy
Fire
Chaos
Lost
Darkness
Alone
Lonely
Sad
Fursona
Inside self missing
Who am I?
What am I?
Where are my answers?
Google won't work for this
Why is google everyones favorite?
Yahoo came first
Is google better?
I think so
Fallout 3
Enclave
Plasma rifle
Tesla cannon
Radiation
Super powers
I am a god
No
You're a goddess
Cunt
Bitch
Fuck you
I'll slit your throat
Don't fuck with me!
Fuck you all
I'll tear your throat out with my teeth
Who the fuck are you?
I don't know
Where am I?
Why?
Why?
Why?
Internal conflict
Multiple Fursona Disorder MFD
Bi polar?
Who is it?
Knock knock
Boo who?
Don't cry it's just a joke
Fuck your joke it's retarded
Human are retarded
Kill them
That's illegal
I know.. That's why I don't do it
Rainbow veins
Owl city
Happy song
Cocaine?
Blend up a rainbow and shoot it into your veins?
Yeah cocaine!
Fuck that
Why do all songs deal with drugs or sex?
Fucking rap
Fucking R&B
Fucking country
Fucking sister who likes them all
Fucking family
Kill them
I can't it's illegal
They give me money and food
I know but I hate them
They fight all day
Elfen Lied
Murder
Blood
Children
Murder
Nudity
Dyclonis
Shot in the head
Dreams
Sleep
Tired
Lonely
Campfire
My hands smell like smoke
I hate smoke
I hate cigarettes
Why do people smoke them?
It's fucking disgusting
I don't do drugs
It's gross
And it's expensive
Fuck
My eyes hurt
Kiss
Rock and roll all night
Rocky road
Ice cream
Comfort
Pancakes
Syrup
Sugar
Candy
Pop
Itchy arm
Fucking bugs
Where is my dad?
He promised we could fish today
Bait?
Sad
Kira
I'm sorry
Bluehart
Stupid me
Didn't mean it
I'm ungrateful
Itchy arm
Why the fuck it itch so bad?
Furaffinity journal
Blue Pandy
Shin
Tavi
Ozzie
Sierra
Dad is back
Regret
Sigh
Itchy
Pink
So what
I don't need you
Mother
Jeff
Moms boyfriend
Kill
Don't trust
Liar
Sex offender
Jerk
Not family
Freeloader
Next song?
Well thought out twinkles
Silversun pickups
Scar
Hazy
Zoned out
Pot
Don't do it
Can't afford it
Dad does it
Why?
If he's a stoner why isn't he accepting?
I hate Hikaru wolf... Ethan..
Damn his parents..
I wish they were mine...
I hate my mom..
I need more clothes
Not enough for a full week of changes
Half asleep
Lies
Pain
Baseball
Agony
Sore back
Unloved
Magic mountain
Anthrocon
Uncle?
Uncle red..
Red mewtwo
Missed my chance
Freefalling
Who sang this?
Meme
Been hit with a ball?
Yes
Broken a bone?
No
Are you upset?
Yes
Do you feel bad about something
Yeah
What is it?
I upset Kira.. Bluehart... Furaffinity... and I think he hates me and I can't message him back till he messages me first cause I promised him that much and I really am sorry that I fucked up and I wish I could undo what I did.. I should have paid more attention and not been such a retard... Sorry steam... Didn't mean to ruin your birthday. Wish I didn't miss it and end up leaving you lonely.
So lonely... Are you lonely?
What are somethings the poster you took this from could do to improve their life/loneliness/thing they are upset about?
I don't know... I tried saying I'm sorry and I have no money to help..
Do you have money?
No
Would you be willing to donate it to Bluehart, TaviMunk, OzzieKitSkunk, WerewolfJak, GoodEats, or anyone who needs or wants it?
If I had the money I'd help them all out..
Do you're eyes burn right now?
A bit.. Stupid campfire
What song did you just/are you listening to?
First song of the flash thing There She Is!
Why are you listening to it?
It came on randomly out of my list
Why did you get that song for?
I loved the series and the music
Would you consider reposting this meme?
Yeah...
Where?
Furaffinity most likely...
If you repost it.. Would you tell GoodEats? He is the one who made it :3
Yeah I'll tell him.. Since I am him.
Cheeseburger in paradise
Jimmy buffet
Dead?
Have to go home today...
Homework
That house isn't home.. Home is where your heart is
I hate that place.
I'm sad
Ow my thumb
Start wearing purple
Gogol bordello?
Wish my issues would go away
I'm sorry Bluehart! I'm sorry Kira.. I'm sorry sorrysorrysorry.. Forgive me please... I was stupid.. I'm sorry..
Sorry steam... Forgive me.. I ruined your birthday...
I'm sorry pandy.. For giving you trouble..
I'm sorry Shin for being a bad person.. I'm sorry Ozzie for not being to help..
I'm sorry Tavi for not being a better friend
I'm sorry Hecky for bugging you..
I'm sorry dear watchers for giving you another journal on your list..
So tired
So... Lonely
Sorry Pepper for not being a wonderful friend..
I'm sorry Hikaru for being a bad friend..
Sorry Ethan.. For being a bad friend..
Why do I always fuck up?
I feel like I'm writing a will..
If I die right now.. My wii goes to My sister Lindsey.. My 360 goes to my sister Kylie.. Games with each system to with them..
Tv goes to Kylie.. Computer, extra one is Kylies..
The main one is lindseys I guess..
My iPod goes to Kylie..
Everything else goes to Lindsey.
Why am I writing a will?
I am sad..
I want to sleep..
So lonely...
Good night for now...
Journal time: 37 minutes.
I wish all the people that I mention I'm sorry to could read this journal.. But I don't think Kira has me on watch.. Or Pepper.. Or Ethan..
If you think anyone of them would like to see this or should http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/902938/ That's the link
Feline/ferret
Skunk
Skink
Jackalope
Mouse
German Shepherd
Cat
Crow
Marten
Bat
Other rodents?
Monkey
Red Panda
Raccoon
Jackel
Tribal marks?
Black cat/kitten cub
Cub?
Black and white lizard/croc/gator
Rabbit, bondage, red, black, and white
Tiger/Sibeerian
Mole
Badger
Likes to learn
Likes to build
Likes to destroy
Sleeps whenever
Moveable ears?
Tail lashes
Tail wags
Tail curls
Fangs?
Claws?
Fursuit
Enjoys sprawling out
Loves either really hot or really cold
Adapts well
Scared of heights
Dragon?
Enjoys attention from people
Enjoys helping
Enjoys scaring people
Wants people to be happy
Lonely.. So lonely
Fast recovery
Enjoys large power
Wants to recreate the world
Wants own world
Has own world
So lonely
Eastern towhee
Eastern towhee markings?
Easily loving
Very caring
Angry easily
Lots of selfcontrol
Very little selfcontrol
Loves to listen to music
Loves the inside
Loves the outside
Hates the outside
Hates the inside
Dual fursonas?
MFD?
BP?
Very fickle
Bad focus skills
Very focused
Persistent
Blood thirsty
Friendly
Lazy
Gives up easy
Never gives up
Easily upset
Easily discouraged
Low self esteem
Never cries outloud
Will keep going
Egotistical
Want a mate
Police officer
Paramore
So lonely
Possiblies of life
Can you cook and egg over a fire?
What kind of heart is one you can break?
Hate humans
Miss my friends
Hate technology
Love technology
Wants simple things
Wants so so much
Wants to be happy
Wants to have a name for self
Riot
Pain.. So much pain..
A broken heart can't be fixed with glue or tape, only another broken heart can understand and both must work together to become whole again.
So cold
Frost
Crying
Wanting to cry
So lonely
Want a small town to live in
Sun
Sunlight
God
Jesus?
Pillow
Soft
Feather
Itchy
Fleas
Lice
Tearing and tearing, removing them one by one with a comb with no shampoo.. Dig dig.. One at a time.. Kill them drown them.. Scalp so sore... Rid shampoo...
Toxins
Reeking stench
Dead bodies
Fire
Guns
Smoke
Coughing
Tears
Tear gas
Riot
Destruction
Fire
Burns
Melted skin
Destroyed life
Pain
Baseball
Homerun
Pride
Joy
Strikeout
Sadness
Fear
Defeat
Lonely
Tired
Sleep
Rem
Sleep cycle
Furaffinity
Forums
Art
Kira
Bluehart
Upset
Sorry
Wanting forgiveness
Regret
Feeling stupid
Hating self
Wanting to tear own skin off
Regret
Brant
Steam
Raccoon
Birthday
Movie
Ice cream
Cake
Freedom
Lonely
Sorry
Wanting forgiveness
Feeling stupid
Doesn't deserve forgiveness
Deserves pain
Low self esteem
Journaling
Furaffinity
Furries
Fun
Cons
Wonderful
So much fun
Post con depression
MFM
MFF
Groped
Scarred
21 Guns
21 gun salute
Dead soldier
America
Corrupt
Anarchy
Fire
Chaos
Lost
Darkness
Alone
Lonely
Sad
Fursona
Inside self missing
Who am I?
What am I?
Where are my answers?
Google won't work for this
Why is google everyones favorite?
Yahoo came first
Is google better?
I think so
Fallout 3
Enclave
Plasma rifle
Tesla cannon
Radiation
Super powers
I am a god
No
You're a goddess
Cunt
Bitch
Fuck you
I'll slit your throat
Don't fuck with me!
Fuck you all
I'll tear your throat out with my teeth
Who the fuck are you?
I don't know
Where am I?
Why?
Why?
Why?
Internal conflict
Multiple Fursona Disorder MFD
Bi polar?
Who is it?
Knock knock
Boo who?
Don't cry it's just a joke
Fuck your joke it's retarded
Human are retarded
Kill them
That's illegal
I know.. That's why I don't do it
Rainbow veins
Owl city
Happy song
Cocaine?
Blend up a rainbow and shoot it into your veins?
Yeah cocaine!
Fuck that
Why do all songs deal with drugs or sex?
Fucking rap
Fucking R&B
Fucking country
Fucking sister who likes them all
Fucking family
Kill them
I can't it's illegal
They give me money and food
I know but I hate them
They fight all day
Elfen Lied
Murder
Blood
Children
Murder
Nudity
Dyclonis
Shot in the head
Dreams
Sleep
Tired
Lonely
Campfire
My hands smell like smoke
I hate smoke
I hate cigarettes
Why do people smoke them?
It's fucking disgusting
I don't do drugs
It's gross
And it's expensive
Fuck
My eyes hurt
Kiss
Rock and roll all night
Rocky road
Ice cream
Comfort
Pancakes
Syrup
Sugar
Candy
Pop
Itchy arm
Fucking bugs
Where is my dad?
He promised we could fish today
Bait?
Sad
Kira
I'm sorry
Bluehart
Stupid me
Didn't mean it
I'm ungrateful
Itchy arm
Why the fuck it itch so bad?
Furaffinity journal
Blue Pandy
Shin
Tavi
Ozzie
Sierra
Dad is back
Regret
Sigh
Itchy
Pink
So what
I don't need you
Mother
Jeff
Moms boyfriend
Kill
Don't trust
Liar
Sex offender
Jerk
Not family
Freeloader
Next song?
Well thought out twinkles
Silversun pickups
Scar
Hazy
Zoned out
Pot
Don't do it
Can't afford it
Dad does it
Why?
If he's a stoner why isn't he accepting?
I hate Hikaru wolf... Ethan..
Damn his parents..
I wish they were mine...
I hate my mom..
I need more clothes
Not enough for a full week of changes
Half asleep
Lies
Pain
Baseball
Agony
Sore back
Unloved
Magic mountain
Anthrocon
Uncle?
Uncle red..
Red mewtwo
Missed my chance
Freefalling
Who sang this?
Meme
Been hit with a ball?
Yes
Broken a bone?
No
Are you upset?
Yes
Do you feel bad about something
Yeah
What is it?
I upset Kira.. Bluehart... Furaffinity... and I think he hates me and I can't message him back till he messages me first cause I promised him that much and I really am sorry that I fucked up and I wish I could undo what I did.. I should have paid more attention and not been such a retard... Sorry steam... Didn't mean to ruin your birthday. Wish I didn't miss it and end up leaving you lonely.
So lonely... Are you lonely?
What are somethings the poster you took this from could do to improve their life/loneliness/thing they are upset about?
I don't know... I tried saying I'm sorry and I have no money to help..
Do you have money?
No
Would you be willing to donate it to Bluehart, TaviMunk, OzzieKitSkunk, WerewolfJak, GoodEats, or anyone who needs or wants it?
If I had the money I'd help them all out..
Do you're eyes burn right now?
A bit.. Stupid campfire
What song did you just/are you listening to?
First song of the flash thing There She Is!
Why are you listening to it?
It came on randomly out of my list
Why did you get that song for?
I loved the series and the music
Would you consider reposting this meme?
Yeah...
Where?
Furaffinity most likely...
If you repost it.. Would you tell GoodEats? He is the one who made it :3
Yeah I'll tell him.. Since I am him.
Cheeseburger in paradise
Jimmy buffet
Dead?
Have to go home today...
Homework
That house isn't home.. Home is where your heart is
I hate that place.
I'm sad
Ow my thumb
Start wearing purple
Gogol bordello?
Wish my issues would go away
I'm sorry Bluehart! I'm sorry Kira.. I'm sorry sorrysorrysorry.. Forgive me please... I was stupid.. I'm sorry..
Sorry steam... Forgive me.. I ruined your birthday...
I'm sorry pandy.. For giving you trouble..
I'm sorry Shin for being a bad person.. I'm sorry Ozzie for not being to help..
I'm sorry Tavi for not being a better friend
I'm sorry Hecky for bugging you..
I'm sorry dear watchers for giving you another journal on your list..
So tired
So... Lonely
Sorry Pepper for not being a wonderful friend..
I'm sorry Hikaru for being a bad friend..
Sorry Ethan.. For being a bad friend..
Why do I always fuck up?
I feel like I'm writing a will..
If I die right now.. My wii goes to My sister Lindsey.. My 360 goes to my sister Kylie.. Games with each system to with them..
Tv goes to Kylie.. Computer, extra one is Kylies..
The main one is lindseys I guess..
My iPod goes to Kylie..
Everything else goes to Lindsey.
Why am I writing a will?
I am sad..
I want to sleep..
So lonely...
Good night for now...
Journal time: 37 minutes.
I wish all the people that I mention I'm sorry to could read this journal.. But I don't think Kira has me on watch.. Or Pepper.. Or Ethan..
If you think anyone of them would like to see this or should http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/902938/ That's the link
Well all I think I can say is get to feeling better.