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Trying to change and not say your name [NEW POEM]
6 years ago
I want to let go
Some how my cleanse my soul
I don't want my heart to turn into a black hole
Friends point out my faults
I want to be a more functional adult
I don’t want to think of you
I'm really stuck on you…
Trying to find a way to move on from you
My mind is screwed by you…
All I do is bring everyone down
I don’t ever deserve a crown
I've been closer to the ground
Dragging all those friends down, making me wish I could drown
I’m sorry I always have a frown
Making my soul brown
Only turning my heart to sound
I don't want to always feel down…
My dream ruined by your mean…
The way you treated me was unfair
I don't know if you ever cared...
I picture you as an evil swear
I “curse” you out of my life.
Try to get you out of my mind
Life’s been a slide…
Why was I so blind?
Just want to know why
Why did you come into my life?
You always told me you wanted to be my wife.
…for that I stayed by your side, but this is the thanks I get?
Slippery snake with a slit…
You tricked me by telling me you wanted my kids.
And I did a lot for all of “this”
For A “twisted” chick who made me sick…
Why'd you do any of “this”?
You turned into a which
I bough you a “ring"
A fuzzy one you can only find in a dream or work as hard as me.
In return you cheated on me within a week…
Left me for some one weaker than me…
At least I know I'll never cheat. Look what it has done to me. Not sure anyone would spend 3000$ on me
Liz.. you never gave me the biz.
What is this a quiz?
Should have left you to ‘fizz'
I would never do any of this
Not sure why I deserve any pain
Is it because I'm a perv? So you degrade…
So you throw it all down the drain?
Makes me feel like I'm going insane…
My friends say I talk about you to much.
I don't want attention for your none affection.. I want rehabilitation.
“Devotion” was only a lied emotion…
Only providing fake ‘promotion’
Trying to change and not stay the same.
I won't dare say your name…
I will no longer play your petty game…
You really are “trouble” it’s a shame…
Despite feeling I deserve closure..
It’s a pipe because you've been so mean.
Your apologies are garbage to me
Therapy is the only cure for me, even if I've been so weak…
You no longer control me.
I know eventually you'll come looking for me.
But I'll show you the same as you've been treating me
There’s the door can’t you see?
I don't care any more for the reason as to why you left me and started to ignore me.
The fandom is closed to users and abusers who mistreat others
((Thank you for reading if you did))
Some how my cleanse my soul
I don't want my heart to turn into a black hole
Friends point out my faults
I want to be a more functional adult
I don’t want to think of you
I'm really stuck on you…
Trying to find a way to move on from you
My mind is screwed by you…
All I do is bring everyone down
I don’t ever deserve a crown
I've been closer to the ground
Dragging all those friends down, making me wish I could drown
I’m sorry I always have a frown
Making my soul brown
Only turning my heart to sound
I don't want to always feel down…
My dream ruined by your mean…
The way you treated me was unfair
I don't know if you ever cared...
I picture you as an evil swear
I “curse” you out of my life.
Try to get you out of my mind
Life’s been a slide…
Why was I so blind?
Just want to know why
Why did you come into my life?
You always told me you wanted to be my wife.
…for that I stayed by your side, but this is the thanks I get?
Slippery snake with a slit…
You tricked me by telling me you wanted my kids.
And I did a lot for all of “this”
For A “twisted” chick who made me sick…
Why'd you do any of “this”?
You turned into a which
I bough you a “ring"
A fuzzy one you can only find in a dream or work as hard as me.
In return you cheated on me within a week…
Left me for some one weaker than me…
At least I know I'll never cheat. Look what it has done to me. Not sure anyone would spend 3000$ on me
Liz.. you never gave me the biz.
What is this a quiz?
Should have left you to ‘fizz'
I would never do any of this
Not sure why I deserve any pain
Is it because I'm a perv? So you degrade…
So you throw it all down the drain?
Makes me feel like I'm going insane…
My friends say I talk about you to much.
I don't want attention for your none affection.. I want rehabilitation.
“Devotion” was only a lied emotion…
Only providing fake ‘promotion’
Trying to change and not stay the same.
I won't dare say your name…
I will no longer play your petty game…
You really are “trouble” it’s a shame…
Despite feeling I deserve closure..
It’s a pipe because you've been so mean.
Your apologies are garbage to me
Therapy is the only cure for me, even if I've been so weak…
You no longer control me.
I know eventually you'll come looking for me.
But I'll show you the same as you've been treating me
There’s the door can’t you see?
I don't care any more for the reason as to why you left me and started to ignore me.
The fandom is closed to users and abusers who mistreat others
((Thank you for reading if you did))
Just take what you learned from the experience and try to move on. :3
I've been trying to.. But it isn't so easy to do.